Life strains, drains and feigns
I'm all a muddle bound in chains.
Why can't I just break free from hell?
Climb a mountain, let out a yell?
Held captive, inactive, not reactive,
mind drying up, once proactive.
Help me I'm dying, no longer crying
stops me trying, too many eyes spying.
Dreams now dead, once in my head,
book that's unread, a nightmare instead.
Feeling my way, as blindly I flay
what more can I say? Dead as yesterday.
Tears once flowing, stop me growing
energy slowing, as is the knowing.
My timing was out, without a doubt,
what's life about? Am I in or am I out?
Heart not beating, self defeating,
skinny wimp, shut up, you're repeating.
Ghost without hope, no longer dope
I just couldn't cope, **** pass me a rope.
I'm not suicidal, maybe mental,
I once considered myself experimental.
Feel downtrodden, emotion unsodden,
love barren, bare unforgotten.
Death awaits me, still it grates me,
where is my life going to take me?
Chapter, verse, paragraph,
stop feeling low, you're having a laugh.
Why do I feel so doomed and hollow,
where's my needed, brighter tomorrow?
I hope it comes soon, an uplifting tune
wipe away memories like sands of a dune
Tired of lonely, I need warm and homely
oh sweet God if only, nobody knows me.
Tears held back too long must burst forth. Punishment enough.