Lisette 2d

Under the moonlight I speak with a shaky voice

And my breath is hallow as if it doesn’t exist

Why did this had to happen?

I’m crying, but in this part no one will hear me

No one will see me

I am enveloped in loneliness

That is disguised by the darkness surrounding me

And I cannot breathe and even if I wanted to

I couldn’t

Why did you stop breathing?

Because I wanted the easy way out

Running away seemed so easy

That’s why I did

Always choosing not to fight

That’s me

The person I am is a coward

Weak and scared of life itself

But I'm still  wanting to be saved

Am I selfish?

Yes you are

I know

I’m sorry

But this sorry, is only because I feel obligated to say

I don’t know who I am and I’m scared

I’m writing but my thoughts are hollow

I want to live , but I am afraid

And I  honestly don’t understand

maybe she didn't
appreciate her own
not-so appreciative friend,
insanity, showing up and
causing chaos
-
doubtful at best,
even on the "good" days.
prescription flavored bullshit flowing through her head
repeatedly,
endlessly,
soundly.
so she did what she does best.
incarcerates her own free mind, still
very likely to let to it go in a heartbeat.
endings are too bad, after all.

(now read straight down the left row)

Does everything look perfect there?
From where your standing, looking in.
Do you want everything I have?
Is what you have not as good?
From where your standing, looking in.

My life isn't perfect, just like yours.
Come on in, come and see.
Stand beside me and you'll see.
I'm just like you & I long to be
On the outside looking in.

A poem about our perception that a perfect life is being lived right in front of our eyes, evermore emphasised by social media.
Ambika Jois Sep 13

I trusted you.
I trusted that even if I let go of your hand,
you'd never let go of mine.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you would listen to understand,
not listen only to retaliate.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you were my go to person,
not the one who had to walk away from me.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you would argue until it's fixed,
not punish me with silence and distance.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you would stay with me,
not walk out of the house and not come back.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you would come back wanting me,
not back only coz I asked you to return.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you want me even through this,
not just be with me coz you have to.

I trusted you.
I trusted that you love and care for me,
not just said so and still had the courage to walk out.

I trusted you.
or maybe that wasn't trust.

Perhaps...

I assumed you.
I assumed that you'd hold my hand,
even if I'd let go.

I assumed that you listen and understand me,
even if you're only going to retaliate.

I assumed that you were my go to person,
even if you wanted to walk away from me.

I assumed that you would argue until it's fixed,
even if silence and distance were mere threats.

I assumed that you would stay with me,
even if you wanted to walk out and not come back.

I assumed that you would come back wanting me,
even if you would only return coz I'd have asked.

I assumed that you want me even through this,
even if you were only being with me coz you had to.

I assumed that you loved and cared for me,
even if you had the courage to walk out.

I assumed you. And thought I'd trusted you.

Coz isn't that what you do,
when you love and think you really know someone?
Trust them and assume them?

Maybe that's where I went wrong.

I should've trusted you for who you are.
Or assumed differently.

Maybe I should learn the difference between the two.
Maybe I should learn to love better.

Maybe I should...

Why the Hell should we believe in Global Warming
When we're making so much money off of not believing in It?!
Maybe it's true?   Maybe it's false?
Hell if I know?!
The one thing I know is how to Get Rich!

nadia yahya Sep 10

The truth is
I don't like my body
I have a lot of insecurities
I don't like my nose
I don't like my teeth
I doubt anyone ever think I'm pretty
The only person is mommy
Of course she will because I am her baby
And not everyone is lucky
Well maybe there are some that will say you are pretty
They did only because it's a nice thing
I doubt there's sincerity
And they said keep waiting
Someday, someone will see you like a dime piece
Little did they know
the only person I'm trying to convince
is me
I doubt that I will.

-n.y

Will I?

Somedays I feel like you really do care

Others I'm scared if I look you'll no longer be there

It's my own thoughts that make you hate me

Asking you every day to save me

It's my own thoughts that make me hate me

Asking myself to stop complaining

I don't know if I'd want to see

What if you don't love me
 
I guess that's okay

I'd rather my life end

Than for your love to be pretend.

sealvia plath Aug 30

i love the way you make me think of words to describe your perfection whenever i look at you.

you're beautiful, breathtaking, picturesque...

i love the way you give me so much feelings to have when, usually, i feel numb.

you make me happy, sad, jealous...

i love the way you speak as though you're singing a song i could care less about; still, i'd listen to you.

you're pop, rock, alternative...

i love the way you make me love you when all i really wanna do is protect myself from loving someone again.

i fall, and i fall, and i fall for you every single day.

but i hate the way you make me think that this won't last. and you think that you know how this will end.

because you're afraid, scared, and terrified.

you think that what i feel is temporary. you think that the me who loves you is temporary.

but this is what i think:

that doubt of yours? that's temporary. if anything is ever ephemeral, i won't let it be my love for you.

Stuck in the moment of here and now
The writers hand becomes clouded by self doubt
He turns on his music for his mind to allow
The power of his words to crash about

A waterfall of his life flows from his wrist
Explosions of emotion fill up the page
Every new story a different experience
Showing why he stays in waters so shallow

Self love finds the sun to scare
Those doubtful clouds of grey
Bringing him strength to write
A heart aching pain away

Had some bad writers block and threw on some tunes to clear my mind
Seema Aug 30

A truth untold
The doubt flames on
An evidence I hold
My world, all torn

My friend, my love
I cannot seem to find
Answers from above
Nothing comes in mind

Why, my dear,
Do you not care?
Was I a burden,
That you had to bear?

I saw you romancing
In arms of another
In the rain, dancing
Forgetting me, rather

I took a snapshot
And left in pain
Flowers you bought
Lied to me again

What's this love about?
When you're a cheat
I had no doubt
Until I went to meet

She told me,
You guys dated for long
As of what I see,
I am out and gone

A cheater, a liar
Played me well
Put my heart on fire
Pushed me in hell

A last gaze, he gave
Drowned me in pain
I told myself to be brave
And use my bladdy brain!

©sim

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