Sometimes I walk close to the edge
Wondering what it's like to fall
Then I see a fence, names etched
And I choose to stall

This is the name of a friend
Who taught me how to smile
My worries and trouble to suspend
Just for a little while

The next is a sister
Who knew what it's like
To struggle to become better
But also not give up the fight

Here is another buddy
Who can't see their own success
Yet I can see them budding
I give them faith, they can do the rest

The last name is my whole heart
They're the light I always come back to
Their beauty, a thing of art
The love I feel, too good to be true

This little fence reminds me that my purpose
Is to not rest until those I care about
Are full of purpose and happiness
Till then, I am not meant to burn out

The heart follow not, for the desires that it holds
lest those desires they be good

like the wild beast that seeks escape,
so too it is the heart that must be tamed.

ideas
thoughts
imagining
perception of beauty
fluttering wings abound
nymphs in the sky
reflection
nymphs in the abyss
goddess training grounds
dancing photons
brilliance unfolding
imagination
critical ingredient
without
what would you see
smeared paint
splattered
palette knife magic
flowing and dripping
imperfections

I look into the dark abyss of thoughts
Questions
They multiply in this endless abyss
The end is near
I want it
At the same time I am trembling with fear
I rub my eyes to look clearly
But I do not understand anything
A black, boundless abyss
Getting closer to me
It deepens
It devours me
It penetrates through me
I open my mouth to shout
But I spit out the darkness out of my mouth
Pain mixed with despair
Tears mixed with blood
Nothing stops
And suddenly
Black is pouring out of my eyes
So deep
So beautiful
So calm
I do not understand it
I am still waiting for this end
But this abyss gives me a chance
A chance to escape
So what should I do?

death is an abysmal
that's floating in the abyss
moss on a tree's bed

Phoenix in the night
Let your song burn bright
Through the abyssal night
Lighting the way to freedoms
Height of the just and right