#afraid poems on Hello Poetry

Jeremy Betts 1d

I am afraid of my rage
It's hard to gage
Even at this age
What will unlock the cage
Bringing the worst of me to the main stage
I am afraid

I am afraid of my depression
I've failed to get a grip on
This destructive emotion
An unmovable mountain
And the worst possible thing to become canon
I am afraid

I am afraid of my anxiety
Me against me
Me hating me personally
Confidence will atrophy
All I can do is hope no one can see
I am afraid

I am afraid of myself
I am afraid for myself
I am afraid I'm not good for my own health
I am afraid of me more than maybe anything else

...I...am...afraid...

©2024

#afraid #rage #cage #stage #depression #emotion #unmovable #canon #anxiety #atrophy

Hello Daisies 6d

It's "just anxiety"

I am a gut
Bloated and acidic
I am veins pulsating
In pain
I am nothing
And everything

I am like a zombie
Purple and
not breathing
What's keeping
A hold on me?

I am a head
Pulsating
And stabbing
I am but eyes
Blurry and deceiving
What's causing
This bleeding ?

I am fingers
Numb and gone
I am but legs
Aching
And wrong
Falling
To the ground

I am a heart
Shaking rapidly
Pulsating sadly
I am
Anxiety
Twisting and turning
Nauseated and burning

I am
I am
I. ..
Am
Falling apart
Miserably
And fast
I'm not going
To last

I am not human
I am a mystery
Nobody cares to discover
Lost and put under covers

I am not me
I am not alive
I cannot thrive
I am
What doesn't matter
Thrown and tossed aside

All I am
Is pain
And more money
To gain

I remain
As all this pain
To them
More money to gain
I am
An illness
That will forever
Remain
Chained
In this body
With no humanity
Left
To retain

I've been very ill for sometime now

#life #hardship #pain #afraid #illness

Jeremy Betts Mar 30

~•§•~ My Paradigm ~•§•~

Life can seem like a nightmare
I'm afraid of all of the time
I release my flair in the night air
Noticing all the fear is of the same kind
I more than recognize the familiar glare
The eyes looking back at me are mine
Aware that I'm unaware
Fair or not,
Witness my paradigm

©2024

#life #nightmare #afraid #distress #fear #recognition #familiar #aware #unaware #paradigm

Laia Blackthorn Mar 9

I blame my parents

I blame my parents for being afraid
for teaching me every sharp edge of the world
and learning I might never be safe

I blame my parents for being lonely
for missing people I never had
and I know will never hold me

I blame my parents for the sleepless nights
for wondering if I will ever get it right
or one day wish I could go back in time

I blame my parents
because they are my parents
and I can blame them
for who I turned out to be

But when they are gone
and all I have are memories
I’ll just blame them
for leaving me.

#parents #afraid #lonely #time #love #loss #memories

Jeremy Betts Jan 22

~•§•~ Lies To Me Hurt Me, Lies About Me Terrify Me ~•§•~

You've lied TO me over and over, which is fine, I've been lied to before
I've watched my heart walk out the door as I picked my life up off the floor
Left wondering how many times I can get back up, finding it's always one more
That's how I move forward, I pay no mind to the score

This time you lied ABOUT me as you threw objects and punches, screaming like a banshee
I stood and absorbed it all, as I always have, asking how it is that you say you're afraid of me
I ask you to look me directly in the eyes and say it again one time, then two, then three
Then came the blow that hurt the worst
Looking past the crazy there was no fear, you were just angry

...now I'm scared for me...

©2024

As a man I don't even feel comfortable writing this much less posting it. Men are on the receiving side of abuse often and say nothing. The fear of being accused of domestic violence while being completely innocent and realizing she's willing to accuse you knowing you're innocent (and let's not forget that she's the one throwing objects and punches that land and leave marks while I've never raised a finger against her, not even to stop the assault on me) scares the hell out of me in all honesty...

#lies #heartache #loss #hurt #fear #pain #afraid #scared #masculinity

Jeremy Betts Jan 12

~•§•~ Don't Strike That, Don't Reverse It ~•§•~

I'm not afraid of dying
I'm afraid of the shame from trying

©2024

#im #not #afraid #dying #shame #trying

tryhard Dec 2023

i have a complicated relationship with hope

one of my biggest fears,
the thing that i dare not touch—
hope

and yet, somehow
my fists are bloodied,
my grip bruising

i did deign to hope
held it between my hands:
the fragility of wanting

do not let them see me
here, vulnerable, soft
on my knees

praying or begging,
i may not know
all i know is this:

i have found hope
and it is cruel to me
but i am not letting go

in prose: i am afraid of hoping for things because what if they don't turn out the way i hoped for? but i want to hope, nonetheless. happy new year!

#hope #pray #want #fear #afraid #complicated #vulnerable

Jeremy Betts Dec 2023

~•§•~ A Dumpster Fires Glow ~•§•~

If flesh and bone battle scares alone make you uncomfortable
You could not handle a sneak peek into my soul
How do I manage the impossible?
Your guess is as good as mine, that's all I know
Never as easy as saying no though

I also know what I don't know but sometimes too afraid of the weakness I know it will show
So I can't let you or anyone else know
I don't know how I let myself stoop so low
I hate it here, basking in the dumpster fires glow
I had time, it's a flash fire but the build up is slow
Never as easy as letting go through

©2023

#scares #uncomfortable #soul #impossible #guess #never #afraid #weakness #low #slow

unblindingly bright Oct 2023

My Contradiction

I'm afraid of loneliness and people.

#contradiction #afraid #loneliness #people #short

Amanda Kay Burke Oct 2023

Reinvent Yourself (Senyrū)

Never be frightened
To reinvent character
One part at a time

Never be afraid to reinvent yourself

#senyru #never #afraid #life #live #change #right