Over there They smile Over here Nothing Plastic smiles and shiny eyes Uncomfortable by my presence She's having here best moments But not with me It was never me In the mirror unforgiving gaze My eyes can't seem to hide the unease I'm am no more unrecognizable Replaced with a cruel illusion Silence echoes over here Shaking my world like never before Down on my knees Saying my last please While you smile over there And nothing over here
Ghosts inside of the machine.. Is it memory or dream? Having been there, having seen something in that space that is never as it seems, just somewhere in between. Somewhere, somehow it all exists and yet does not. Sometime, somehow we got caught up in the dream And forgot about the Now.
I forgot to remember to forget all the days of child abuse alone In dark shut In the cupboard under the stairs I forgot to remember to forget that If I cried the door would be opened and slippers would be thrown at me then locked again I forgot to remember to forget the beating at the hands if my mother with the back of a wooden hand brush I forgot to remember to forget the ****** abuse suffered at the hands of my brother which my parents chose to ignore I forgot to remember to forget that I never smiled as a kid people would ask why they would say come on smile But they didn't know of the child abuse I suffered at the hands of mother for they didn't have to remember to forget
I forgot to remember to forget that I suffered at the hands of my mother sexually abused by brother
As you can see, I've never been a prodigy. Always unimpressive, apparently. Stressing is an everyday thing. But you wouldn't care, You're just so unaware. Depression has me ensnared, But you couldn't handle my despair. So keep your eyes closed. And I'll do the same. The things I think about are completely insane, I wish the good times would never change. But this isn't my dreamland. It's a place where I don't want to stand. Depression is the ocean, Anxiety is the sand, And I'm somewhere floating in between it all.