Oh, duplicitous lover of mine—
who are you, lying beside me?

The father, whose pride rings from your mouth
like the bells of liberty?

The husband, whose arms once lifted my soul?


Or the traitor who razed his own kingdom—
a castle turned to rubble at your feet?

So cunning, you are-
the parasite at the bottom of the glass,
a shadow shifting in the room,
with poison on your tongue.

Do you love me today?
Or them?

How long will your eyes cling like cobwebs
to strangers who were never yours to seek?

How long before you feel
how cold our bed has grown?

My touch?

How long until you notice
I am not asleep—
just lying beside a memory.  

I’ve heard your denials,
your guilt already etched in stone.

Your hands hold me like a promise.
Yet,  your eyes betray me like a curse.

And still—
I feel the echoes of our late-night dances
stream down my face as I cry today.
Different tears.  

Same man.

I am the witness to your storm,
and still I reach for your warmth—
like a ghost returning
to the scene of its death.

I do not know the man who holds me.
But I remember the man I love.

So I lie still in this haunted bed,
wondering if I am mourning
you—
or myself.

He didn’t cheat
But
Was it okay to still be with her?

After all the reassurance
“She's just a friend”
“I do not want anything with her”
Was that real?

Was it real when less then a week after everything
The breakup
The ***
Something still happened?

She
The one who I talked to
About the discomfort I felt every time she was around

She
The one who gave me reassurance
“Nothing is going to happen between us”

All the little respect I had for them
Vanished
Instantly

The disgust is stronger than any other emotion
And I just found that out

Wish the world ***** them both

YOU BETRAYED ME!!!,
HOW COULD YOU??
You STABBED me in the BACK, and
Got me FEELING ALL BLUE,
I AM LOST FOR WORDS,
I AM NOT SURE I SHOULD DO,
WHAT WE HAD WAS SACRED!! and
I TRUSTED IN YOU, but
I WAS ALL WRONG,
NOW, I FEEL LIKE A FOOL,
You Betrayed me!!,
Why can't you just see,
You Left me hanging on a limb,
How could you do this to me???,
This feeling of BETRAYAL,
NO, It does not feel good!!!,
of how you just did me,
This is so MISUNDERSTOOD!!!!,
I STOOD RIGHT BY, and I CONFIDED IN YOU,
I thought you were a TRUE FRIEND but,
You did me wrong and that's not cool,
Therefore, this FRIENDSHIP has to end,
This BETRAYAL and BROKEN TRUST,
has been lost, but
with TIME and PATIENCE, could BE MENDED,
It won't be easy and things won't be the same, the BETRAYAL is on YOU, and
YES!!!
You are the one to BLAME!!!
Just one more thing I'd thought that you should know,
What comes around goes around
YOU WILL REAP WHAT YOU SOW!!!, but
I WILL FORGIVE YOU!!!,
EVEN FEELING SO LOW!!,
BROKEN DOWN AND UNSTABLE,
I AM FEELING SO BAD,
RUNNED DOWN, WORNED and FATIGUED,
BECAUSE OF YOUR BETRAYAL!!!


B.R.
Date: 4/8/2025

Beneath the sparkles of my teary eyes
You'll find refelctions of you.
Beneath the charm of my shady smile
You'll find whispers of you.
Beneath the layers of my weary heart
You'll find beats of you.
Beneath the depths of my lonely soul
You'll find you.

But I know, you know—
You don't have any traces of me, do you??

Finally lost my access to heaven
the Devil come beckon, a’half past seven.
Clothes signal wealth but reeking of powder;
spoke gain, fulfilled cravings of green
if done by the hour.

Up to the room glowing off the square,
red lights’ regret hung thick in the air.
Her belly, strong eyes; knives pierced in her glance,
one look was enough– no more of this dance.

Returned to the den, composed with no hurry.
Met his face in this place for the folly.
“Clean up the mess?” he asked lacking hesitation;
I pulled the trigger, “she gave you a son!”

Glanced to my side– could barely believe;
the same woman smiled, no sorrow beneath.
“This isn’t his… just having some fun!”
Couldn’t react, her bullet had won.

You have damaged me very badly
Ensuring that I hate you madly
You have caused me a lot of emotional trauma
By being a queen of sheer drama
You pretended to love me as a friend
Instead, did you trap me in a toxic bond!

You have damaged me very badly
Because, you were only after my money
You are much worse than an enemy
Because, never did you truly want me to be happy
You have caused my self-esteem to crash
For that, you, should God punish!!

You have damaged me very badly
And may be thinking coolly
That you are now going to have a great life
But I warn you, you are going to be in strife
You will get divorced soon
And find yourself alone
Ignored by almost everyone
Finally, will you know then
What it means, to be betrayed
By someone you dearly trusted
Well, now I totally hate you
But I will eventually forgive you
Only because of my love for Jesus
And then I will finally find my inner peace
But you will never find yours
Goodbye and good riddance!!