Is this love? I want to prove myself to you. Am I confused? I wouldn't care believe me, it is love. I just wasn't as naive. You did not love me as much. Now I'm confused all over again. Was it love? Did you have to prove yourself to me? I am confused. Tell me what this is. Let's not make it complicated and tell me. Where did I go wrong? Do soulmates exist? Can you unlove a person? Am I not enough? Answer me. Just tell me. I could fix things. Answer me. Just tell me. Was I not worth it, anymore? Maybe if I..
I wish I pretended I dozed off and didn't hear a thing Those three words wasn't meant to be acknowledged I wish I waited Even just for a little while Keeping it all to myself When would you have said it?
I wish I didn't knew you had a crush on me. Would I like you before your supposed confession? I wish I waited Even just for a little while Let those feelings naturally flourish What would you have done about it?
I wish I did not greet you with a joke about your tattered jeans The first time we met, a story about my parents made you laugh. I waited. For a little too while They would have liked you. It started here.
Blossom for a moment in my heart, here, although things are never certain, what will be after you bloom fragrant and beautiful. Maybe something will come off, wither, then disappear. Maybe something will be lost, vanish, and never come back. Blossom where you want to grow and people will like you, not because where people like you then you have to grow.
Indonesia, 28th March 2021 Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho
Gentle breaths, huffs, escape your sweet kiss-swollen lips. At the feel of your heartbeat, my own wildly skips. I am content right here with your head on my chest. I will hold you close, dear, while you’re taking your rest.
You are like a sky. A fire across the clouds. And I can't peel my eyes away. Like a moth drawn to your flame, I'd rather burn down to nothing, then to fade from your memory. I was a part of you, the way each crater adds a little bit of character to the moon. And you erased me from your life. Dressed me in nonexistence. It was easier for you to look away than to wrap me in your love. I guess I flew too close to you, because my dear, you were the sun, and when you pulled me into you, my wings disintegrated, and I crumbled away in your warmth.