i should be listening to music,
while writing love poems.
but i’m busy,
and all i can manage is a short little note,
about something else.
my mind feels like clean paper today,
fresh and beautiful.
it’s been filled with the brightest colors
-someone telling me i’m beautiful,
someone loving my words,
someone whispering promises of heaven in a song.
it’s been filled with bright-eyed questions,
but always feeling oh so very right.
i feel oh so very right.
i ignore this small twinge in my gut,
my life is going so well,
that i do not doubt.
but i ignore that small twinge in gut,
when someone said i could be cured.
their face appears everywhere,
and their face is my mother’s inspiration.
does she think i can be cured?
i am the perfect daughter.
i study, i volunteer.
i am happy, i am kind.
i am in clubs. i am good with my friends,
reasonable and responsible.
but there’s a blight she doesn’t know -a blight that is not a disease.
but when your inspiration tells you so, would you dismiss it as an interesting view?
would you believe it if you knew my blight? or would you forget?
i, i can only describe my blight as bright.
i have been told i light, like every color in the world.
for once, i feel right.
i may not fit in, but i know the lines on which i walk.
or i know how to walk.
because you told me, to hear someone who said i was bright.
because you have always supported what i am.