walking around the pâtiserrie line
hoping i might find your smile
i miss you a lil bit more
the breeze tickles her hair
and takes her worries with it.
the sun wants a break
just for a little while.
she misses the sun,
but knows it needs a minute.
she'll be here when it's ready.
This boy stayed up with me all night, as we watched the office.
He would always go easy on me when I would "fight" him.
(Especially since he is 6' and im only 5'5")
We played minecraft together and laughed more than we should've.
I miss him. Even though I really shouldn't.
I used to get attached to everyone too quickly.
Im not clingy, but i would care about them a lot.
And this goes mostly for friendships.
But then eventually i found out that i would always care so much about someone who literally never cared about me.
And thats when i admitted to myself that i fr catch feelings too quickly
I wanted to be there when the lightning strikes, when there’s nothing but a hopeless fight, I wanted to hold you tight when the world’s on fire. And to keep on telling you how it will be alright to cry at night and to weep before closing your eyes. I wanted to tell you a lot of things that I kept inside, not knowing that life can take you away without a goodbye.
I love you always and forever
I have no excuses for all of my abuses
I'm afraid to get close to you
Cuz' I can't say no to you.
We have been apart for so long
Hiding feelings so strong
Every time you get close, I push you away
Cuz' I know I'd fall in love with you again
Even if it was just for one day
I am so tempted but then I retreat
But missing you is no easy feat
Think of you often as I like to do
Wishing and wishing for just one day with you
So one day I hope you ask
Cuz' I can't say no to you...
© Karl V. (2017)
tonight i will sleep with my windows open
and i will only lie with you when the bed is bare
i hope that time isnt linear
so i can stop wondering if we could just go back.
i would keep moving forward,
keep moving on,
she would bring me back to you.
"im happy for them" i say
"im happy for us too"
I dreamt of you twice this week.
For the first time in a long time.
In the first dream I could see you
(you couldn't see me).
And upon waking I
was so happy.
I felt so
to have you back
in my visions orbit.
The second dream we were lying next to each other.
I touched your hair how you always liked.
You told me you missed me
and you didn't know why.
I told you I miss you too
and I don't know why.
Part of me hopes you dream these dreams too.
I went weeks without hearing your name, and without uttering it aloud.
I heard your name today and it felt like a punch to the gut.
Will I always be this way when it comes to you?
I just want to be okay.