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Mar 2015 · 802
Backwards Beliefs
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
It's funny to consider the "truth"
What almost every person still believes,
A 2,000 year old religion telling me
That a man walked on water easily,
The Red Sea parted for Moses,
Frogs and locusts fell from the sky,
That every first born child in Pharaoh's
Court died in a single night, slain by a man
Named Jehova, the "only true creator of all life,"
A man survived for a week in the belly of
A whale, Noah and his family were on a
Vessel somehow big enough to house
Two of every last creature and set sail,
These are the strangest tall tails I've ever heard,
And I'M probably corrupted because
I wont actually believe it, not a word!
YEA! We all know you exist! That on every street corner you preach this stuff, yea we've seen it! And you know what? You have locked us all up for years saying WE are the lunatics! But you guys are even CRAZIER!
Mar 2015 · 634
You Kissed Me
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
You kiss me beneath the violet blue, sunset
orangish and gold like the color of a ring,
set in sapphire and jasmine, the sparkling glint
that the first stars bring from within the twilight,
short haired and vibrant, strong as a fine steed,
the visions of a daring courageous female knight,
giving rise to another exotic and elated feeling,
a memory of feeling warm in the arms of a dream.

The playfulness of your eyes, subtle glances,
of respites and revelry, of moon stones
and magic trances, memories of a time when
I felt like the lips of a short haired Goddess
had touched mine. I can not ask for more
than this special place I want to be,
for this there is no greater yearning,
this being the kiss which sets me free.

You hold me, and in your arms I am alive,
for the first time I feel I must confess,
I had your hand and your heart, envisioned
our love though it's only the greatest test.
I can promise you anything, but first you
must show me the way. I will never be
whole until you kiss me like you did
in my minds eye, your caress by the tree
when the sun fell at the end of that day.
Mar 2015 · 880
No Magic
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
I sat there in thoughtful repose, a fixed stare into
The crystal ball, wishing for a response or a voice,
Truly I've never received anything more than
Silence, as though there even was a magical point.

A ghostly will I have in mind, is that in the end
I can be buried right next to a willow, so that maybe
If the mid-morning rain falls upon my grave,
It will offer only a melody song of wind chimes,
Just a note of tranquil soft rain, a bell ringing
Off in the distance, tolling like the golden days.

Perhaps there will be an answer somehow, perhaps
There will never come an answer, but what's the point?
This train I am on goes where the commoners please,
Is this life just an endless toil, a festering disease?

*Somehow I'll find it, the fantasy dreamt fairytale answer.
No magic. Period. A lifetime of stress, work, and now cancer.
Mar 2015 · 1.2k
That Part
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
There is a part of me missing,
No one I see can tell, beneath this heart,
A damp empty room is no longer full,
But this was not it from the very start.

There is a part of me missing,
Like a lump in the sore throat of a singer,
Shattering the pitch, breaking of notes,
The voice gets carried away, the sound lingers.

There is a part of me missing,
Unlike any other so it is unique,
It looks like your eyes, dances but it is still,
Holds me close but I'm cold and cannot sleep.

There is a part of me here,
It shines as camp fires glow at night,
Into the darkness it holds me close
And warms me even now and I take flight.
Mar 2015 · 7.2k
Marionette, Part II
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
Hands
Eyes
Feet
God
Charade
Pink
King
Dress
Blessed
Make up
Pastels
Ponies
Hearts
Carts
Darts
Future
Born
Torn
Plain
Wrapp­ed
Trapped
Ice
Wings
Strings
Scissors
"Fallen angel"
Silhouette

Marionette
Mar 2015 · 26.5k
Gay Marriage And "Equality"
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
So it is a controversy. So they say,
Marriage sours if your parents are gay,
The idea of this seems like a self-centered
View, that gay marriage partners aren't
Well to do. Get over it, gays need rights as well,
It's not to decide, as if you were a god,
Whether they will wind up in this place
You call hell. Leave them alone, let their dream be,
You call this a free country where marriage is free?
Or maybe you believe in the idea that all marriage
Should be defined as only for straights, it's per my
Humble opinion that is a favouritism argument
Geared just against gays.
Mar 2015 · 735
That Day-Busride
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
Together, each day, in San Francisco on Christmas at the wharf, following our envisioned dream,
Youthful and childlike, the dock of boats and the ocean shore, standing in front of the Christmas tree,

That day, the day I first saw you, where you got sick and they let you off, sitting only a row behind, just over to the side,
At the meeting place, on the field trip watching you at the dusty Mission from a short distance, I felt something changing inside,

Together, at the piano in the square, playing our song "The Busride," our busride we share, that fateful day,
Every night, our whimsical moments together, in the ivory golden light of the moon, both asleep and at play,

The sidewalk, she runs toward me with her backpack, giggling she tries to smack me with it, then I remember,
You running towards me, clutching your lunch pail trying to land a friendly blow, three innocent lovers, September,

She's always been like a sister to me, and you, playful and boyish, like a total opposite, such unique treasures,
Breaths taken like the sea, onward like this music of hours, magical notes washing up on the shore in even measures,

Together, wishing and dreaming a dream so true, the petals I pick, the field of endless flowers,
I'm still on that bus, tomorrow, now and for all time, for the rest of my life, every moment, this eternal bus ride of ours,

Rain falling on and on to impart,
bringing the flowers a cordial of life,
With her laughter echoing afar.

That day-our busride, together...
Mar 2015 · 489
Precious Memory of You
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
The children laugh and I walk until night.
I will walk again tomorrow
hoping you will but once again follow. I have seen you before,
you must know now I am quite the same,
still a child by heart,
sigh* I know...Remember my words
for they are true dear.
I will be here for my
lifetime 'til you are again near.
Mar 2015 · 1.5k
Passion Turned Violet Red
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
Windy torrents of water and thunders echo
against a silent brown house,
It's large grey doors open, shrill voices sing,
chandeliers burn...
more sounds are heard outside, like a hailing.
chandeliers burning the ceiling...
statue wax ivory figures melt, burning in their
passion, melting turned violet red they have become
hopeful, promises of painless joys, power over
wars, famine, disease and all things of darkness
are whispered in hushed sincerity and prayers
but still vague and opaque.
Even now a banging of hail, leaves upon a pane
all the doors blow open now
and with a shriek all of wind in the drops are
scattered drenching, so even the mid morning rain
can still drip earth upon the clear white figures
revealing their true origin
rendered **** by what once made them.
Mar 2015 · 773
Ownership
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
I am the lamp, I am this lighting, using up electricity
I am the wall, I am this part of your expensive home
I am the car, I ride too and from, to work and fun
I am the computer, I addict you and take up your time
I am the heater, I warm you and keep you from sickness
I am the stove, I cook your food and boil your water
I am the fridge, I protect your food and liquids from spoiling
INSTANTLY

And you are my slave, you will do what I say in return,
Anything and everything, now that you have these things,
You can never be alone, never have a day off, never be free,
Never have enough time to rest or stay at home with family,
*EVER AGAIN.
Mar 2015 · 451
When Summer Ends
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
I love you still just the same as ever,
All these lovely things You've said of me,
They Don't die with summer.

Once I grow weary I think of you again,
All the years and everything we did
They don't die with summer.

Now when my feel of winter is plain,
Or the feel of spring isn't quite here,
Then you are once again near
It is the beginning of summer again.

I love you with my heart of gold,
I need your heart to shine my glow
And it wont fade and die with summer,
I need your warmth of life to guide me
And stay beside me when you find me
And I will never die with summer.

Sadly to say, nothing lasts forever,
This being the truth one might still
Persist to try to live forever with
A prayer or a star or a blessing
Trying to stem the tide of all of this
With yet another eternal summer wish.

I hate to admit it, this may be a stunner,
But the emotion love is the only thing
That never dies with summer.
Mar 2015 · 2.9k
Prideful American Ways
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
America,
Violent are your "peace bringing ways,"
Soiled are your oily lakes and dumps of "cleanliness,"
Tattered your past, your pox blankets you shared
With the Tribes, filling their lives with "blessedness"
Boring are your churches of "joy and eternal bliss,"
Poor are your "satisfied costumers" hopeless days,
Pride goeth before a fall, and yours shall
Be it's own undoing with your stubborn ways.
Mar 2015 · 3.7k
Camp-Memories of You
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
Every weekend at summer camp the
Memories of the midnight walks we made,
The rushing of the silvery creeks
As well as the daily art and games,
Entertainment as well as molding clay,
The mountainside at night gave good
Presence, the moon offering her halo,
With the memory of endless essence so,
During this time of adventurous fun,
A story telling we campers would all go.

Her raspy voice, I can remember well,
Those cute sparkly playful brown eyes,
We walked side by side, she told me that
The truth was being denied, she was a
Girl in disguise, how I dream of her
In Garnet, Alexandrite. That feeling of total trust,
Now I will probably never be close to
Anyone I love again, already grown old,
To old to ever dream, but what a dream,
A lovely bliss to know that she was my friend.

One day, when the time is right, we'll find it,
This feeling again, of wild spirited joy, campfires,
Of following the forest path, now innocence lost,
A time that is long-gone and past, and if it
Never happens again, the darkness of night
With quiet whispering, story time moon light,
I will never forget her, never will I forget that
Beautiful freckled face, those beady eyes,

*No, never forget you, not for all time.
Mar 2015 · 4.8k
Enlightenment
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
All the stars as one in unison
Make up the galaxy we're in,
Floating around a white celestial
Being on this planetary ship.
We'll wind up in the "path of Gods,"
A self-made volunteer appears with an
"Informative" plan to share "love's book,"
To speak of "things we'll find on this journey,"
No future planned stone can be pre-overlooked.

And in the skies float the particles
That started out light years away
Have finally made their touchdown,
Leaving the express universal highway
A rocky chunk of history found it's way to town.

A story that is so ancient, so in tune with time,
That it even has developed a star-struck
Lightning fire in the backyard of galactic life,
And what sprouted from the ashy rubble is us,
Eyes hands and feet and all to experience,
To explore the many creations of natural love.
My express views aren't against Christianity itself, I merely believe that the speaking of what the actual origin of all life is and how it started has not yet been established for simple men to explain, that ignorance and traditionalism go hand in hand, and that there is no crime in simply seeking the truth in many different places.
Mar 2015 · 871
Vanity
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
Without asking for more than the simple sweet simplicitys,
I am bounded by the same laws and rules for life.
No use in explaining the values of eccentricities,
We are all tools for the media, for what they strive.
A product of the temptation for power over others, we will stay
The same forever, entrapped in ice with our sisters and brothers,
The silly dreams we have, our pursuits. A tiny bit of concern to the
Rich-who live to find the right eyeliner, lip gloss-or the best set of
Nine Irons for golfing or business suits. Some day they will
Get what they deserve, some day...some day.
But too bad for me, some day came a little too late...
Mar 2015 · 829
Crazy-IT
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
I've got everything figured out,
Now it dawns on me that all this time
I was being used! And I know that I
Was abused, but then all of a sudden
I feel IT...you know. That "feeling,"
That paranoid feeling that says "yea, and
You but you did this and that and the other
Thing,
(I know what you did last
Summer) suuuuure. And so I sit
There re-ensuring all I had my
Needs, couldn't-no-wouldn't let
Myself be until I finally did "IT."
And then I realize I was right,
That I'm just being spooked by
People here who are trying to
Brainwash me at night,
Then it begins again, I knew it!
I was right, I was abused!
But then I feel IT again...

Ain't no way to hide those lyin' eyes...GOD I hate that song.
Mar 2015 · 632
1,000 Years In A Day
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
If I ever see you again
It can never be to soon,
You must find me here
Beneath the ivory moon
Where my love lies every year.

It's just how much it hurt
When you said goodbye,
Seeking an answer above
I'll wish a rainbow in the sky,
Just sing me a lullabye tonight,

Sparkling stars shall offer you light,
For this one last night, for life,
And in the grassy meadows
Will you come and seek me out?
When stormy weather clears,
Shall there be soft white clouds?

In the end all you will find
Is a golden flower with your name,
In my youth I was blind of fears,
But now I'm calling as in vain,
Be it one day? A thousand years?

I just can't handle all of this pain,
I will be here for my whole lifetime
Until I'm in your arms some day.
It's better to have lost my sight
Than to miss loving you for life,
I dream of your love every night,

Love forever,
Even for 1,000 years in a day.
Mar 2015 · 798
Golden Silence
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
I know we've had our share of troubles,
And you're always quick to criticize,
How I've failed you every step and turn,
I guess you saw a way to use this guy.

So then I get to stay as long as I shut up,
Do as I am told, keep all of my emotions in,
Fill your life with garbage and waste your time again,
Until the day you find a better replacement,
Only a matter of when.

Therefor I came up with a way, the only way to win,
Simple, you just take off, find the furthest place to go,
Leave as much space between you and me and
Never take free time out to speak to you again,
Only a matter of when.
Mar 2015 · 724
Justified Ends
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
My favorite things in life
Are quite simple to explain,
I'll never buy into the knife
And not into causing pain,
But that isn't popular
So I will have few friends,
Everyone is going to war,
Though bittersweet it's ends,
I guess it makes sense
The threats will end someday,
We'll just make life "Safer"
By blowing them all away.

Or whatever "solutions" still seem to work today...
Mar 2015 · 1.4k
Crystal-Haiku
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
A broken rainbow
Traveling light reflected
Within a smooth stone
Feb 2015 · 599
Parting
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Loneliness...

Before supper I have to go and end it,
He's tall with brown eyes and curly hair,
Halfway through the day you stare at me
A solemn silence in the thick cold air,
He's got olive tan skin, below the lips a scar,
Just at the chin sharp as one who's fallen,
Somewhere below sub-par, not too far,
He's a born fool, I made myself the victim,
At best he must just be a beady eyed guy,
Now he just stares up at the colorful sky,
Things could have been groovy but why,
Why oh why do *I have too much time?

He always wants to have more,
I live for you, he's born to wine,
Time for parting so close the door.

...and I've got to end it, although I've lived alone,
He's the only person I've really ever known,
The only one here in this blank walled room,
If I have to I will make sure it's done soon,
The time has come to bid them adieu,

I've known him all of my life until this afternoon...
Feb 2015 · 812
NIKKI
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
You're still so far away I don't know where to start,
How hard it rained the day I left
And the pain driving into my heart,
I remember her sitting there, staring at me,
A lump in my throat, it was near Halloween,
Her short hair, her brown eyes so keen, so sharp,
Like she could cut right through me,
Like that day you broke my heart,
And only I know who you really are,
And this empty dryness still wont leave,
I don't expect your loving me although love is free,
Don't forget though that my love has always been near,
I've always been watching and waiting year after year
It's just a little bit farther, reach for the sparkling stars,
It can all be over soon, but I'm still not sure where to start,
The suffering in your life and your pain can all end soon,
I'll be in your arms just call me, find me, I'll be waiting for you.
Feb 2015 · 927
The Stone Alone
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
I have a crystal both darker and lighter,
Just gleaming; like illuminated sparkling
Beaded droplets of water, with a healing top.
I hold it to my chest though
And it seems faint, almost
As thou all that light and energy
Is just for the eyes; it's vibrant heart feels lost.
There is a black and white pouch
In my box, so I get it out to put the crystal in,
As if for safety while it is still healing.
This stone with so much beauty
Yet seemingly vague, you'd think
It was meant just for the eyes,
So very empty. Like soft rain, the color of
Every rainbow comes from the skies light,
Yet you can feel oh so silent and lonely.
Maybe I could find a place for this stone,
Perhaps I'll put it with green and gold
So it wont seem so empty, so alone...
Feb 2015 · 769
Classtime With Mrs. Pacheco
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
In the early morning we knelt down,
And in the cool damp kindergarten classroom air,
The whole place bustled with so much sound
As all the children gathered there.
It was then the birds flew in and out
Between the bushes, through small holes,
During days we learned what their music was about
When we sang and laughed with giddy souls.
In the end we'd pronounce our letters dot our i's
And in the afternoon paint while warmed by the sun,
The golden birds one by one flew by,
And in the end our masterpieces were done.
I would come back with brightly cheerful eyes
Each step I'd take up the driveway so joyful, home.
I made a painting in class that day, it got 1st prize,
It was a painting of a sun and birds of my own.
Feb 2015 · 1.0k
Season For Brown Eyes
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Quiet misty twilight peace,
Cooling summers breeze,
A smooth brown floating leaf
Falls from a tree to green grass beneath.

Orange and golden sunset's light
Brimming until night,
And falls browns and oranges
Are nearly winter messages.

Icy blues and snowy whites,
Tip top mountains greatest heights,
Floating white clouds on high
Are in the crystal clear blue sky.

Green vast endless fields grow
Flowers painted by rainbows,
And a clear stream gently flows
Toward the lake that gleams and glows.

And as if in a dream
With these waters glistening,
Leading me right to your side
For I am in love...with brown eyes.
Feb 2015 · 893
Failed Test
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Above and beyond the clouds of my endless sky,
I found a "small challenge" to finding my sweet,
She'd gone away to College and found a cute guy,
This is the reason each day I do not happily greet.

My joy is an illusion, I hide myself from the pain,
I beat this image out of my mind again and again and
Again. But still it returns-her and him-hell I've not even
Seen his face but I can imagine mine like a dismal disgrace.

I confess to the world I am a failure at best,
I had your hand, your heart but failed your test,
And now I am put back in my box to rust and to rot,
To be happy at the bottom is worse than sad at the top.
Feb 2015 · 3.3k
The Cabin Loft
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
I remember lying there in the greenish sleeping bag,
Staring up at the wooden ceiling with all the dust,
The cobwebs sway in slightest amounts of air,
And falling asleep slowly, the loft so full of must.
This sinking sensation comes over me and I can see
A dark shadow in the other room, it moves across the
Doorway and looks as I call out for someone anyone
And in panic I have a total feeling of doom.

But this is just the beginning, I wake up in beads of sweat,
Is this really my life or dream, have I truly woken up yet...?

This story I hear tell of a man across the halls,
Who would walk toward the other side
At half past 12 at night as my friend recalls,
A dark visage, a shadowy veil, came out
When the daylight would subside.
The story as I recall keeps me up sometimes,
He had no eyes, again I repeat, you could see right
Through his eyes!
Feb 2015 · 335
Life Without You-Feelings
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
I never meant to hurt you, I always
Try and try. But my tears fell
On and on, That day I withered and
I died. You must know by now,
If all I say is I DO, That I need
Your hand in mine, for I do
I DO LOVE YOU...
I feel something hurt you,
But I know I don't Mean to.
I will fill your life with
Rabbits and sweets because
That is what would please you.
Don't forget I do feel this way,
Every day. I don't feel my emotions
Very well any more...I always cried.
I can't really cry much.
I will still be there for you-
Through ALL the years.... sigh.
It will last forever. I will see
You soon. I see you meant no harm, to.
Feb 2015 · 2.2k
Voice of The Wind
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
We have a saying
Where I come from-
Always trust your elders words
Before your day is done.
And we have a saying
From where I was born-
Always trust the wisdom fire
Before your heart gets torn.
Then here comes the sun
And it brings all seeds to life,
The rain falls speaking to you
About wise winds at night.
And in the den
The cubs sleep sound and warm,
In the furs of the mother bear
Until the rain dries up in the morn.
So keep with you forever
The Mother Earth's kind love,
Although she can not stop her rains
Trust the Wise Winds up above.
Feb 2015 · 1.0k
Never Look Back
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
The golden sunlight shone
Bright over the hill
As the wind fills the
Sky with flower petals.
A single drop of dew
Falls onto a dandelion
Growing in a field
And settles.
I gaze deeply
Into your eyes then we kiss
Slowly, our hearts
Beating fast.
I take your hand
Walking onward in the
Grassy field as we go on
Forever, and we never look back.
Feb 2015 · 2.6k
Unicorn Born Without A Horn
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Jesus was the Unicorn, they said he had a horn,
First born, supposedly the make of purity, somehow
Said to be better than the Devil. The "only true God..."

Seems to me to be absurdity.

But some say this is a MYTH, "his truth" is "brought to life,"
Even if there is more to life than what the non-Christians say,
I know for sure that this Unicorn horn is just another silly lie.

Why can't people understand the sad sad truth, this religion
Is clearly the work of cults who try to mislead our youth!
No one walked on top of water, no ****** ever gave birth,
This "unicorn Jesus" fairy tale is clearly not possible truth.

If some stranger proves me wrong I guess they have made it clear
That magical sprites fairies and dragons are also known to appear.
Feb 2015 · 726
Strangers of "Light"
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
You see me every day on your city
Street, you notice me outside, wave,
Quickly hear my thanks as I enter your
House without another word, I take
Off my jacket and start in on your meal.
We eat and drink everything, unlike everyone else
You give us a small pat on the back, and so now
We must pull out our books and it is your
Turn to learn, to be brought to real light,
Our shined black shoes glisten in your lamp.
So now you will only take part in being shown
Our path to follow, the guide to believe
In, the miracle of speaking, of strange
Works, so you can pay all your money
Right to those who "will need it most."
As we leave, we only ask one thing,
That you always remember we'll be
Waiting on you, counting on your
Further interest in our promises.
Feb 2015 · 1.3k
Self-made Kings And Queens
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Carefully I speak, then silenced in trance of fear,
That you will not be mad if I let out an idea
Nobody here ever seems to want to hear?
Your older and have the money, so but of course,

You fix our food,
Clean the house,
Make the beds,
**** the mouse.

When I want to let my "evil ideas" out,
And tell you what worries me, I must be lost.
So is your world all anyone cares about?
When your "chosen" mess up, I pay the cost?

You do the dishes,
Clean the stove,
Feed the Baby,
Carry the load.

So who ever needed me anyway?
All I do is take up verbal space.
The "world" now "knows that I'm nuts,"
The "wolf" must be me in any case...
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
If my dreams were made of ice and I had just one wish,
Someone at the top has already set the cities fire to full blast,
Turning everything I hoped for to a puddle, melting it.

What's the point in this life when everything you want
Depends on if they will open the door for you? It seems
To me we are only doing what the rich all would want us to!

Though this sounds like a stupid rant, but notice if you will,
How much it costs for cops to go to a house simply
Because of a stupid argument, REAL justice unfulfilled.

It's happened before and it will happen again, these tools,
They who make all of my dreams disappear with a snap,
The one who has the least integrity is often the one who rules...
Feb 2015 · 2.6k
Wicked Witches
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
My memory is filled with icy thoughts so chilled
I begin to stammer, loss of breath, like a ghost
That follows me, my teeth chatter,  so many
Of my warning words that no one ever heard,
Locked away in fear, the watchers always near,
Thoughts flooding with grief, the darkness fraught,
Ever filled with thieves so fast they seem to disappear.

It would seem I am beyond what some deem a good guy in the end,
Every time my breath catches, I seem to feel on the mend.
Then it begins again, a waking crash like flashing light,
Well I never get much rest, before it's over, twilight pests.
They follow me at dusk, this rain, and hail it must,
Until I am lost in thought, I awaken to this unspoken fact,
That if I had not been poor, friends would be at my door.

Blind with broken dreams, this is quite a scene,
It seems that money spoke, it made my life a joke.
Still I ask why oh why oh why? And I get the same answer,
It'll come to you some day, boy, you're getting old, tisk tisk,
This world is cold and full of holes, your worries are absurd,
Not a word, NOT another WORD, your logic is absurd...
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
A Valentine Poem

Think of green and gold, sapphire hues,
With darkness gone your freedom is fun,
There is nothing wrong with staying you,
Natural love and joy is best shared in the sun.

Before the whole of all we see, let dreams be,
Sometimes there is nothing to be seen,
The truth is life is real, yet in the night you
Can feel that you're truly living in the dream.

Fantasy is left to the best, some can even be
There in "your concern" but the real test
Is learning to be true to what you yearn,
You shall rise to the top when it's you're turn.

Think of green, think of gold, her wild strength
And beauty to behold, playful and tough, such gorgeous sight,
And oh so cute-you can see he's the right one for you,
Be mine, my green and gold valentine! I'll be in your arms tonight.
Feb 2015 · 4.3k
"Real" Love Is Not Easy
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
I still remember your eyes
I still remember you always holding me
Keeping me safe from harm with all your charm
I remember feeling you looking at me, and I
Know you're still there, you're so wonderful!
I couldn't help but fall in love with you
And get crushes everywhere else, too.
It's just so unfair to have found such
Lovely romances, and suffer heartbreaks!
I can't help where my heart
Goes, but that's why I'm torn apart...
Please remember I'm always here and so is
My love too, it's not easy to be what society
Wants of you, especially love! Love is wild and
It's so undesired to be told I'm a cheater
When I have an excuse, I'm only human too!
Just remember I wasn't born with a defective
Heart, and it isn't easy to be torn apart.
Feb 2015 · 1.3k
Blank Pages
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
"Opportunity," this American Dream life we so believe in,
The limo stops at the hotel, the rich people get in,
A set of old jars full of coins, a leaf blower, men with picks,
A brush put through ones hair, make up, vitamins, drugs,
The people sit in a park, the time passes, the clock ticks.

Stock market books sitting on the shelf, a church ***** playing,
A magnet stuck to the fridge, pictures with people smiling,
A war machine, the newspaper, a set of playing cards and a
Distant smile. A set of hedge clippers, a ferry crossing,

Solitaire.

A man on the curb with torn clothes and nothing at all
A set of file cabinets, clocks, the sent of a bank,
Golf clubs, a set of business magazines, a Barbie Doll,
Swaying hammocks, and one guy in the background
Who is losing it because he can't ever "take a fall."
Feb 2015 · 1.6k
Torn Apart
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
How often are we torn apart by love? Love triangles ruin everything fun.
How often do we get into fights? Arguements and of course I'm not right.
How often do we lose ourselves in blame? Now it's my fault, such a shame.
And why do we do this? Our soul purpose in life is? Will we ever move on?
Of course, into oblivion we fight with all our might to be number one.
When someone is happy, we make sure their work will never be done,
By pushing buttons we can make even the strongest fall short,
By hitting below the belt we can make progress the "last resort."
Why do we fall so short of love and honesty? And where did all of these "Perfect Winners" come to be?
Feb 2015 · 538
Soft Rain
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
The Endless Spring

A single tree, etched with words of love in it's side,
A darkened plume of clouds are still in the fresh air,
Wisps of cottony white, floating in a silent, almost
A blissful unawareness of all worry and despair.

The three of them, so young and happy, laughing,
Trying to smack each other with backpacks, innocent,
Her, so strong and tough, and her friend so free spirited,
And he, effeminate, and not quite sure how to express it yet.

The side walks adjacent of the old school house are lined
With pine cones, evergreen trees, amidst fields of green,
Smoky plumes tower high into the sky, the water of life,
A story of some sorts, of great things in store, a living dream.

A bird calls out, soft rain gently falling on the field of grass,
A rebirth of all nature will take place there, a voice, a sign,
A story of a misfit boy, an endless book, of the greatest
Person to have ever lived in the shortest amount of time.
Feb 2015 · 1.5k
Passion
Alan S Bailey Feb 2015
Her body calls to me like metal,
Like an air plane, like a pale cold beach,
Mid-morning dew right next to
The peach with blossoms and tea leaf.

The sharpest razor cuts into the neck,
It glides along slowly, shark in the dark,
I blink and try not to think of it's cold
Surface, like rose petals in a greying park.

It's a lost cause, but still I've gotten
Somewhere in ranks, the banners, the tanks,
All along the border the steely birds that prey
Are lined up, for the lost lives we give "thanks."

Building this wall, we've got to support some dream,
It's a popularity thing, it's about being disposable,
A quick fix in a time of uncertainty, of loyal dogs,
We look great spattered in red, this is encourage-able.

It's a fine line between do or die, we've just found
A way to make it seem like we are in the right,
Give the peaceful natives and hippies a "clue" of what is true,
We'll make "reasonable sacrifice," bring death with "Gods light."
I have a page on youtube with my piano music, to hear my songs that go with my poetry please visit: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL9tz9OI2eSLs9WxEY3gh_QfSn20GopR2U
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
So, the white man has come here, brought us "gifts"
Guns so we can all sleep less soundly, worried that
The stalker will find us in some dark alley-way,
Each one of these gifts are "perfect," "protect us" day by day.

So the white man has made his home here! He's got our "answers,"
He's made images and books that **** trees, needless to say
We don't need trees anyway, he's made houses that take even more,
His home is one of straw, will one day be gone but the scars remain.

So the white man has "aided in kind," he's given us blankets,
Blankets with all of our "needs met," yea we all don't mind,
Getting the small pox, leave this life behind it's fine,
We'll be better off dead than alive, but nature's deemed "less kind."

And all that I ask you is this, where will we be in the future?
We all know where this is headed. These creations are a lie,
Our lives and the land cursed with evil machines that will
Bring innocent life to an end, whilst men in vans take flight.
Tribal scars home answers nature innocent cursed machines
Jan 2015 · 487
Stoned-Haiku
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
I am the one guy
Who needs to get himself lit
To get a good high
Jan 2015 · 1.5k
Sewn Shut-Isolation
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
Over-run by Christian perfectionists, all I can think of is ***,
Someone please save me from myself, save me from this hell,
Let me be different or chop them off, I won't be needing them,
I'll just make them go away and disappear, I'll need a knife as well.

My short and useless life will be over soon anyway,
I was certainly given enough guilt I can not hide,
No one will want to be my friend, not day to day,
Not if I'm the one that's got to be the eccentric "lie."

In the end the rest of us are stuck in this abyss,
The one where it's an evil thought to let nature grow,
Allow her to flourish (and why should we let her live?)
To be the one to sew the seeds, but we will never know.

It's a tricky path I'd rather have never been put on,
When I was a kid I thought everything was fine,
Then I grew up and found out I was different,
My train is on the tracks, I'll never make it on time.

And so I ask the world to answer, everyone just laughs,
They tell me I'm going to need to move out of the country,
I'd give anything to leave, but there's no clear set path,
Maybe I should have been born into a different family?

So my friends wish me well, my unborn children already dead,
I don't want to be this way, carry on and sewn shut in tears of red,
I'll be back again to ask for help and they will all just cringe,
I guess they've made certain that I shall be the "embodiment of sin."
Jan 2015 · 652
"Wise" Prudence
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
Mother, Father what have I done? I've taken this marijuana, smoked
It, "killing every last braincell," but never tried any lethal drugs.

Mother, Father what have I done? I've gone skinny dipping with the
Girls, flying head over heels and never have I had so much fun.

Mother, Father what have I done? I've played hookey and missed
Class, went to get my friend on the streets something to stay warm.

Mother, Father what have I done? I got in an argument and they hit me,
He could have shot me with a deadly weapon, but I never carry a gun.

Mother, Father what have I done? Everything you never did, and I
Wouldn't regret it, not for the life of me would I be the prudent one!
prudent gun foolish cousin mother father regret girls drunk fun
Jan 2015 · 548
Endless Ocean-Heartbeat
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
The coral rock, the seaweed, the waves,
Within her heart still lives on, the drumming,
Fueled tides now with oil, no one can hear
Hear her crying, something is vague, missing.
Sand in my shoes, the wind whipping at the face,
The coral rock is smooth, definitely hollow,
Engrained with billions of stories, light years, space,
You'll venture further, the skis on, the rudders spinning,
But still entrapped in our oil ridden world, the coal,
Gas and oil prices lower, but now the sun is dimming,
Greying clouds, her voice, her heartbeat, like the tide,
The inner beauty, brought to you by solar winds,
Stuck in the whirlpool, the star fish, sands, the sparkling light,
The stars that no longer hide, unlike yesterdays so dim,
Bring an old story back to life, the forest path, the tribes,
Brought here from nowhere, strong to withstand the tides,
Standing there as if it's nothing, the common man runs a-fright,
An endless ocean even so, although the rivers trapped in oily soak,
And in this ocean that no one can even swim in, there is still hope.
Ocean hope endless tribes solar oil fueled heart coral
Jan 2015 · 2.8k
Innocent
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
Let's play a little game, let's call it the marriage game,
I will pretend that I love you for you, not your money,
And you will pretend that you are not one to enslave,
We will continue and play this charade, I'll call you honey.

Let's play another game, I will go to the store and buy you,
YES buy you, you're for sale, I'll come up with a punch line,
Blame you, you made me do it, I'll tell you what to wear, you'll
Be naked in your underwear, who needs to be in the sunshine?

Let's play yet another game! This one, you'll go to work all day,
Never get a day off, while this only makes us stay away the most,
I will go on and on about the weather because it's rainy today,
You will be the one to buy a gun, it feels unsafe unless it's close.
I have a page on youtube with my piano music, to hear my songs that go with my poetry please visit: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL9tz9OI2eSLs9WxEY3gh_QfSn20GopR2U
Jan 2015 · 404
Nikki-Here And Now
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
Underneath the sky trees are graced with perfection,
I forgot just what to say, lost my place in this novel,
Was I writing to keep track of the clouds? Life is short,
But how short can this be? I can't live for one, or grovel.

Like a tiny leaf I blow on the wind, accept for this leaf
Is unguided, raised in a bad life but still people seek
To make sure I'm brought to the water and made to drink.
I've seen you before, who are you though? Why can't I let you go?

The world just seems to spin so slow, but hey, that's my life!
In only about 50 years I should be gone, what can I do?
Live from moment to moment? Be teased and need the knife?
I've got to get by somehow, I've got to reach out and find you.

I still can't figure out why I fell in love, but all I can say is wow,
You're hot, and if I could be anywhere in the world it's right
Next to you, if ever I get to be I want to kiss you here and now,
You're always on my mind Nikki, I just can't make an eternal vow.
Jan 2015 · 193
I Will Change
Alan S Bailey Jan 2015
From day to day, everyone seems to be a bit off,
Some sort of people seem to be the same,
All the time doing whatever is popular enough,
Looking for a political or religious symbol to blame.

Me? I'm trying to make sense of all of this,
Why with one little prayer a man can be pure,
Somehow his imagination sent us to hell, we are fewer,
I tell you it's not right, and you label me an evil-doer.

A superstitious lot, aren't we all? Everywhere I go
I hear all of these people have saved us from hell,
From temptation in this boring, ******* up society,
I don't think they know how to make a change, a copy
Of a copy is still a copy, but me? I'm born to live free,
I can see, but I wouldn't give it up, even if I would be godly,
I would rather grow up to be the same old unique me...
Dec 2014 · 290
A "Blessed" Childhood
Alan S Bailey Dec 2014
You just stood there, arms at your side,
The playground filled with silence, you moved on,
Walking away, your dark hair, balding head,
I called out but you just left me there, left, gone.

You were always so gone, but even then I may confess,
It's psychology, did you intend to leave me there?
I was helpless I felt no one could save me,
I cried and cried and wondered if you ever did care.

My pain burst and the tear drops in my eyes,
But these were no ordinary fears, for some reason I guess,
You'd been there for only more than two years,
I think you put them into me, maybe you weren't the best?
Well the belt, the whip, the hate the pain, you always were
There for guilt trips and blame, was it all just me?

Such a dark person, perhaps you seemed to want us believe,
To trust you that this thing God was a man, that it's all "Pater Pan,"
Although Disney was racist, but that's hard for some to conceive.
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