You must suffer in silence here
you don’t have the power of will,
only a shaky voice with tears
and way too much time to ****.

You feel incapacitated,
so you must be in a deep sleep.
Now the usual strange burden
is the only thing you’ll reap.

You try not to look down
you need to back up real slow,
it hurts to breath up here
but there’s nowhere else to go.

This is your worst nightmare now,
all you wish to do is escape.
You want to jump off the cliff,
but something forces you to stay.

You feel so hopeless
like you’ll never feel joy again.
Some light might help you get out,
but there aren’t any lamps around.

You almost slip off the edge,
you know you really have to wake.
You think if you try a little harder
maybe the dreamy lie would break.

But some things aren’t what they seem,
you’ll soon learn the deal.
The dreamy lie is your life,
and it's always been real.

I wish people could understand
That sometimes things don't go as planned
And that I'll always try to hide
The things I feel deep down inside

I wish people could understand
That's sometimes being true is hard
That sticking to the rules is bland
So let this all become freehand

I wish they know
That it's possible to
Like boys and girls
And still be you

To be bi in a world
Where straight is the norm
To be wild and untamed
When people conform

That it's possible to
Be 'smart' and suicidal
That comfort doesn't make one
Want to keep their vitals

That just because I smile
Doesn't mean it's all fine
That I can hate my life
And still act in line

So please understand
Don't judge, don't sigh
I want you to know
That I really try
To be normal and stuff
To not scream and cry
To act like I'm still
A really good child

But before you judge
Keep this in mind
I'll keep killing myself
Until everyone thinks I'm fine

Everyday style up and give thanks
Even though you're not visiting banks
Just have in mind nothing of all is cranks
Crank enough to find taps on top of tanks