JAC 1d

We lend so much life
To so many things
That have no need of it
And we take all we can
From those that so desperately crave it.

Unknown 1d

You are my dreams,
You are my nightmares.
You are my sunny days at the beach,
you are my lightning storms that make me screech.
I fear you, then I love you.

Oh God, what do I do?

AndSoOn 2d

I hope you're okay
That someone holds your hand
Just to remind you
You are worth it

I hope you're loved
That someone calls you up
Just to say "good morning"
You deserved it

I hope you're joyful
That someone hugs you every night
Just to make you feel
You are whole again

I'm sorry it isn't me
But I'd be useless
To help you get up when
I'm the one who brings you down

Help me, I am drowning in my own self hating words.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
Clings around my neck.

Help me, I am losing on this battlefield alone.
You are worthless.
You are worthless.
You are worthless.
Covers up my screams.

Help me, I am fading into darkened monsters, now.
I am sorry.
I am sorry.
I am sorry.

It is time to say goodbye.

-t.s.

Haley 3d

Look at me
Gaze deep into my eyes
All I want to be is free
But you hold me captive with your lies
Don't you see I'm broken
Shattered and in pieces
With you im outspoken
My value decreases
When you look at me
I quietly break a little more
Why can't you see
This is a war
And im losing, oh so fast
To you and your lies
I just cant let go of the past
When you gaze upon me my heart dies
But its not my fault, is it?
This is just a game to you
Cant you just admit
This isn't a battle meant for two

You broke me
Haley 3d

Everything is slowly crumbling around me.
My world is being ripped to shreds.
All I can do is watch.
Watch as everything burns.
Watch as everything dies.
Watch as everyone I love leaves me.
Breath in.
Breath out.
I repel people.
Friends.
Family.
Loved ones.
I repel myself.
Breath in.
Breath out.
Why can't I do this myself.
I'm so, so weak.
I can barely stand on my own.
And when people try to help
I push them away.
Everyone.
You.
Breath in.
Breath out.
Maybe it's better this way.
Maybe.
Maybe I should just end it.
The pain.
Suffering.
Hardships.
No. No. No. No.
Breath in. Breath out.

I can't do this on my own

the feel of blade through my skin

through my flesh

the pain it gives

the blood gushing

and to do it again.

sorry.

endless days to think
endless days to talk
it's making me wonder
why we happened at all

why

I've felt this before
It always starts
As a ball in stomach.
It begins to sink,
Pulling me down with it,
Until I can't convince myself
It's worth getting up.
Then it begins to rise.
In my chest it burns,
It pushes against my heart and lungs
I cannot breathe
I do not care.
In my throat it waits
Waits for me to cry it out
Or drink it down.
I will do neither,
Simply lay in my unmade bed
Counting plaster drips on my ceiling
Until it goes back down.

~Sylus
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