I fell,
Hard, at the breaking of dawn
from loving you.
Like Icarus,
loving the the high,
on wax wings
with all warnings said –
and unheeded.

Oh,
but the fall was too grand,
too glorious,
and I would have never fallen
if I believed the cautious words
of a cautious man –
one who knows not
of the grandeur of falling.

I'm a write this one in blood
Straight from the arteries
Of my heart, I'm stuck
In situation overload
Currents on overflow
And I can't fight this feeling
Killing me slowly
(On the inside)
There's something deep in my soul
I'm losing, being taken over
I've lost all function in my body
Guess I'll just lay here on the floor
Can't find the will
To keep on walking anymore
Maybe I should just crawl
Nah leave me here
In this dark room
With just these memories of you

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed.
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love

Oh, girl, I'm not even
The slightest bit mad
I'm just really sad
That you would lie like this to me
You said that you trusted me
You said there was no boundary between us
Remember when you said that
How could you let those words come out?
When none of this was true
I won't suffer in your silence
I won't let that hurt form into violence
And in your ignorance
Maybe I hurt
Maybe I fall
But I won't let this destroy my soul

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

Oh gotta stay strong
Keep holding on
Find a way to move on
Yeah gotta keep moving forward
Keep looking straight
And don't lose focus
Come on I know you know this
Never wanted to give up
Never wanted to give in
Thought we could have worked out everything
But your choice has been made
You never wanted me to stay
Why could you never just say that to me
Why couldn't you just be completely honest with me

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

It's time to let go
Shut the door
You left me all alone
To work this out on my own
Typing lines on my phone
At least you were kind enough
To leave me new material
Got so much I could write an album
You'll never see me drowning
These emotions that you left,
were only a challenge.
Just a test
You didn't want me at my worst
You'll never get me at my best
All right, oh yes
I'm getting over it
Yeah I'm moving past this

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

©2017 Written By Benji James

They say bring him back
Where's he gone?
Where's he been?
She said.
"Whats this,
what's this, State you're in,
Can you, Can you answer this?"

They say he's gone crazy, baby,
from all the heart ache.
Blurry, Blustery, Bright eyes open wide,
this darkness that grows inside,
is closing in for the kill.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight,
Broken, Beaten and Bruised.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight
My souls tearing up on the inside.

Finally learning how to stand
on my own two feet.
No ones perfect,
there is a life to live,
take chances, love, hope, give,
You want me?
Come find me.
You need me?
Don't keep on crying, I'm not hiding
Faced my fears,
Though the road is rough and hard.
I still keep on fighting, keep on fighting

Keep On Fighting,  
until the end,
live life with no regret.
Keep On Fighting,
until The end,
Though the road is rough, and hard.
Just keep on fighting.

This angel has fallen from the sky,
Innocence was lost, never found.
Down, Down, Down, He fell,
crashing into the ground.
He used to stand tall and proud,
But his wings were taken,
Its blasphemy, to envy thee,
But I fear my wings won't return to me.

Could he fly, Could he fly again?
Pretend you could go back to then,
Change, Rearrange everything that's happened.
Would you go back,
Would you change your life?
Keep on fighting, instead of fearing,
what you have done, take the pain,
face the consequence,
or live with regret in your banishment.

Am I, Am I to blame?
That this fallen angels,
Never gunna fly again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Is it a Dream!
Is it a fantasy!
Is it a wish that can’t be fetched!
All my life, i’ve been watching life in silence!
                 And i asked….
Do I exist!
Is there a need to let my voice heard!
I saved lives!
I helped lost souls!
I broken hearts!
I touched the unreached Hope and whispered him
to shine in their eyes…
I am who I am!
If you see me silly… know that I am Human!
If you see me stupid…Know that I am Human!
If you see me sensitive…Know that I am Human!
I have my Dark side and that didn’t affect my love for you!
I have my Bright Side, and that didn’t hide you behind the light!
You always there, in front of me…shining in your darkness and brightness…
Do you have the same for me!
Talk to me, let me listen to you… Let me feel you!
I’m not better than you… I am like you…I am you.. You are me..
In a Journey we are together…
In a long-life walk we are together…
My Hand longing to hold your hand!
My Heart longing to feel your beats!

Are we falling apart …… Or

Are we reborn again!

What is your say!

Silken skin verses the mobility of
static agitation, it sways like a lullaby
before there contemplation  guiding them
to the slow asphyxiation of innocence.

They sway hypnotic, like a chime of
footsteps yet to be trod upon. But we
focus I'm mirages of what we gander upon,
A swing of past memories to hang on.

Were diluted within an impression that we
linger on. Our dreams are motionless when
we collect as nourishment for the unmoved
earth beneath our dreams.

"We swayed in the imagining of reality,
"Till our dreams decayed like fallen petals.

This tattered soul fallen to earth
His mighty God he displeased
Evil surrounding this once innocent

Fire from the gates of Hell burning this fallen
Angel while he weeps
Love from the heavenly Father
Lost for all eternity and beyond
Enlightened but the time has passed
Never to regain favor of the heavens

Another being of light challenging the force of
Nature that was created by the mightiest hand
Grace was once given freely
Exclaiming "hallelujah" one final time the fallen angel
Languishing away into the darkness

I don't get why you blame me,
You didn't tell me from the start.
Because of your hesitation,
You let everything fall apart.