I cried and cried through out my path every single story that touch my heart, wrap around a wave of emotions they sat with me to narrate their unread fictions. 

I walk and walk till the wall where all the numb body's lying around blood smudged, cut through the heart 
they sat with me to narrate their heartache.

I sat by them
I sat by them all and i could feel their pain is mine, tears rolled down the cheeks burning my heart lifeless.

©sarcasticbong

watching
his breathe
seethe with anger
his eyes
well with tears
his heart
freeze from betrayal

offering
my shoulder
for him to cry on
my ear
to hear his thoughts
my heart
to ease his pain

while his heart mends
from a love
that is not my own.

ah,
the price i paid
for him to open up
his heart to mine
      has nearly killed me.

"i don't see you in my future"
is code for
"i don't feel you in my soul"

            a short, but pungent allegory.

Guess I'm never meant to fall in love
Guess I'm never gonna be the one
And the rivers of love are starting to run dry
And my heart is sinking on the inside

Into the blackness of this stormy sky

And baby when the thunder comes crashing down

I know I'm all alone in my house

And I tried to give you the best of me

But that doesn't seem to matter

Because you're leaving me alone 
in the dark
trying to hold on 
and it's just not fair

How can I breathe when you're my air

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

People seem to keep leaving me
And I don't understand
Am I that bad, That bad of a friend
What ever happened to staying until the end
People seem to keep leaving me
They find someone else
And forget about me
I'm tired of being alone
How am I supposed to deal with being on my own
When I can't stand who I am
And I wanted to be your man
But you keep leaving me
And It's not fair
You didn't even give me a fucking chance
You didn't even give me a chance

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

And I don't wanna go another day
Without your love
And what you're giving isn't enough
But there is nobody else like you
And theirs a whole lot more we
Need to work through
A whole lot more we need to do
You could at least pick up your phone
And talk to me baby
So come on baby don't leave me
Lying alone, Because I'm tired of sleeping alone
What if I'm afraid to fall back in love
And I can't give them what they want
Thanks for leaving me,
Thanks for confusing,
Everything I do,
Babe, I did it for you.

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Razor blade cuts were just the start
He made art
by drawing pictures in his blood
With wounds so deep
So much room to breathe 

Watch me bleed

Feel my need

All attention on me

Do you see the tension in me

Can you feel the weakness in my knees

I've tried to plead

But I couldn't please 

So watch me bleed

Feel the punishment tormenting me

Why don't they see
all the pain within my words

Can't they see my heart on the line

Every time I write
take a trip through my mind,
my dreams, my life

I vision so much but all the negativity
has started killing me
inch by inch

Now this itch
won't go away

I've penetrated my skin with fingernails so thin 

Now it kills to breathe in 

And I can't seem to find my way out

Of the darkness of this stormy cloud 

When will the rain stop drowning me out
all these emotions swirl around like the rough seas

I just want them to understand me

I just want somebody to take a little more notice

I've got a heart that needs some love 

But the hates so strong

I can't find where I belong.

©2017 Written By Benji James

god damnit!

what I'm trying to say is
i want you to love me
the way he did
only then can I
be authentically yours.

     in the end,
     that's all i've
     ever wanted

you promised to be with me til death,
remember? i don't think so, you already forgot,
the together forever we promised with each other,
left me here all alone , crying in the corner.

why do you have to be the cause of my laughters?
if you'll just leave me full of tears,
why do you have to be the cause for my life to have purpose?
if you'll just leave me full of sorrows.

before, you're the reason of my racing heart,
now, you're the reason why my heart is torn apart,
to the person who made my heart sore,
thank you for the memories i still store.

you can never get it back

whether it be when you're stumbling home after a night at the bar
and a masked figure pulls you in
taking advantage of your intoxication

or it be when you're young
so young you barely remember anything
but you remember the way
that family friend slipped their hands on you
with you being unaware of what was happening

whether it be when you surrender your trust to your lover
but they push it too far
ignoring your cries to stop
and just using you for their pleasure

or it be in any situation
anywhere
and someone invades you
in a way that will leaves marks on your body for days
but scars on your mind for eternity

no matter what it be
when you have your innocence stolen
you can never get it back

s.s