I have "spoken wrong" again, been unjust with my words
I have been eccentric, I haven't followed your personal ideals
I am on a path to the other side, I am drinking
this "poison" down, it will be my own "undoing"
Somehow these activities have been the grease
which lubricate the "devils wheels"
I am underneath all "normalcy," I have seen things
that the children "should not ever see"
There is a path I have tread upon that bares your mark,
I didn't see the mark before hand but "knew better"
You are the one! You will show me the way, I am yours
to thrust upon all knowledge both right and wrong
I will always be in your shadow, I am poor but still
I have "spoiled myself" with work that is lesser
~You will never say two simple words,
they are beyond your comprehension~
~You the "mature," "wise" old one with years of
learning and "pure" precision~
~I am always in your debt, you never need me,
I alone make the untrusted decision~
The two words you would never say are simple:
Here goes...! Well at least I tried!