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I often wonder,
Am I growing far too fast?
I think like a man,
But I, a child, could never be regarded as one,
Even though I seem to constantly be the smartest in the room.
Wait, are we racing to fast through this?
I know the time is ripe,
Though I didn't think I'd lose my childhood tonight.
Yet there is a chance I'm speculating on how to defend,
Something that's already gone,
Because I'm only a child away from you.
Love blooms faster than you could guess
There's a little
boy that hides in
the dark corners of
my soul.
He doesn't want to
be hurt anymore.
I spent eight years
with Beth.
For the most part,
it was hell and
constant pain.
She made nightmares
look good.
I heard the
little boy cry
late into the
silky night,
while snails got
smashed on the streets
of Ventura.

When I drank, which was often,
the little boy seemed
at peace for awhile,
while swans were
murdered in Venice,
and I tasted the ashes
of Neruda.
Years flew by
like seagulls;
up
down
and darting.
The little boy
continued to
hide in the
dark corners of my soul.

He wanted to
come out and be loved.
He was thirsty for it,
but there wasn't
any around.
It was dry, like the
deserts in hell.
It's too late for
sorries here comes
the plow.

He began to see
the pattern of life.
Some monsters walk in the light.
Vulnerability equals pain.
The little boy got mean.
And now he carries
a knife.
Here is a link to my latest poetry reading on you tube.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSKnZMnMlTw

I read from both of my recently published books.
It's Just a Hop, Skip, and Jump to the Madhouse and Seedy Town Blues Collected Poems, both available on Amazon.com

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If the rain did not say it,
Then it is no truth
For sunshine lies,
With it's promise of life in youth.

So I listen to the clouds.
If it isn't true at your lowest, it won't be true at your highest.
If they doubt I'm so young,
But simply agree with the rest,
Does that mean I've finally reached a point,
Where I am so good,
There's only up?
Or will I come crashing down,
Is youth my key to fame,
Will they still read me when I grow old,
And this number fades away?
When my hair thins and grays,
Will my name?
Or will I pave my way to legacy?
My ink has a clock,
I'm afraid of it ticking down.
It's always been a question since day one.
If I didn't write,
I would be doomed.
I'm still fueled by that scared youth,
That child powerless.

But now I have my voice,
I will never be powerless again.
As a young child I was stomped on every step I walked, I was dragged across coals and cast aside like garbage. But I chose this, to become a crusader for love and kinship, to separate myself from the dark. To anyone who feels they are at rock bottom, stay strong. They will learn to love you when you come out in a blaze of power.
Saman Badam Mar 6
The Dusty Road


The noble man, in filthy velvet vest
At trot and trot, a gallop, gallop quick,
With knee-high boots of softened doe, he wrests
His noble steed, through dusty trails and thick
Of wind, a torrent strong that sweeps and kicks.
The sun, a blazing ship on orange seas,
That casts a sheen on roads as seconds tick,
In lacy shirt, the rider rides through eve
As April's sultry heat and hazy breezes tease.

From neither holy angels nor the hells
Beneath the seas, a glass of water cold
For parched tongue and raspy thirst to quell;
It huffs and puffs, the stallion’s whines, and scolds
And halts. "No trot, without some water cold"
It rasps. No sugar cubes, no bag of groats
Will further tempt the horse from rightful toll;
He gets on foot to amble slow on boots,
A dingy town—an inn to rest and clean his coat.

The Road, a purple ribbon dark in dusk,
And off he sets, his weary foot in town,
His eyes a-twinkle, voice a honeyed husk,
Upon the inn, like jewel shooting down
To last of wooden, sticky chairs around,
Like butterfly, a ***** then flutters close,
And O! how beautiful, like seraph's crown,
Her glossy lips like rose in dewy throes,  
Her limpid gaze, a hazel brown, and skin like snow.

With dulcet voice a patient, languid tune,
"Aye, water, brandy, wine or moonshine cold?"
And mesmerizes him into senseless loon,
"My! anything my lady, something bold!"
While tracing thumb against the grain, he drolled,
She twitches behind, her waist a slender eight,
And whispers "Hush those wicked thoughts you hold
For Pa's a surly grump, like scalded cat"
"Dear lady, let me taste thy sighs, as heart elate."

She blushes red, like devil's brimstone spawn
And twists her long and fiery, raven braid,
And bites her lips like apples kissed in dawn,
"Oye Mary! quick o quick, we work a trade!"
She rushes inside, her gaze dismayed,
Like mountain spring, she lies for safety fast,
And brings a moonshine cold, and parchment frayed
"O, I will visit, if thy wish be cast
And trade away my maiden blood tonight at last."

Oh Angela, the careful Angela,
She sits and sews but notices them hide,
Oh, Angela the sweetly Angela,
"Oye Mary! quick o quick, we run a trade!"
To sweetest Mary loud, her gaze dismayed,
"Ah grandma, I do ask of travels bold—"
"Be silent dear, my eyes ain't gone a whit"
"But—" "Listen child or I shall whack your head"
"That boy does know of sweat, Ah, go my silly mads!"

"Ah, go and find a bed for silly boy"
Oh Mary's heart a thud, her eyes so wide,
"And here, some poppy draught in moonshine 'joy"
"Ah grandma....what ....but I.......haven't lied?"
Her grandma arched brows her high, "Not lied?
But I have known of passion, girls, and men"
And took a longer sip from flask and sighed
She took a parchment frayed—"so words him pen
But forget not to claim his heart in trade, amen."

So, Mary huffs and cuffs, and walks around,
Around and round and round in circles small,
"Ah, what to write?" like coil so tightly wound,
With questions big and small, for time she stalls,
"Oh sit! Be still! And I will write it all"
So comes the grumpy, gleaming, bright rescue
Which, Mary read and hotly stood appall,
And Mary spoke "You wicked lady, bless you!
Grandma mince your words a bit! I have a nephew!"

The man then eats a meat-pie piping hot,
He'd rode across and over highwaymen,
Upon the sweltry road at fierce a trot,
And dusty town and dingy tavern when
He met a butterfly beyond a ken.
He strolls beneath a lowly arched way,
Beneath the wooden beams that smell of hen
And drunks and dust and age, in room to lay,
Till tonight's midnight bell, and waited—long await

She comes as sworn like moonshine silent, soft,
And CLICK, the door unfurls like thunder strike,
In moonlit room a spectre pale, aloft,
"Ha, Pa'd a mug of moonshine poppy-spiked!"
She closed the door, she panted all alike,
A smile of mischief, proper goblin kind,
And pining stars with eyes, her balmy side,
Beneath the summer night the lovers twined,
From opal hells and heavens, all else they were blind.

Upon the gusts, and over casement wide,
Sonorous, loud her cries upon so rang,
And radiant her cries so sang like tide
Her skin so soft in sweat that tastes of tang,
Her pounding heart, a drum of fervent song
A thunder storm erupts upon the bed
She's marked beneath her roof by playful fang
"My darling Mary, down this path we head
Oh Mary, sweetest Mary! None shall bring thee dread"

Till dawn, the ostler heard this lovely song,
No hay upon his head would keep it far,
And on and on it went unbroken long,
His sleep was lost, disturbed by all that roar
Of sweetly Mary's scandalous so more,
The grumpy sleepless ostler fed no oats,
The one who made her rise and sigh like shore
And so the horse in hunger, stomped and groaned,
While lovers strong were lost and still so unashamed.

He rose with dawning sun, his body sore,
His chiselled chest in sweat so drenched wet,
He kissed the writhing sheets, she blinked and purred,
"Oh dear, you ride away, how not to fret?"
With ruby flourish, glowing crimson wet
He put upon her beating heart, at breast,
"A forest witch's this artifact beset
A part of mine so I have left thee chest
For I have wars to fight, await my 'turn dearest"

The man when slipping into shoes he thought,
This place was good to settle home and hearth,
To war unknown with fierce their battle hosts,
He had changed so much from night thenceforth,
No longer setting fire to skies and earth,
But once more reach her flaming heart alive,
For longest year and one he battled forth,
Where wounds he took did dim the ruby nigh,
But each of lovely dream that night’s, it brighter shined.

So, Mary waited long, for year and one,
The filthy road, that brought her shining knight
Through sultry noons and wintry moons and suns,
The Road, an orange banner bright in light,
The Road, an onyx ribbon dark in night,
For trot and neigh of stallion and whine,
In autumn morns and vernal dusks like sprite,
Awaiting laugh, for crimson ruby's shine,
Her dearest love's return would be their final twine

The ancient bardess strummed her wooden lute,
"So? Granny please, do continue the tale."
"The tale is done, so run along my newts."
And just then, tavern's kitchen called from veil,
"Oh dearest, please do get some salted kale"
The groaning bardess slowly popped her back
With ruby bright and softened boots of doe,
The cracked and softened boots of doe in deck,
The ancient man in kitchen asked, "Our story back?"
This is written in Spenserian stanza style as my ode to Keats
They tell one lie,
They speak one truth.
'It's easy to heal,
But you'll remember all your scars.'

The latter of the two, a truth.
Though that which precedes,
Lies through it's teeth.
Fangs of darkness and deceit,
Designed to forge a man with a black heart.
If not for the comfort of the summer sea,
I too would've succumbed to the gray of this city.
Morphed from a young and happy form,
To a soulless monster,
'****-Malum.'
****-Malum=Evil Man
Alive
Too young to care
Busy with living loud
Born on the wind, my youth flew by
Quickly.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y-j1YkEdWQs
Here is a link to my YouTube channel where I read poetry from my new book, It's Just a Hop, Skip, and Jump to the Madhouse.

A cinquain is a form of poetry. 5 lines with 2-4-6-8-2 syllables.
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She walked up and asked,
Will you dance with me?

I looked all around just to see
Who it was.
There's no way,
it couldn't possibly be.

Could it? could it really be me?

And just like that,
Suddenly, 
We were dancing.

So close, surely we were floating, 
Because I couldn't feel my feet.

I couldn't hear the music, only the beat.

The pound, pound, pounding of my heart!

Her and me dancing,
Surely we were floating.

I looked down to see,
Instead I saw her,
looking up at me.

We were dancing! 

Yes, we were.

We were dancing.
Junior High School Dance,
Ladies choice, and she chose me!
First time I ever danced, I can feel it like it was yesterday.
Funny how memories work sometimes.
home is a cage
slide out the window
find a different way
run with the wolves
chase the child

it won't always be like this
ceramic heart
cosmic bruise
lovesick in a hotel wildfire

chemistry begins with
orbiting the moon
he calls her a river

swallowing down mistakes
she cares a little less about everything now

blood on the mattress
young blood

breaks in the sun
mean pure dark is yet to come
--nightly things

as long as she gets by
despite the crushing weight of gravity
she will take swan feathers
and wedding days to bed

but never take the blame
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