Love like a fountain Promises so certain Claim your mountain
God loves you and has good plans for you. He's got tons of promises that you need to claim by faith, just like what Caleb did. "Not one of all the LORD’s good promises to Israel failed; every one was fulfilled." (Joshua 21:45) "Now therefore, give me this mountain of which the Lord spoke in that day." (Joshua 14:12)
do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. for someone like myself will kiss you at all of the most beautiful places in the world, just like art galleries, beaches, and sanctuaries, because then you will never be able to visit such places again without having the taste of blood lingering in your lips.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. if it takes remembering your name among the lonesome souls, i would forget my own if it means remembering yours. i will make you believe that storms are peaceful and that suffering is a pleasure. you will be swept away by the yearning in craving over something that is consistently reaching but never ready to hold you.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. with someone who are reminiscent like me, i will wreck your home and hurl apologies at you, which will break apart on the floor and hurt you when you walk on them. i will come to fret about having loved you so passionately. i will always be regretful that i gave it my all without stopping to consider that i was becoming increasingly hurting so bad and exhausted. i will always be sorry that i let myself be fooled by the illusion of your love.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone that obviously acts like me—loves like me for the reason that they are all ghosts from the pieces you broke in me. keeping your safe distance from someone like me is not something you should consider doing. people like me are time bombs; when my mission is complete, i will spatter sorrow all over your walls in violent hues that would let you regret your door had never known my name. i'll never master the art of being gentle. despite the weight of our shared history, i would not be flushed away by the chapter of our repressed memories. you will never be free of the shadows you left behind. and the ghosts will forever haunt you.
humans will always find a way to end things and leave. we always do.
and when i am gone, you will fully understand the reason why storms are named after humans.
you can find someone as the same person you used to love from your past
I picked this up as you came to mind on any other day this would have been a lucky find "Does it fit?" "Is it too grand a gesture?" I stand still as doubt starts to fester Commitment at our age? at this point of our story? Or is it not soon enough? should I engage and not feel sorry? The ring is a circle that loops in my hand From brown, blue then purple I hold on to understand Would they laugh? Would I care? Would you even be there? Should I ask? Would you stare, feeling scared while i was unaware?
It haunts me to know my heart went this far It wants me to show the start, till we do part I don't know the future, yet I know you Maybe we're both crazy, you feel it this strong too? Am I overreacting? Is this just another plan To finally see if I get you in my hands?
Regardless, I'll do it, we've made it thus far And even though we may be stuck wherever we are I'll look forward to putting it on, preparation for what could be Perhaps it's destiny, leading you to me May the future be as bloodied and grim as it wants I just want you to be happy and grim and grin, please give me this chance I promise to give my all, through hell and even heaven A promise to stay true, even if the years take seven
Battered by idolatrous affections, my soul cried out to Him whose love is true to cleanse my wants and with His grace renew my thoughts from toxicating past infections. “Feast on My Word,” He said, “and you shall find everything you need for restoration in My promises of assured salvation— deliverance for spirit, heart and mind. When trusting Me, I’ll keep your soul in peace and unfold joy as you learn to obey, to follow Me upon Life’s Highest Way, where burdens know My paramount release. Through longings, losses, trials, sorrows, pains My Word unleashes monumental gains.”
you know what *****? waking up all alone in the morning, without him next to you. you know what *****? that all of his clothes you have doesn't smell like him anymore. you know what *****? no longer receiving forehead kisses and unexpected hugs.
it just ***** that you could spend all this time with someone you thought you'd marry, just to find out 5 years later that it wasn't going to work out.
if only, there was time. if only, someone showed us a sign. if only, we could have turned back time.
that's a lot of what-ifs to ponder, but I suppose it is what it is.
a love that was snatched from you in the blink of an eye even after the grieving phase is over, with explanations that you will never accept.
a love that was undeniably strong especially when you thought the two of you would be forever.
It's been three days since I called it off for good on Monday, 14/3/22. Pretty shattered if you ask me, but such is life, isn't it? Everything was fine until it wasn't anymore.