i still talk about you like im coming home to you
i still act like ill see you later
i still mention your name in all my conversations
i still think about you in everything i do
i still wish you were my boyfriend
The hardest thing to reconcile
Is that you genuinely believed you love me,
And I truly loved you.
Now, I confuse gentle touch for hostile
Because you were wonderfully gentle
Until you weren't,
Before returning to gentle again.
The hardest part to reconcile is how you could be "so in love,"
Yet in that moment,
You were only concerned for your pleasure.
With a love like that,
I would never need enemies.
They taught us to scream "fire!"
"Help!" Would elicit no response.
They told us to wedge keys in our fingers,
To never walk alone in the night.
They told us to watch out for strangers,
To avoid masked men in dark alleys.
No one ever told me to beware of the man in my own bed,
To shudder when he told me he loved me.
No one told me that I would freeze,
Limbs powerless to fight him off.
They did not tell me I would know him, trust him, love him
Until the moment I couldn't anymore.
You can keep your **** whistles,
Your fists with car keys and staining sprays.
You can keep your roofie nail polish and SOS phone apps.
None of it would have done me any good
As I lay there, clinging to bed sheets and teddy bear.
you make me wanna dance
spin me into a never-ending evanescent grace
your soul hanging in the balance with mine
your fingers trace the script of my body
written in ink, stained black and blue
bruised into my soul by hands so cruel
so many poems of insecurity
are bled into the deepest parts of me
blurring the lines of reality facing sanity
you make me want to dance
you clean the slate that's tainted by my past
your gaze, only ever loving
as your lips part to whisper
the beauty that your love provides
days that once were haunted
by the harsh actions of undeserving men
seem like a distant nightmare
your constant reassurance, your unwavering understanding
you find the lost parts of me
lead me through the dark to where i'm meant to be
i see a future for us
provided by our love
i can't ever thank you enough
i'm so in love with such an amazing god-send of a man
Of ****** love poems
For ****** guys
Who didn't mean ****
I have someone
Lucky to love me
And I'm choking
On my words
Stumbling over stanzas
Pushing out puns
I don't know
How to react
To something so good
To beg for love
When you're starving
You try to find it
In the darkest ******* places
That I'm not hungry
Now that I'm being fed love
Served on a silver spoon
I keep waiting
For the knife
To come back out
When I least expect it
You sip on self pity
Now that wine has been vanquished from the house.
Bitter insults leaving your tongue
Like the smell of alcohol on your breath
As you pinned me to the mattress all those nights ago.
You accuse me of being like the rest,
Always leaving you in your worst moments.
Never had I questioned why they left.
You tell me to run,
For you only abuse those you love.
I had thought that your overcritical mind was exaggerating.
I wish I had seen those for what they were,
Not some misplaced self hatred.
It is proof of my love that you seek,
The thrill of me chasing you as you degrade and run away
That fuels your affection for me.
You ask me to tell you I love you.
You ask me to assure you I will never leave.
You want me to beg you to stay.
I once loved you.
I am leaving you.
There will be no need when I am done.
i want to peel off
all my skin- -
out of punishment
for knowing it was once
touched by you.
bit by bit its memories- -
out of jealousy
that you’re gone
and it remains.
i will then
hastily tape it back- -
piece by piece
the only remaining artifice
of your earthly exploration.
it will be ****- -
it is ****.
without your touch- -
it is useless.
I want you to
Touch my body
Grab my thighs
With enough force
To take my breath away
Just barely feel
The leather paddle
On my skin
Before you bruise my body
Sending me into submission
Whisper ***** words
Across my chest
Each time you go
From ****** to ******
Shock me with electric stimulation
Feel the sparks fly
Between my legs
Vibrate my ****
While you find the good spot
The great spot
The most glorious spot there is
And watch me writhe and moan
While you do it
Bite my neck
Letting me know that I'm yours
When you leave a mark
Take over my body
And tie me up
Cover my eyes
Lick my body
Until you feel
A river release from me
Until you hear
An elongated opera from me
Until you see
A woman whipped for you
I want You here
all the time
I want You
to think about Me
when You are away
to dream about Me
when We're tangled up
in the same bed
I want You
to want My body
to crave a kiss
from only My lips
I don't want You
wanting other girls
just being with Me
while You wait
for the next best thing
I want to live with You
take showers with You
wash Your ***** laundry
and cook Your favorite meals
I want to spend as much time
as I possibly can
glued to Your side
kissing Your cheeks
holding Your hands
whispering sweet nothings
while We intertwine ourselves all night
under the glow of the lamp light
staying up way too late
and sleeping in until the dog wakes Us up
to tell You
all these things