They can tell their little girl's doing it again
Floating on her raft bed,
Drifting in the open water
Navigating harsh turns

Fingering the water as she's swallowed into darkness
An extension of the yearning
She holds underneath her rib cage
Her parents say they understand

Build her self expression between bars
Hoping in a corner for someone to come explain
Leave her in the moonlight tell her
She can't masturbate

She may wonder why most of her adult life
She can never see the stars that others see
With bitten lip behind their eyes

It's too late
But is it too late
ever
to learn
about the space you take?
It's too late
But is it too late
ever
to kiss
yourself til you get love?

even if it has to be pulled through sheets to your toes
even if you have to scream a summoning call
and wriggle through the tingles crawling
up your bed legs

I used to be lost
People would ask me “What do you want to do later?”
I couldn't answer them.
I hadn't a clue.

As time passed, this decision started becoming imperative.
I still wasn't certain.
But that's when I saw my mistake: I wasn't looking at the present.
I was looking at the future.

I mustn't worry about money, or appearances.
I must do what I want. I must act on my talents.
People will support me in what I do;
I will carve my own path.

Be it my family, always supportive,
Her, my inspiration, my muse,
My friends, these people behind usernames I have never met...
I thank you all for making my art my calling.

You made me confident.

You are saying I am cruel
I bet you even care
Yes I am rude and also somewhat mean
Because I am a thunderous sea trying to calm the hurricane of your betrayal going inside me
You think I don't know
that you're the one spreading the rumors
Thank you for sharing with the world your opinion of me

I was not like this before
You loved me, you stood up for me
Making my already hard life somewhat nice
It's you who forced my mind
To shut the windows of my demons
but then, they finally convinced you.
these people, you call your friends.
stole me from my happiness and rid you of your love for me.
and from that day on I have thanked you, for making me a stronger person, for making me hate you, for making my life; a living hell.

Thank you for allowing me to be a part of you
Thank you for letting me vent
Thank you for letting me explore my creativity
And
Above all
Thank you to everyone posting their struggles
Helping total strangers without realizing it
That’s love
For now I’m signing off

Arms entwined
Reminding people that we are better than their best
We are happier than the rest of the boldly bland humanity who proudly title themselves normal
Who only take a stand when they have a crowd
And grow scared of our abnormality so they tell us that we are awful
But who cares ?
You're careless attitude contrasts with my careful personality
But then you end up reminding me
That we are all judged
So breathe in the scent of happiness
Taste the sound of laughter
Live a little out of your personal bubble
Cause you'll always be there to comfort my struggles
And  the smile you perfectly display stops my worries and converts me to a life with less troubles
You are home
You are loveable