He closed my mouth made me look at my crumpled in the mirror. He took her in my arm and ***** the little Lily Her shouts flowed into the walls my blood sold over her innocence He took on her arm silent her shouts made Her sanity got sick. He put lipstick on her lips He found her and abused her I did not know who spoke to him, he got her head up and he told her lies to sleep. At least her nightmares were more fun. He took her arm again and she shouted but no one heard She fell She was still feeling his skin in her teeth She looked into my mirror and she was abused again Her hroat was dried her unprotected life, but he defeated her again The wolves eaten her flesh ,they were lliving inside me. One doll, two dolls ...and she was abused She drank poison to sleep. She was trying to not scream and he liked her voice muffled. Her atrophied mind was again abused. He tightened her body He lived from her , he pulled her hair closed her mouth blurred her lips with lipstick and played with her as a doll And he ***** her again.
My past is too much of an influence on my present, I know it's a problem.
But all I have ever been taught is To be a joke, because thats all I am To be silent, because nobody really cares To never ask for help, because I'd just be judged To never say no, Because I'd get punished.
And all I've ever been told is I'm not beautiful I'm not fitting their standards I'm not not going to be loved
so thank you, step father Thankyou for destroying everything I was.
I scream towards emptiness as it only echoed a numbing silence its no used to abused the strained voice and struggled curses all seems useless so just give in to the given feeling for a time just once in a while
*Screeching in Silences* Deprived old soul, Poisoning my own World.
His hands are Red My eye is black and Blue He touched me I didn't mind Always at the Mercy of you He touched me but I'm fine Just a little higher Everything will vacate your mind I think to myself, I suppose I deserve this life and I begged him to hit me one more time M.D