A tug and pull, both ways
Stretching me thin, confused -
Head pounding, aching to understand
Desperate for a decision to be made for me.
A smile here, a smile there,
Which one of them is earnest?
Which one of them is sincere, which one
Actually cares? What if I can’t tell?
(or I can, deep down, but sometimes,
Denial feels easier.)
At the same time, an understanding, reached -
Why should I stress about these things, these
Facts I cannot change? Why focus on the
Myriad of stars that float out of my reach,
Instead of admiring their beauty?
Nevertheless, I’m grateful
That I have a choice.
One I think will be easy to make, when
It comes down to it.