God created Adam and Eve
Not Adam and Steve.

But God also created ******,
So why should I believe?


F.Z.**N

Your mother is sad, Adam.
I bumped into her the other day.
She was walking out of the supermarket
With a dozen wine bottles
Inside of a large paper bag.
And she was just a woman
With a smiling face
And a crying heart
Who was never going to see her son
Again.


F.Z.**N

I once had a human heart
It beat right in my ears
Now the buzzing of a fly
Seems to have replaced
All the inner sounds
That were eating me
From within.

There is this girl
With cute tiny feet
And she once was my friend.
Now she's screaming
Writing a suicide letter
On ***** sheets.
Sheets I climbed into
Without guilt,
Without remorse,
Without emotion.

I said, "sorry I am poison.
I contaminated you
But you shouldn't have touched me."
I said,
"I try to live up to expectations
But most of the time I fail.
Most of the time I hurt me."

She wasn't listening anyway.
For her, I had ceased to exist.
For her I had no heart beat.

But I hope she can still
Hear hers.


F.Z.**N

It is the summer
And the days,
The days,
They are horribly
Terribly
Long.

I miss you.


F.Z.**N

I am icy cold
Because nobody handles
My liquid state.


F.Z.**N

The lonely tear
Upon your cheek
It settles.


F.Z.**N

I loved you stupidly
And you stuck like nothing else.


F.Z.**N

You drilled holes on my skin
And peeked at my within.


F.Z.**N

Please don't say forever.
It's the Devil's punishment.


F.Z.**N

I look at her.
I look at myself.

She is one to love
And I'm one to rid of.


F.Z.**N

Two seconds with you
Were worth a thousand years of sorrow.
In your eyes, I saw eternity,
Scarcely cared about tomorrow.

But now you're gone
And I've never been so hollow.


F.Z.**N

You smelled of life
And hope and a future ahead.
I smelled of ennui instead.

You took me to your bed
And ****** with my head.


F.Z.**N

Bones under my house
Bones, many of them
Buried by dogs
Brothers and sisters
Proud of their shame
Ashamed of their pride.


F.Z.**N

You are flesh and bone
But your heart is stone.


F.Z.**N

You pushed me off of a boat
And watched me.
You watched me drown.


- Eleanor

I am happy for you.
And sad,
Very sad for myself.


F.Z.**N

I just want to go to bed
And wake up
In someone else's head.


F.Z.**N

We met in mid April
And I think
That it was our love
That taught flowers
To bloom.


F.Z.**N

I am tired of carrying my body.
It's heavy, really heavy.


F.Z.**N

I wrote him a note
That said,
I am leaving.
And he tossed it
To the bin
And said,
I must be dreaming.


F.Z.**N

Love seekers are matches
Looking for a flame.

It lights them up,
Gives them meaning
And then...

And then it kills them.


F.Z.**N

Tangled are your hands
Around my heart.

If you let go
I will come apart.

And I hope that she makes you happy
The way you once made me.


F.Z.**N

Blank are your eyes
when you look in the sun
and pretend you're alive.


F.Z.**N

I am not for him
For he has her
And I am not for you
For you have her.

I am for loneliness
For she has me,
For I have her
And we have each other.


F.Z.**N

If I had been born without a heart
I would have still fallen in love with you.


F.Z.**N

Love is a butterfly
That looks beautiful
From afar.
It's wild, it's free,
It's undoubtedly happy.
Some try to catch it,
Others simply watch it.
And I, like the rest
Was curious.
Perhaps too curious
For my own good.

Love is a butterfly
That looks beautiful
From afar
Though ugly
Very ugly
When you get too close,
Believe me.


F.Z.**N

I am neither a girl
Nor a boy.
I just dress as I please
And sometimes
I wear make up.
I am neither your girlfriend
Nor your boyfriend.
I am your lover.
I whisper
Some three words
To your ear
With a low voice.
And when you anger me
I tell you to *******
In a higher pitch.
I am neither a She
Nor a He.
I am human, only.


F.Z.**N

Cheers to silence
When she calls
And you leave.
Cheers to how fast
She makes
Your heart beat.
Cheers to your new love.
Cheers to what I don't have
Any more...


F.Z.**N

**** me,
**** me with your
Empty promises
And double speeches.
**** me,
Shoot me with the bullet
I once gave you as a vote.


F.Z.**N

You are taller than he was
And good for a change.


F.Z.**N

You bit your lip
And winked at me
A glass of wine in your hand,
A cigarette
Hanging out of your mouth.
You were *******
On the floor
And I barefoot
On the bed
With three other people
Who talked a lot.
You mumbled something
To yourself
But the music
Was too loud.
I looked away,
I looked up to the ceiling
Which had disappeared
To put the stars on display.

And you and me, my love.
We were there.


F.Z.**N

I used to date a guy
And he broke me.
Now I belong to nobody.


F.Z.**N

Life has nothing
That can amaze
Let alone impress,
And the future
Is faceless.
I want to die
In silence.
I want to disappear
Off of myself,
Off of the sphere.


F.Z.**N

I can't sleep tonight;
I am longing for a message.


--Eleanor

I saw chemistry
Between your smiles
And my shy looks.
I mean, I really did
See something
In the way
You handed me that cigarette,
In the way
You asked me to spend the night,
In the way
You made me feel less empty.

I don't know.
Maybe I simply read too much
Into your politeness.
Maybe you're just another guy
Who already belongs
To someone else.


F.Z.**N

I sailed you
Like an ocean.
And you were
As blue,
As deep,
As dangerous.


— Eleanor

Don't feed me any more pain,
I have enough
To get me through the year.

Take it easy on me, my dear.


F.Z.**N

I don't want a palace,
I don't want gold or diamonds,
I don't want the heavens.

I just want you
For you are my everything.


F.Z.**N

I am dead
For you killed me.

Now please bury me.


F.Z.**N

You are annoying
And I hate you.
But my eyes,
My eyes suggest otherwise.


F.Z.**N

God took the rain
And he tossed it in my eyes
And said, save this.
Save this for a bad day.
Save this for the bad day.
And when he leaves you
Cry it all away,
Use it all up,
And the sun will shine again.


F.Z.**N

He grabbed me by the hair
And beat me up.
I said, daddy stop it
Please not here.
Daddy, I don't know who you are
Daddy, you're not my daddy
Any more
Daddy, go away.

He punched me several places,
Several times
Until I bled.
Until I hated him enough
To spit on his face.
Until I loved him enough
To believe I deserved it.

He screamed I was a *****.
He screamed it so many times
It got to my head
And changed the way
I saw myself.

I said, daddy not here,
Not today.
But he beat me up
Harder.


F.Z.**N

I wish my heart
Was steel.
I wish it didn't feel

Anything,
Anything at all.


F.Z.**N

Last night I had a dream
You still loved me
And it was
The most beautiful dream
God has put in me.


F.Z.**N

Poetry walks into a bar.
She gets drunk
On life.


F.Z.**N

I was in my early twenties
when you first kissed me.
And now I'm in my middle twenties
And no one's ever beat your kiss yet.
I doubt anyone ever will.


F.Z.**N

It wasn't the heartbreak, no.
It wasn't the anxiety or lack of motivation.
It wasn't the drugs that killed him.

I think that he simply got tired
Of all those lined up houses
In his neighbourhood.


F.Z.**N

If he can break me,
He can break you.


F.Z.**N

A cockatiel lives in my ribcage
and maybe it should
come out and tell me about
the pain it swallows
and turns into songs,
songs for everybody to hear.

I am fine with it there most
of the time, really.
But sometimes at night my pretentious
heart gets tired and I want
to tear it up and set the bird free.
There's nothing that can save me.


F.Z.**N