I went out for a ride trying to find something interesting, trying to clear my mind off things, yet all I keep thinking is about you and me; the way I want it to be and the way it really is.
I don’t know why everything we do feels so wrong. We’re like a broken record that repeats the same irritating song. Trapped in a car that seems to get tinier and uncomfortable and each promise we make floats away in a bubble.
Apparently, our promises are made to fill our empty spaces, the void we feel about each other; they’re pretentious and boring, heavy with the unwavering longing we have for each other.
I don’t hate “us”, but right now, I can’t stand us.
Written on February 22, 2003 Composition number 150
Sometimes it hard to see Though the foggy land we walk Sometimes its hard to know There's support among the talk Chatter blurs my head with things unsaid Should I have even tried at all? There's only one way to know I guess I need to fall
When it gets dark, it gets easier Not knowing who's around Their candle light burns in my eyes No peace of mind as I hit the ground I know they've tried And opened up their eyes But mine don't seem to work I just want to try to get there Without getting hurt.
Todays the day, is always the day But somehow it's still tomorrow "One foot in front of the other" Is just talk among my sorrow No one can do it for me I'm lost and scared and cold and lonely But the worst sound of all is my own voice Making promises continuously
I saw you smiling Correction; laughing I just hope she knows you’re lying And your words mean nothing But bottles filled with empty promises I hope she finds out the truth Before it’s too late I hope she saves herself from you.
To whom should I tell........ My heart is bleeding like ****. Shattered ray of hopes, Dark well & deep slopes. Deserted island & empty shell, Broken promises would never sell. Anger, pain harder to dwell. To whom should I tell....... To whom should I tell.......
You’d never leave : you’re no where to be found. You’d never hurt me : You put my heart in the ground. You’d always keep me up : You shot me down. You’d never lie to me : You made a fib everytime you made a sound. You’d stay loyal : You made me look like a clown. You’d always love me : I never feel it when you’re around ..
The force of his look, swept my mind for consciousness. His sweet touch made my soul tremble. Caressing my skin with his poisonous tongue that drove me to madness. The whisperers of empty promises, that I believed. Lingering in the air, even after he´s gone.
I´d die for many loved ones. But for you, I´d live. You captivated my soul, then ran away with it. Could I please have it back? Since I no longer can have you.