Sanny 1h

I am changing.
I'm not greatful nor have I gained wisdom from what happened to me.
But I am tougher, my barrier is stronger.
I know who I am, and I'm no longer afraid.
No more bullshit and lies.
I see through it all.
So take your best shot, I dare you.

Mars 9h

Lately the world is different
Everyday I am changing
But here I sit
How I always sit

How on Earth to be confident
When your mind is changing
I am shaken
Emotion stirred
So here I sit
How I always sit

With no hope but to awaken
And filter out the absurd

The key does not fit
And the lock does not open
For this place I called home
Is no longer my own

Will they know the feeling
As they gaze from
The second floor window
"This draft gives me goosebumps
As the rain dribbles down the glass
And the dog is howling
As it thunders over the veranda
But it can't touch me
I am safe
I am home"

The season has changed
And you've moved away
Now the rain's pouring
And I don't feel safe

MyDystopiA May 27

Tried to make the change,
blackness covers me again.

I contain
                  in all my shame.
I maintain
                  in all my pain.

©JM.Cole

Her life was set for art. But when she set it to someone else, she bid goodbye to the colors and welcomed darkness.

I see your voice and feel your eyes
In the void between my skies and soul

In the gap where life denies
In the wound between broken and whole

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

There where your bones meet mine
Where blood washes through

In that war between the divine
I feel you breaking through

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

Here's my altimatum
If you want my life so good
Make silence my anthem
Cause only you could
Make gentleness my fist
And forgiveness my kiss
Until I can't resist
Cause I will resist
A new heart
Set apart
Solid
Without I
Sold
I must die

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new
And I hope I don't survive you.

It's time to grow.
Grow together.
Goodness will flow.
Flow righteously.

It's time to let go.
Let go of fear.
Falling like snow.
Snow turned to a warm heart.

It's time to sow.
Sow in someone's soul.
Love will show
when you change.

Honestly, this dishonesty is hard to keep up
It's easier said than done
"I'd rather be with you than on my own"
He doesn't say it out loud
I'm not sure his heart even knows
Consciously unconscious
He's blinded by the attention
He wants to feel the love
Do us all a favor kid,
Be vulnerable for once
Let the pain change you
See how it feels to be alone

I've been watching you do this, it really isn't fun. I wish you would just listen to one of us for once

Things change,
You get to
Decide
How you want
To remember them

(c)ibarker

You may not see me
For my mask of sorrow hides me
You can see me smiling
But that's merely what I want you to see.
I'm not blind to your pity

Yes, yes.
You say I'm brave and oh so strong
"Everything will get better"
Please be quiet
For my ears are sore,
And this conversation is much too long

I don't want your pity
I don't want your sorries
Yea I'm hurting
No I'm not okay.

Yes I'll survive
Yes it'll be alright.
But I don't want your casserole
I don't want your muffins

I don't want your attention
Now that I've lost someone so dear
I don't need your homemade cookies
And don't want to sit and talk
And No, I don't want a beer

Yes I'm hurting.
No I'm not okay.
But I don't want your help.
Nothing will change anyway.

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