rey 1d

she's counting her bills
and counting on her prayers

he left before she knew what it meant to stay

she spent years of her childhood building herself alone
hoping that she would be loved when fully built

she ate her pride and drank her hopes, then
she lost her pride and bought new hopes

she's spending years building herself alone
for herself alone

she figured out what it means to stay

she's counting on her bills
and counting her prayers

For so long the Devil played the strings on my heart
I was a puppet in his hands, feeling this and feeling that
But Christ cut the strings; he replaced the hooks with a heart of flesh

Though still I feel the emotions, I go through the motions
They controlled me for so long, they pulled me along
Like a top, spinning and spinning; now free but it goes through the motions

My heart is free, but resides at pride and hate
My hands are free, and do the devil’s handiwork
My mind is free, but on Christ it does not dwell

Inertia lasts so long; then it’s done and gone
Someday it will be foregone: just hold on!

Little by little, I realize the puppet is free
The sins of my past are no longer steadfast
Spinning and dizzy still, I venture only step by step – but soon I walk freely

My heart is weak and failing, but soon all renewed
My hands are trembling, but reach to embrace the Savior
My mind forgets my sin, and clings to the old rugged cross

For so long, I fought to undo what had been done
Though I was glorified, the shadows of my stains made me tremble
As the spinning stops, so my heart; my sin is finished and I’m made like the savior

From my book, "Aimless Wanderer"
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1544626347

If  you  yelled at her in a fight, you don't feel like your throat is burnt as you drunk six shots in one glance
"You don't love her"

If by making her crying you don't feel dying
"You don't love her"

If her smile don't makes your heart quack , lungs shrink  & let you lost in another world all at a moment
"You don't love her"

Even by hurting her if you want to prove your point
"You don't love her"

When she says she is busy If it does not let you wait for her all day long
"You don't love her"

If her naked body is all you want to love
"You don't love her"

If her problems let you sleep
"You don't love her"

If by giving her wings you feel like a prisoner
"You don't love her"

but
If her smile is all you want than
Yes man  
"YOU LOVE HER"
                              - komal <3

Painful pieces of my darken soul
are found within the potter's hands
Tiny specks
fall between his fingers
lingering in golden sands

My cracked heart bleeds through
to his touch

In my darkness
within this depressive state of mind
I cannot see
My eyes have fallen behind
the madness of my mind

Dullness leaves my eyes blind

I cannot understand why he bothers
to pick me up

One more time

In darkness,my heart sits
Never to truly feel
All my emotions slip through vacant holes
where all my senses leave my soul
Sitting alone in hollowness

I feel nothing
Except
Heaviness

In this dark place
I sit within his loving grace
I cannot see to be 
even me
Darkness sweeps over
and I am blind

In this time I hold to him
who has passed through here
many times
I linger in a small glowing light
that voices say
are mine
Through transparent faith
I hold to God's grace
For without God's love and light
I would surely drown
in darkness
Putting my small light out
within this dark night.

By Weeping willow
(c) 2017 ;-\

Why is my heart always so heavy
No matter what comes to the day
Rain brings it on so quickly
Like a storm waiting to explode
So I sit quietly during these times
holding
to God
Eric Pon 5d

When I sleep dreams please take head
I’m not accustomed to this speed
spliced with music art and weed
this rhyme a warning and a plead:

Many men look back at me
their eyes memorize silently
I trade in who I used to be
degenerating empathy

Friends no more are there as well
waving constantly farewell
who they are now I can’t tell
heavy water stains still dwell

Though no longer what you were
your name a prayer spoken unsure
Instills the fact there is no cure
clear direction- violent blur

I am a man and I’m a boy
both utensil and a toy
immoral morals, high decoy
let flirt with death, young cold and coy

So please I beg you, dreams of pain
let sleep consume me, peace sustain
let night air fill my broken brain
through the wind myself retrain

Let me wade in water deep,
let my faith forwardly leap
worry sow and disdain reap

Troubled Poppies for Endless Sleep.

No sleep for me.
There's monsters under my bed.
What should I do?
They break the peace while I rest.

I use the blankets,
To pull over my head.
I yearn for protection,
From wicked things they have said.

They crawl through the bed sheets.
And enter my mind.
Looking for methods,
To destroy what they find.

Depression, I hate you.
But, you know you won't win.
Ill destroy what you are,
And all that you've been.

4-21-2017
somewon Apr 19

yesterday i had a slight pain
throbbing on the left
of my chest

& it went on for hours
couldn't really sleep at night

which led me thinking
that ive never wrote a little eulogy
to myself
before the time comes
or the fact
i didnt write down any of my secrets
for my mother to discover later on
or the goodbyes i might never get the chance
to say

but i fell asleep eventually
somehow

& the next morning i woke up to
the news
that one of my family members
has just passed away from a heart
attack

Aurelia Apr 19

When I'm gone just hold on
Because time will pass and I will be back
A prick it will be , be bold now
Let not the tears be sign of lack
You have much more my precious swan
Be kind and courageous , not a sulking sack

When I'm gone just hold on
Because time will pass and I will be back
I want you to remember the rhymes and my song  
Sing them and be calm in the dark

Because  it will fade by the cold dawn
As my love for you is more than all that stack
When I'm gone just hold on
Because time will pass and I will be back

I can't see my mom go
so I read this to myself
Jennifer Weiss Apr 18

Oh this continuous trial,
Will have to fade.
I have put my faith in You.
I will live another day.
I can see the dawn is rising,
the darkness fades.
Your light is everlasting,
and shines upon my face.

only the growth you see
is the one you will be
don't hold ont deeds
that won't let you be
the greatest person
you are meant to be

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