You are as you were
No more needing to be said
With eyes that bore tears in joy and sadness
And heart that consistently bled
And mine and your hands locked together
To brave life’s twisted sense of humor
And I knew that, in that, we’d overcome the world
We were never perfect
That’s needing to be heard
Ever present were these jars of truth
Bitter tasting, well preserved
With hands clasped we understood it could not be fathomed
As we locked eyes, yes, words, yes, but never hearts
Maybe that’s the good in it
A gift in cross’ed stars
The reality of a ever present door
That we both know is ajar
The knowing that the hand we hold can build the other up
With the power that so easily can rip us apart
You were the one I’d always wanted
I was the one you leaned upon
With me not knowing what you were
And your faith in your strength long gone
My love for you unending, understated, undeterred
And your love for me one undoubted, but for me undetermined
Each time you speak I hear you
This world’s distraction become blurred
You serve your homemade truths
And I swallow every single word
Can’t decipher lies because I know only what you convey
And in that, you’re the most honest person I know
Our views of each other work
On the level that was stand
Where we get to choose what we convey
As we offer each other a hand
The preachings of the lying tongue and giving of stolen things
An knowledge of the mystery forever kept
Maybe this is not worth the chance
Our self destructive ways
The pure carnage we could leave behind
In our search to escalate
Satan’s aspirations to rise are what led to the fall
So maybe to stay divine, we must stay content
And so we look, we taste, we hear
And we feel that that’s enough
Maybe in leaving the uncertain just that
The relationship is safe from us
Or maybe this is just the lie we earnestly believe
In fear that the rise will be more painful than the fall
It's been a year, saw you a little back while ago.
Lighting up my cigarettes,
Saw you. I turned around
Hoping you will notice me
You did and my heart felt like it was everything but knowing its already over.
You shouted my name from far and waved.
I waved back and said hello
We both were smiling happily and waving to each other.
But i wonder, behind ur smile do you still miss me like how i did?
Do you still miss us?
Do you still love me?
Still wondering till now
If you do, please come back
My doors are always open like how your doors was open in the past.
Behund ur smile
I write about you as if doing so will make you real
Haven’t met you, yet I know how you make me feel
Or maybe the reality is I have and the want is from memory
Pen to paper should imitate passion inked on you by me
No doubt that I am foolish, time winds and leaves us scarred
As if contradicting doors with a dozen locks, yet still ajar
Reminiscent of bruised fruit, but the heart only feels hunger
With you satiating the wanting and the ever driving wonder
And the poetry has gone on so long I know not if your real
I have no regrets, as the pen bleeds only what I feel
My mind like a drunken witness with an unreliable memory
With that in mind, I paint dripping words with my visions of you and me
Whoever you may be
I’m the only one with dirt on my hands,
I’ve been crossing my fingers and snapping rubber bands.
And the fragments and pieces build into a story,
I transformed it to a thesis; the quality’s too low for me,
and I never set my expectations too high,
as should I, a lack of truth and abundance of lie.
My oh my and by the by.
There’s cracks in my ceiling and head,
there’s splinters in my skin and my bed,
there’s poison in the words I was fed.
I’m the only one missing pressure on my shoulders,
replaced the gentle weight with two heavy boulders.
I was wishing on satellites thinking they were stars,
breaking free from embraces thinking they were bars,
admiring fireflies not realizing they were cars
but I’m painfully aware of my own
I’m holding open seminars
to these memoirs of ours.
There’s cracks in my ceiling and shell,
there’s craters in my heart where I fell,
there’s holes in each story you tell.
You’re so afraid of your security
That you accidentally take mine from me.
I felt secure in you until you changed your mind, repeatedly.
If you aren’t ready, please tell me.
Because I’m afraid to wait forever for you only to find that I’ll never be enough for you.
You’re worth the wait and everyone gets cold feet sometimes. I understand your mind a little better now.
Why do I wait?
Why do I want to wait?
You're all I've ever wanted.
And yet, you do not wait.
So why do I?
Why do I wait for those who treat me like I am anything other than all that is good in the world?
You treat me like I'm all the others, and I treat you like you're everything but.
That kind of under appreciation should send me away.
Yet here I am.
See how the clock ticks?
Second by second; Minute by minute
Golden hands moving, moving
Never ceasing, ever changing
See her dress flow?
Lace of black, silk of red
Hugging her form; Kissing the floor
See her foot tap in anticipation?
Tap tapping, Clap clapping
Her heel scuffs the floor
Ding, scuff. Ding, scuff.
Now see her pacing
Back and forth, Forth and back
Back to the clock
Hands at a quarter, Quarter ‘til nine
Tick ticking, click clicking
Forward in time, inching towards nine
See her dainty hand rest
Upon the rail to the stairs?
Fingers tap, heels clap
As the clock ticks the time
See her raven hair catch the light?
The silver pins shine
She twirls a stray curl
The clock still ticks the time
Five minutes left now
She sighs a slight sigh
Then the doorbells chime
As the gold clock strikes nine
An audible gasp as the door opens wide
The clock is forgotten; its tick out of mind
They head to the dance at two past nine
Cuyo corazón esta abierto.
Cuyo corazón esta listo.
Ella es la mujer de mis sueños,
Ella es la sangre de mis venas.
Esperando a Dios,
para enviarme este dama,
este dama de mis sueños.