I lost the plot and that's fine I lost my mind within the lines of my aquamarine journal oh the feelings it holds under lock and key oh the feelings I keep just for me the pages filled with my metaphorical tears the pages filled with my realistic fears describing my intrusive thoughts outlining my dreams of yachts It is so distant yet so near my journal is where I disappear it houses the memories, my souvenirs my breath that you took, the lyrics to my next hook all lies within my aquamarine book
Could it be you, To end my days lost in blunder? Your saving grace afar, A hope so loving of wonder? Miles the ocean, Of sacred waters to whisper… You hold a key so dear, I longing to be your kisser. Sands of your home, Cradles the loveliest treasures. O’, all gold to unfold, Unlock my heart for your pleasures. Of golden shore, You are worth more!
She is doing kind of **** I would never do It genuinely hurts to see the way she's treating you Back when mine I treated you as if you were my king Looks as if in her mind you are nothing more than a fling I try to hide disapproval because I don't have the right To tell who is and who isn't worthy of holding you so tight But is hard to witness you take any amount of abuse Emotional and physical You refuse to cut her loose Does it seem I am simply sipping on some haterade? Opinion formed without even giving you a chance to persuade In gut instinct churns that she will run once more What is stopping her now that wasn't in the way before? Despite previous cold shoulder you dove right back into her (eye-see)icy sea You really believe she changed overnight into the woman you need her to be Suspicions Concerns Questions swarm my confused mind You chase what does not care and leave who loves you behind Rushing to her side again the moment you get the chance When she pushes away I'm sure you'll repeat the dance At worst I threw some punches when I lost control of my fist Appears violent tendencies are something she doesn't bother to resist I hope under covers she at least warms your body at night when it's late Waking up by you privilege missed most so I pray that one blessing she appreciates I wish her to hold you down whether doing good or bad Because I supported through struggles no matter how little you had She better carry more weight than I could to help relieve your heavy load Demonstrating far greater strength then the pathetic bit I showed Inevitably she will grow tired of the endless games and lies Wonder how much manipulation she'll endure before she will finally cave and realize I had given up on promised transformation and pushed for solely honesty Something tells me she is not capable of accepting that this is all you'll ever be She does a more adequate job than me at being everything you desire Does a word exist describing the qualities I lack which you require? Inside is excruciating knowing you have discovered happiness with someone new In presence underneath maintained composure visciously longing to fall for anyone other than you Unsure how much misery must drown in before loneliness finally sets me free Maybe it is time to admit that this cage my heart is locked within was created with no key
Perhaps I am searching for something that doesn't exist
Hand keys To my heart What a start To another fatal Chapter After The utter shatter And the picking up again Love’s abusive Friend Sadist archer With fiery arrows And a gate I can’t defend Keys missing This may be my End Before I’m even beginning Key tucked safely In your hands And my stupid mind Thinks I’m winning Final inning And I’m coming Up Short No retort Here I am again The ubb And dubb Of a key Made of me I’m in love I’m lacking I pierce Shattering Smattering together The same chorus Forever In offering of lovers Like livers That keep growing Back Back to the rock And in offering I lack Maybe it’s me But in order To be free I must offer my key
the turning of a key in the lock. twinkle and movement of metal on metal. it's been four days now and i feel like the ugly butterfly in the garden that no one wants to hold or chase after. i'm wrapped in a chrysalis, transformation taking place everywhere i look. so let's hope i come out brighter and more beautiful than ever.