pinpricks of light
I walked you out one starry night
we looked up at the moon.
What I saw in you that time
was autumn in full bloom.
It's weird to think a calming season
never gets but wont recede.
My time away brought back my heart
my emotions bare like seeds.
You watered them and let them grow,
disparaged all my weeds.
You saw the good inside myself,
it's you I really need.
But time did come and changed the season,
tricked myself but had no reason,
left your bloom and gave my treason,
all because of bad midseason.
So I apologize it's not enough,
and seeing you got really tough,
not pulling shit,
not giving bluffs.
I've missed your season,
it's been rough.
And then one night,
hanging out with all our friends.
we saw the moon,
I saw your light,
your fullest bloom.
hues of (you)
(leave) my heartspace sublime
you continue to paint (me)
in (a)ll of my rhymes
so my sun keeps it’s (shine)
so my Light (i) can find
all our moments (eternally)
(grow) toward the sky
oh our colors (the)y bloom
and my heart becomes (new)
(you) will always be my
true illusion (to) time
floating in soft light
moving through webs
Flower flower, on your stem,
Do you not worry less and less,
What you’ll be, like one of them?
Flower flower, in the wind,
Take my heart, take me in.
I’ve wanted nothing else since.
Flower flower, how you bloom!
You shine so brightly just to be in a room.
Time controls when fate is too soon.
Flower flower, where do you live?
You’re stolen of pedals and yet you still live,
Hoping there’s more you can happily give.
Flower flower, in the grass,
Are you not crying, are you not sad?
I’m already used to it with all I’ve had.
Flower flower, show me your face,
I want to be you, I want to have grace.
So I will always have the words to say.
Flower flower, please open up,
Show us your pedals, show us your love.
There’s no reason why you shouldn’t reach for the sun.
Flower flower, hold your ground,
Don’t be alarmed when you hear the sound,
Of others mocking and playing around.
Flower flower, release your scent,
Let us know you and no longer guess,
Of your colors, shape, or past.
Flower flower, tell me your fears.
I will listen to you whenever you’re near,
And hear your voice when you fail to endear.
Flower flower, show me how.
Do they not hurt, do they not gouge?
You were tried and forsaken, yet you make no sound.
Flower flower, hear my cry.
You’ve heard so many others so why not mine?
Seems all there is to do in life is die.
Flower flower, I beg you, don’t fade.
Choose to keep on, choose to stay.
Before the wolves devour my last words I’ve always wanted to say.
Flower flower, forgive my actions.
I faded away along with the ashes,
Holding the fire, holding the rashes.
Flower flower, I can explain.
I’m so desperate to say what I’ve always to say,
Waiting for that one miraculous day.
Flower flower, I made a mistake.
I know I’ll remember it all the way to my grave.
I’ve told you nothing, so don’t bother saying what you’ll say.
Flower flower, it’s not your fault.
You were never aware of this pain as I walked through the halls.
I kept my head held high, kept my shoulders tall.
Flower flower, where will you be,
When I’m buried and no longer can see?
Guess you were the person and I was the deed.
Your name felt like thorns on my tongue.
Oh, but how I longed to see the rose you once were.
I admired you even as you wilted.
Even now, dead.
But I miss the flushed color of you, the velvet of your petals against my flesh.
The pains you left on my heart.
The mess you left in my head.
there was fire
there was storm
then there was
my love was like a delicate rose
that blossomed so purely
during the summer solstice.
you’d spot it so easily in any garden,
that you’d think it was ordinary.
as the days went by,
it grew more and more
unlike every other that loses petals quickly
even before the sun rises.
its blossoming red coloured petals
never flinched, nor dropped,
not even an inch.
every year it blooms beautifully
just like the both of us,
you are my summer rose.
Like the trees in autumn breeze
I want to shed my skin
gently how a mandarin is peeled.
Let it all go
leaf per leaf
and see what stays.
For when spring comes
I can rise from the ashes
and bloom with nature.