I am changing.
I'm not greatful nor have I gained wisdom from what happened to me.
But I am tougher, my barrier is stronger.
I know who I am, and I'm no longer afraid.
No more bullshit and lies.
I see through it all.
So take your best shot, I dare you.

Lately the world is different
Everyday I am changing
But here I sit
How I always sit

How on Earth to be confident
When your mind is changing
I am shaken
Emotion stirred
So here I sit
How I always sit

With no hope but to awaken
And filter out the absurd

The key does not fit
And the lock does not open
For this place I called home
Is no longer my own

Will they know the feeling
As they gaze from
The second floor window
"This draft gives me goosebumps
As the rain dribbles down the glass
And the dog is howling
As it thunders over the veranda
But it can't touch me
I am safe
I am home"

The season has changed
And you've moved away
Now the rain's pouring
And I don't feel safe

Tried to make the change,
blackness covers me again.

I contain
                  in all my shame.
I maintain
                  in all my pain.

©JM.Cole

I see your voice and feel your eyes
In the void between my skies and soul

In the gap where life denies
In the wound between broken and whole

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

There where your bones meet mine
Where blood washes through

In that war between the divine
I feel you breaking through

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

Here's my altimatum
If you want my life so good
Make silence my anthem
Cause only you could
Make gentleness my fist
And forgiveness my kiss
Until I can't resist
Cause I will resist
A new heart
Set apart
Solid
Without I
Sold
I must die

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new
And I hope I don't survive you.

It's time to grow.
Grow together.
Goodness will flow.
Flow righteously.

It's time to let go.
Let go of fear.
Falling like snow.
Snow turned to a warm heart.

It's time to sow.
Sow in someone's soul.
Love will show
when you change.

Honestly, this dishonesty is hard to keep up
It's easier said than done
"I'd rather be with you than on my own"
He doesn't say it out loud
I'm not sure his heart even knows
Consciously unconscious
He's blinded by the attention
He wants to feel the love
Do us all a favor kid,
Be vulnerable for once
Let the pain change you
See how it feels to be alone