deliberation deliberate how different to consider; and to do. tell and wait show and stall. keep time in back pockets. fish for change and make a pittance. surely after words, came reactions, and after broken promises came sanctions.
surely after it stopped burning things began to grow. stories of salt, of salting. an act to crystallise and make barren, make bare.
starting ceasing. how similar to filling up, and filing down, a feeling.
Gods arise and i hide behind the sun What could a soul like me do in the presence of divinity? Eyes of gold cut toward me And i know the message they hold But i, the coward, simply look away into the flames
Its fitting here, lying on the sun I pretend my agony is from the flames Even though a soul has no physical body Yearning has scarred me like glimpses of the moon And i remember life in solitude
****** hits like sinking deeper into the sun I look past the sky into the heavens above Clouded by a lazy orange haze I watch the gods weep to make rain
Sorrowful existence with no real meaning A star burns in the distance I pull fire over me as if i could feel the heat Like comfort could ever come to me
And when a god sends way for me They lift me from the flames like a leaf on water Like a shell from the sea They mold me a body and toss me away to the earth Says ‘come back to me, my child, when you can feel bliss’
And i grow up desperate for love Desperate to feel pleasure in the midst of pain Learn a thing or two about happiness And false hope of a single god Wander the earth and revel in its beauty Scar the skin they so gracefully gave me
And when i have lived as much as i can I become cowardly again I see their face in my dreams I get old yet stay the same Die in my sleep one day
My soul rests on the sun again And they come to greet me Says ‘did you learn what you could be’ Hugs my scarred body As i nod timidly
I learned of pleasure I learned of love I learned to feel At home in the heavens above
sometimes i'd rather believe that this is my purpose rather than anything else. It feels like i was born in pain, even though i know i wasn't. Sometimes its nice to just pretend im a child of the sun. .