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Jules 2d
If this is love
I want no part in it
The jealousy
The heartache
It's overwhelming
Stop
I don't want it
It fuels me with rage
Why am I so upset?
You're not even mine
Life has made me bitter

Every proposal
Every instagram post
Every brag by a friend

I ignore the bitter taste in my mouth
swallow it instead
jealousy hides in my stomach
it tries to escape but I somehow force a smile

from the outside I look happy, hopeful
but my smile is masked by gritting teeth
my eyes start to glaze over
I pray no one notices that I'm no longer present in the conversation
because as they speak my jealousy begins to build
it builds so high I have two choices
change the subject or walk away
anything can be better than someone else's perfect relationship
especially when you're convinced you'll never find yours

life has made me bitter
it's my least favorite attribute
Ronin 4d
you are with me
within me
every second
of every day

every time
i close my eyes
i see you

holding her
just like you held me

kissing her
just like you kissed me

loving her
just like you loved me

being all hers
just like you were all mine

back when
i was enough.
i tried to express the most ******* god-awful excruciating pain,

ever.
Pulse Oct 4
My mother was dead before I came into the world,

I know not what killed her, only that something did.

Standing in her place was something that tore through words and the mind’s fragile shields,

Brought me down to levels I was sure could not get any lower and then continued to do so.

But I only figured it out, truly figured it out, when she didn’t stop him, when she just watched.

You see, what hurt my mother the most, despite all she screamed and yelled,

Despite her talent for reducing me to a sobbing mess of myself,

A mess that couldn’t be pieced back together again,

He loved me more.

Even when I didn’t want him to, he loved me more.

My mother was not the most beautiful thing in the world, she was only the loudest.

And not even the loudest thing can hold your attention for long.

To him, I was beautiful for my silence.

And to her, I was a knife to the throat.
saw a prompt for 'mother's injury' and this is what happened
Big Virge Sep 29
"Arrogance" ... or ...
"Self-Belief" .... ??????  

Which of These ... ?  
Is Part of ... ME ... ?  
  
I Have An Idea ... !!!  
But ... What Do You See ... ?  
  
Some Have Said ...  
  
They See ... VANITY ... !!!!!  
  
Well For Many Years ...  
I Saw ..... **** ......  
  
Cos' That's What People ...  
........ Said To Me ........  
  
BIG NOSE ... BIG LIPS ...  
And .... " CroOKed Teeth " ....  
and YES .... Dark Skin ....  
Make Me ... COMPLETE ...  
  
But Nazis And ....  
Those In ... " White Sheets " ...  
Don't Think That .... I ....  
Should Walk The Streets .... !!!  
  
That's Why I NOW ....  
Have ... " SELF BELIEF " ... !!!!!  
  
NOT ... Arrogance ... !!!  
Or ...... " VANITY " ..... !!!!!
  
You Should Check ...  
Your ... " HIS-Story " ...  
  
I'm NO LONGER Gonna Be ...
........ Made To Feel ........  
  
Like I'm ... " **** " ... !!!!!  
  
By ... ANYONE ...  
Who's ... Fearing Me ...  
Because of Things ...  
They Hear Me Speak ...  
  
.... " YES " ....  
I Am ... SMART ... !!!!!  
And Have ... " BEAUTY " ... !!!!!  
  
Outside and ...  
Inside of ... ME ... !!!  
  
I Move With GRACE ...  
And ...... " DIGNITY " ........  
  
And Maintain THIS ....  
  
....... humility ........  
  
That's ... SELF-BELIEF ... !!!  
NOT .... " Vanity " .... !!!!! ....  
  
How Dare You Try ...  
To Say That's ... ME ... !!!!!  
  
ALI ... Showed Blacks ...
...... How To Be ...... !!!  
  
He Spoke His Mind ...  
And Touched Mankind ... !!!!!  
  
YES ... " Black and White " ...  
  
Even When They ....
.... " Criticised " .... !!!!!  
  
But Nowadays ....  
Those SAME White Guys ... ?  
Have Now .... Accepted ....  
  
He Was .... " WISE " ....  
  
... And ...  
  
" SHOCKED THE WORLD !!! " ...
  
When He Won Fights ...  
And PROVED His Words ...  
Were ... NOT JUST Rhymes ... !!!!!  
  
Some ... Would Say ...  
He Was ... " ARROGANT " ... !!!!!!  
  
Well ...  
I Would Say ...  
  
He Used BRAVADO ...
For ... " Defence " ... !!!  
  
While ... Many Think ...  
That Pounds and Pence ...  
Or ......... Even Worse ............  
  
YES ... Dollars and Cents ... !!!  
Make Them .... FEEL ....  
A Sense of .... " Strength " ....  

Kind of Like .... THOSE ....  
  
In .... " Parliament " .... !?!  
  
It's NICE To Hear ...  
  
... " A Compliment !!! " ...  
  
But ...  
If You Don't Want To ...  
  
DON'T GIVE ME ONE ... !!!  
  
Trust Me Son .....  
  
I'll ... Do It MYSELF .... !!!!!!!  
  
It Helps Me COPE ...  
With ... "My Problems" ...  
And ... Problems People ...  
Have With ..... ME ......  
Like Saying ... I'm Full of ...  
  
...... " VANITY " ...... !!!!!!  
  
That's ... NOT ME ... !!!  
  
But ...
Is That ... YOU ... ???  
  
Do You Feel ... ?  
You ... Have To PROVE ...  
That You're ... STRONG ...  
Just Like .... KING KONG .... !?!  
  
Don't You ... REMEMBER ... ?!?  
What Happened To Him ... !!!!!  
  
Women and Men ...
Should ... " OVER-stand " ... !!!!!  
  
You're Told You're WEAK .... !!!  
By ....  Government Man ....  
To Make You ... Feel ...  

That ...  
You Should Be ... PLEASED ... !!!  
  
That ...  
  
You Don't Have To BEG ...  
For Your ... Daily Meal ... !!!!!!!  
  
When ... MANY People ... !!!  
Get A ... " RAW DEAL " ... !!!!!!  
  
So ...
How Do Those Words ... ?  
Make You ..... " FEEL " ..... !?!  
  
I WON'T ... "conceal" ... !!!  
But Will ... REVEAL ... !!!!!!!  
  
The Man ... I See ... !!!!!  
  
A Man of ... Words ...  
Who Has Now ... Learned ...  
  
To Believe In ... " ME " ... !!!!!!  
  
NOT .... " Society " .... !!!!!!  
  
Cos' ... "Society" ...  
DOESN'T ... Want To See ... !!!  
  
A Man Like Me ...  
USE .... " Poetry " ....  
To Make Individuals ...  
Finally SEE ...

That ... "SELF BELIEF" ...  
  
ISN'T .... Vanity .... !!!!!!!  
  
Take A Look In Your Mirror ...  
And ... When You See ...  
  
An ... ARROGANT Glimmer ...  
Let VANITY ... " simmer " ...  
And Drift ........ Awaaaaaaayyyyyyy ................................................  
  
Like .....  
  
Watching Kids Play .....  
On A .... " Beautiful Day " .... !!!!!  
  
These Are .... " Words "  
To .... Help You Sway ...  

Your Mind .... AWAY ....  
From ................................................ " ARROGANT WAYS " ... !!!!!!

See ....... SELF BELIEF .......  
Can Give ... Relief  ...  
  
And May Just HELP ...  
Your Mind To ... " REACH " ... !!!!!  
  
A Place of .... " HOPE "  
And ..... " Inner Peace " ......  
  
My Thanks Go Out ...  
To The ... " Master Jeff " ... !!!  
And The ... " Henry Family " ... !!!!!  
  
For Showing Me .... " LOVE " ....  
When I WASN'T ... " Loving Me " ... !!!!!  
  
These Are Words ...  
That Bring ... " Tears to my Eyes " ...  

Cos' They Take My Mind ...
Back To ... " Sad Times " ...
I Have Had ... "Within My Life" ... !!!
  
But Now I'm ... UP ... !!!!!!  
And Willing To ... FIGHT ... !!!!!!!!  
  
For .... " Peace and Love " ...  
Within ... " My Life " ... !!!
  
"Mum, rest in PEACE !  
I LOVE YOU STILL !  
More than any, Dollar Bill !"    
  
So Folks ....  
Let Me Ask You ?  
  
What Do You See ... ?  
  
An ... ARROGANT MAN ...  
of ..... " VANITY " ......  
  
Or A Man Who's ...  
... "EMBRACING" ....  
  
.... " SELF BELIEF " .... ?
Two, VERY DIFFERENT Things, in my opinion.
F A Pacelli Sep 21
everything you do 
(and don't do) 
will be interpreted 
by your peers 
for better or worse 
whether true or false
Fọlá Sep 20
You can't live without me,
You said.

You used to preach,
That life without me,
Wasn't one worth living.

So, tell me.
Why do you still draw breath?
Why am I on my own?
And you're not here!

I thought we would be together.
For eternity.

Forever,
In this life and the next.

I miss you so much.
Why aren't you here?

I'm all alone.
I need you, please.
I can't do this by myself.

I know you have a new life now.
A new beginning.
A chance to start afresh.

But the day you decide,
To take a trip to the next life.
And be with me;
Instead.

I will be waiting,
Right here. .  .
Astral Sep 13
Hand in hand,
Certain emotions go.
Like passion and envy,
Or anger and jealousy.

Like red and green,
They compliment each other.

Passion that fuels the envy.
Full of fire and frenzy,
Pulsating out.
The envy creeping in with tendrils,
A seething mass of resentment and desire.

Anger that provokes the jealousy.
Raging with pain and misery,
Seeping out.
The deap jealousy pooling,
A grasping puddle of hurt and greed.
When you wake up and see a message from me, do you cringe?

Because sometimes I feel some sense of guilt, but just a twinge

I should just leave you alone and continue watching that TV show you asked me to binge

Besides, the picture of you in my mind already thinks that I'm unhinged
————————
This morning I saw your messages to someone else; they were full of charm and grace

Why do I feel jealous? You were never mine in the first place

Yet the words you sent him feel like a spray of mace to my face

Sometimes I feel like I have to compete for your attention; what do I think this is, some type of race?
————————
I want to make myself believe that you care about me as I care about you

Those are all mind games though, I can't guarantee that's true

My attachment to you wasn't intentional, it was like an invasive ****—it simply grew

I still can't believe this all started over me liking a picture you drew
————————
Every message from you is like a shot of drugs straight to my brain; it's as if you pumped it into my veins with a syringe

But every word I send makes me feel guilt, still just a twinge

I guess I'll get back to watching that TV show you asked me to binge

All the while I'll repeat the question in my head: when you wake up and see a message from me, do you cringe?
Anastasia Sep 5
Stay away from him
I’m not afraid of sin
Take him from me,
I’ll take your life
Watch out for me
I’m sharpening my knife
He doesn’t belong to you
So let him go
You should be afraid
Of being alone
The idea of your blood
Spattered on the wall
Excites me
No breath left at all
The water turned red
Another one dead
Watch your back
Not for him
You should have obeyed
Now you’ll feel my blade
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