You get my hopes up just to slash them back down Yet for some reason I still want you around You play games with my heart **** with my mind So why am I unable to leave you behind? I know in my head I am better off alone But my soul is convinced that you are its home So no matter how many times you leave me broken All it takes to gain forgiveness is a few sweet words spoken By now I have learned that your recycled phrases are lies Yet they somehow still retain the power to make feelings rise It's like you are an expert at getting under my skin I try so hard to stay strong but when it comes to you I never win My worst addiction My sweetest crutch I hate the fact that i need you so much That no matter how bad you treat me my love never wavers Each minute of your attention is sixty seconds I savor But its apparent that you don't care about me the same This on-off routine is driving me insane I wish for just once you would open up to me And be honest about everything you are scared to let me see I love you unconditionally although I dont why So you can trust me with vulnerable parts you hide I thought I was your ride or die but now I realize that's not true Because if it were it would still be me right next to you You threw away our relationship without a second thought Now you think it's that easy to waltz back in my life Well it's not You have hurt me too much for me to put myself through it twice You claim to love me but how can you? Your heart is made of ice I would have never done you like you did me wrong But I am grateful you did because it's made me strong The pain I have suffered at your careless hand Has given me room to grow and understand You just miss me when you are lonely It isnt fair You have no intention on actually being there But it's my fault I guess for giving you another chance Fully aware that you are now involved in a completely new romance I dont know if I am stupid or if you were right when you said That I get off on sadness so I amplify it in my head Why else would i make choices that i know will lead to bad? Any rational person would be done with you but i am simply mad So i endure more torment as you manipulate and deceive I cannot any longer put the blame on me being naive I've grown wise to your tricks yet I still participate Because deep down I believe we were brought together by fate We had something special and something truly rare I dont think it's possible for anyone else to compare If you are happier with her than you were with me Than I won't interfere I'll let you two be But if you cant stop thinking about my face Then go with your gut and return to my embrace
When you find your morale up and down like a roller coaster, it's because you lack confidence in yourself. Never lose focus, adhere to concentration, subscribe to pay attention. Only gut could lead the way, be dared to do somewhat that seem most difficult. Be tempted by your greatest goal make it fall for you. #c9_fm
I look back on the way my heart jumped The way he made my love filled blood pump And I fail to understand I do not know how I loved everything so small, even holding his hand How can love just come and go? When he stopped loving me, how did I not know? His eyes must have sparkled at the idea of leaving me My absence was the reason he smiled gladly I never looked for the signs of this I was the definition of ignorance is bliss My heart knew all along But my brain was saying it had to be wrong When they say trust your gut they never say which one
every day They do happen All around us Do you want to see miracles? Open our eyes To the rainbow colors of Light Creating playful rhymes Pros and songs With joyful gratitude Set your heart free to Love As the sun shines as songs of birds filling the air. As pebbles of sand Without number. Miracles are. (now read the lines from the bottom up).
The journey from pain to increased joy and peace has been filled with the little and large miracles of life, It seemed when the need arose it was met in ways, I did not imagine (synchronicities, gut feelings, hunches, dreams, visions, guardian angels, message through an unaware friend, etc). May of the answers were small. Some took time. Yet over the course of my life all that I have asked for has come into my life. I am grateful for the assistance we receive from ancestors, and others on the other side of the veil.