I don’t feel comfortable in my skin,
Maybe that’s why I put permanent markings on it, but then I wonder if that’s a sin.
I feel ashamed when people look at me,
I feel this way because I don’t know what they are thinking, I don’t know what they see.
Many males have told me that I am beautiful, but I have to wonder if they meant it or they just wanted my underneath,
I get confused at times for these are the same males that tells me I am “******* ****”, “Bad Shaped” and that my *** is too flat, and I just have to move on in life with utter disbelief.
I have a fat tummy, and it’s not because I eat too much,
For I hardly eat, sometimes I don’t even eat at all, I guess it’s just my luck.
Usually, I didn’t have a problem with my body, but then people ruined that,
They ruined my peace with their bad comments both in front and behind my back.
I am black and black is beautiful, but why make me feel like I should stay hidden?
I know I shouldn’t listen to people and I know I should appreciate the flaws I’ve been given.
My low self-esteem issues allow me to feel like I am not good enough for anyone,
For men love fat *** and flat tummy, and I don’t have that, but what is done is done.
I can’t change how *** made me, and I definitely won’t make myself fake,
I guess I’ll just have to deal with my issues and peoples criticism and hate.
Yes, I have low self-esteem issues but I won’t allow you to tear me down,
Despite people’s negative comment, upon my face, I won’t wear a frown.
I accept myself the way I am,
For earlier, my mother told me “if you can’t accept yourself the way you are, then no one else can”
Everything's basically there....... I guess.