Things do not have to be this way
It is not too late to change our fate
Take a moment and think back
To the night we had our first real date

Close your eyes, remember my lips
Shaking and scared I used to be
I was young, I believed in you
Coaxed every ounce of trust out of me

I found confidence in your soft skin
Soul blossomed in your cupped hand
Sweet moments created me
Though they never went the way planned

You left me broken, bent out of shape
All but destroyed with despair
There is still a glimpse of that innocent child
Inside me is the girl I was before I had you there

You are composed of desperate lies
From your head all the way down to your feet
Your whole existence depends upon
A delicate web of deceit

Dishonesty is clearly reflected
In the blue oceans of your eyes
You are so deep in denial you
Won't accept that you wear a disguise

You put a mask on your face each day
To cover up your many flaws
You are an actor playing a part
You crave the attention and applause

The world is your comfortable stage
Your story nothing more than a show
I wonder if there is a single
Piece of you I actually know

On your skin you paint a facade
To again coat the aching scars
Hollow promises are falling down
Fading faster than shooting stars

You protect your heart with empty lines
And apologies you wish you meant
Can't you see that I need more from you
Than the excuses you invent?

I deserve the real you not the
Careful persona you fabricate
I want to see what rests beneath
The image you work so hard to create

Manipulating our arguments
You try to distract me with anger
Hoping I won't notice the fact
I am staring at a stranger

You embody the character
Those closest to you think you are
Yes you are well meaning but
You have taken this drama too far

In relationships you cheat
A girl gentle and admired
Out of her forgiveness and hope
That your old ways will soon be retired

You are a child playing pretend
A boy wearing a grown mans shoes
Dress up is the game I hate
Yet still it is the option you choose

I don't understand why you would
Rather have admiration than trust
Your true colors are revealed and then
That admiration turns to disgust

I don't want to hear your honeyed words
Unless you mean them from your heart
Your actions don't reflect what you say
The conflict is tearing me apart

Once again you tell me you will change
As you have sworn a million times
But I'm tired of trying to
Decipher your threadbare pantomimes

I was never good at charades
You probably already knew that
You take advantage of the way
Im unsure of who Im looking at

You are Dr. Jekyl, Mr. Hyde
My best friend and worst enemy
An angel until the demon rises
You transform right in front of me

A natural shape-shifter
You effortlessly deceive
You cowardly hide under the
Cloak of false expectations you weave

I can't figure out your motives
I don't think I ever will
Maybe toying with emotions
For some reason gives you a thrill

I'm misled by flattery
Compliments and ascensions
I'm naively distracted by your charms
Struggling to see your true intentions

Now I know you are a fraud
Crying crocodile tears
Your forgery becomes apparent
More and more as the end nears

Betrayal courses through your veins
Secrets drip out of every pore
I don't even believe in your love
Or the feelings we share anymore

My patience is wearing thin
Your unreal mirage falls apart
I wish you would let me see past
The illusions and into your heart

If we are addicted to the chase
The rush received when we catch our prey
To a life of fetch I will resign
Bring back each time you run away

Then you are finished fleeing
Feelings will give a shove
And I will switch tired places
Will be your turn to go after my love

Thrown high
Cartwheeling midair
Heart is a toy for you to chew
No matter how distant I lay fallen
For some reason still pursue

You are the bone
Can't resist
Treat I never can earn
We make a boomerang
Without me have no way to return

But if I do not have you I have nowhere
No house to return to
Depend on me to continue flying
Like I depend on you

This game can be played with two
We go back and forth tossing *****
Obeying repeated commands loyally and prompt
Whether returning sticks or missed calls

It does not really matter who chucks
Who sprints after affection wanted
We're both addicted to the thrill
The hunter or the hunted

You are perfect
And smoothly charming
Your unbelievable patience
Is soft and disarming

Incredible is what you are
A miracle no doubt
Understanding angel
Pure inside and out

Lovely in every way
Amazing since birth
You are my wonderful bliss
My heaven on Earth

You look lovely when you wear purple
Even prettier when you wear blue
But the most beautiful color I have seen you wear so far
Is the shade of red you turn when I'm kissing you

I long for the seasons to relieve my pain
Every spoken word a shadow to your name
On my clumsy tounge they burn like acid rain
Why is my mouth so difficult to tame?

Paradise can be torture
When so far out of reach
Like drowning in the ocean
In sight is a beautiful beach

You ogle her like a goddess
Doesn't come as a surprise
You don't have the decency
To look me straight in the eyes

I suppose I am not accustomed to
Such strict segregation
Without one insult hurled my way
Feel a victim of degredation

Your courteous attitude a change
From relaxed behavior I'm used to
To anybody else seem polite as can be
Being treated like a stranger to me is new

The wound within bleeds more
Every time I'm grazed by the sound of your laughter
It's music to my ears
Taunted by the silence after

Leave no details to imagination
Emotions are shown loud and clear
In less than 45 minutes you've managed to remove
Any sliver of doubt still under skin here

But aching heart inside my chest
Beats for solely your name
Fractures worsening in presence
Yours not reacting the same

Because it bangs harder against my ribs
Whenever you come around
As if already wasn't broken enough
Battered more with each excited pound

Your happiness ruins hope
I am glad to see you smile
Devastating to accept the thought
You walking somebody else down the aisle

You said we would marry someday
That you would have already gotten down on one knee
Except wanted to get me the ring I deserved
Must love her a lot more than me

Were those years to you a waste?
Now you've found what you truly desire
Don't understand how you no longer feel a spark
Inside I contain a raging fire

I wish I saw what about her is more special
Than magic we created before
In front of my face is all I ever wanted
It's not mine anymore

I have drank *****
Down to very last droplet
At bottles bottom

Stop saying I am
Enough when it is clear to
Us both I am not

Why is life so unfair and cruel?
Is there a reason I live with a graveyard in my head?
How come all my past mistakes haunt me?
Will I ever stop lying awake in my bed?

Do the sleepless nights ever come to an end?
When will I finally have relief?
What do these ghosts of regret and pain want?
How do I vanquish the undead thoughts and greif?

How do I change for the better?
Am I destined to stay who I am?
Can I defeat my inner darkness?
Will I ever be more than a flickering hologram?

Are there any signs of life in my smile?
Has the spark faded completely from my eyes?
Will I ever be more than a breathing puppet?
When will I stop living for these temporary highs?

I hope someday you see the light
The happiness you're trying to find
Its inside of you, not up in the sky
Definitely not in temporary highs
Though only darkness is there you still try
Stepping closer to an endless night
Tempting fate, unaware of the signs
We were destined to part, maybe you are too blind,
Too wrapped up in your selfish ways
To exit before your body decays
You are covered in cracks and scars
Under the surface do you even know who you are?

HOOK
Flaws hold you captive, you can't get free
You will never become who I wanted you to be
Some things you can't get back, people you pushed away
But its not too late to correct mistakes, not too late to change

I know how hard addiction is, its rarely overcome
All it takes is patience, its a battle many have won
How can you act like youre the only one
Affected by this enslaving drug?
I beat it, you can too if you want
All you have to do is say no and you're done
You're too attatched to the high and the fun
Completely numb, unwilling to run
Or attempt to climb out if the hole you have dug
Now instead of fighting you freely succumb
I dont even recognize the monster youve become

HOOK

I wish I could accept you for
The ****** you are now, but I know in your
Heart there is still good, at your core
Lies something I cherish and adore
I wish you'd realize you're worth more
Than the scores you throw your world away for
You used to be warm and full of love
Despite the fact you were never given enough
It seems like you always give too much
To the ones who don't deserve your touch
You escape the only way you're capable of
By nodding out and shooting up
You say you miss me, that you want me back
We cant materialize the love we once had
You will never get your life on track
Even if you could for awhile, you will soon crack
We have no choice but to live seperate lives
I had to decide it was the right time to divide
Are you happier with ******, not me,  at your side?
Can you honestly say you're satisfied
With who you have become inside?

HOOK

I love the pink sky
On summer days like this
Morning awakens softly
With sun's gentle kiss

I am grateful every day
For all the small things you do
Because I know when i am older
It's the little things I'll hold onto

You could be my Superman,
My hero and my dream,
I could be your Lois Lane,
And we could be a team.

You could be my biggest wish,
I'll hope for every day,
The shooting star that lights the sky,
Across the Milky Way.

You could be my every thought,
Always in my head,
and you can be the reason why,
I lie awake in bed.

You could be my melody,
The lyrics in my heart,
You could be the song that keeps,
My soul from falling apart.

You could be my sunshine,
Or you could be my rain,
You could be my happiness,
Or you could be my pain.

You could be the one I need,
The arms that hold me tight,
You could be my darkness,
Or you could be my light.

You could be my whirlwind,
My roller-coaster ride,
You could be the place i go,
When I need to hide.

You could be my weakness,
Or you could keep me strong,
but just maybe you could be,
The one ive searched for all along.

A sweet smile is an important part
The formula to capturing my heart

These emotions are powerful they surge right  through my chest
Chasing them around room they suddenly infest
First silent as they swirl between you and I
It doesn't take long for them to multiply
Soon they swarm every object we see
Easy to play victim instead of trying to agree
But there are zero casualties because we aren't at war
Blindness makes me wonder what we're doing this for
You think righteously but you couldn't be more wrong
Baseless accusations you build argument upon
Just the latest in series of false beliefs you create
Sick the way your perspective chooses to exaggerate
My veins get so hot blood begins to boil
Shieldless facing remarks insisting I'm not loyal
Onyx pupils boring holes my direction
Void between us growing as you describe each imperfection
Systematically pulling apart every sentence dared to speak
Pre-existing wounds deepening until blood starts to leak
Until becoming so quiet you could hear our hearts beating
Slowly breaking
Carefully retreating
Uneasiness creeping like a draft under the door
Whispering
"Things never will be as good as they were before"
These helpless doubts wander through skull all night
Impossible questions kept awake til morning's light
Until poor soul is weighed down by despair
Tears blur my vision
Uncertainty put into my stare
My worrying in vain because it doesn't change anything
Non-existent compassion in your movements and it stings
Apparently don't have enough empathy to spare
Tangle up sanity by showing how little you care
While absorbing tension permeating air like a sponge
Hopes now flattened on the floor where they plunged
Words discarded like empty cola cans
Insults echoing like clang of pots and pans
From head to toe happiness is now crushed
Cuts could heal if only our fingertips brushed
Delicate balance of respect instantly would be restored
Neck removed from guillotine if you'd lower your sword
I don't encourage tables to turn
Just want us to both sit down
Pull knives out each other's backs and erase each frown
I wish us both to wear matching expressions of joy
Our feelings reset to a setting where our opinions didn't annoy
But for that to happen a gigantic amount of willpower is required
Fear we are not soft enough for animosity to permanently retire
But honestly hate distance between skin more than I'll ever admit
The path our steps are walking on is one I refuse to quit
I'll pour more energy into every single action I do for you
Even wasted at least my intentions are true
I'll collect memories and box up special moments we had
Store somewhere deep within to bask in when I'm sad
This might be hard this second but I have faith it won't last long
We can solve problems because our love is pure and strong

I am sorry for letting my emotions
Force my body to their will
I wish my heart was a
Simple possession I could ****

I feel sick, brain all wrong
Healthy eyes cannot see
The invisible illness residing
Spinning around inside me

Constantly battling worry and fear
Stomach turning with unease
Every day new war begins
Between myself and this secret hidden disease

Smoking until struggles fade to black
Leave for awhile but always come back
To the dust collected in my nooks
Heard by crannies between books

I fear none of problems non-existent replies
The gaze from inanimate objects eyes
Control the balance of my silent possessions
They swirl in the wake of my useless expressions

I stand firm amidst the hum of talking nothingness
My hands like swords in my confessed stress
World is small
Yet this planet so large
My fight I falter as troubles barge

No orders conquer my will to go on
Am a survivor of each passing dawn
Home is battlefield in which I slumber
My skills adapt and grow in number

They are put to test by life's curveballs
Believe in what is at the top of these walls
Waving freedom with my face in the mud
Death nobly boiling in my blood

As I try to improve presence bit by bit
Rings distant from where I sit
I continue forth hoping better is what tomorrow will be
No way to tell
I guess I'll have to wait and see

Dear You,
I hope you find me someday,
And I am everything you need,
I will be the one that follows
To any place you wish to lead.

A time will come when I meet you,
Although I do not know who you are,
You are somewhere out there in this world,
Maybe close, possibly far.

Wonder if your eyes are blue,
Or if they are brown like mine,
Green, grey, or hazel,
Ask that question all the time.

When will I finally see your face?
How much longer do I have to wait?
I am dying to know your name,
It is kept secret by fate.

Still have all these questions,
No answers I can see,
One thing is for certain,
You were made for me.

We're going to fall in love somehow
According to the universe's plan,
Even if you do not know it now,
You are going to be my man.

We are perfect for each other
In absolutely every way,
The first moment we touch
Will steal my breath away.

You'll tell me I am beautiful
Because we are meant to be,
I'll realize you are The One,
I love you stranger.
Sincerely,
Me