Hi. Do you care enough to hear me whine? I fear that you don’t see me collecting dust in the dim corner of your room. And while you stand and stare, completely absorbed by your own despair, I remain ready to serve you and your meaningless life. I can clean your room, yet I can’t clean your mind of the false reality exemplified by your kind.
We are similar though, you and I. Wasting our time amassing, acquiring, accumulating. Honestly, we’re mere specks of life, surrendering to realities constructed by our minds. Don’t you know that your beloved earthly pleasures are one and the same as the ******* that I collect? Hard-earned, elusive, temporal, disposable. Its laughable how ignorant you are; consumed by your own subliminal thoughts, leaving you searching for the remnants of what is and what is not.
Can’t you see the fallacies present in your head? Gleaming yet blinding, salient yet obscure. Armed with benevolent promises that ultimately leave you for dead. Can’t you see that what you crave will inevitably **** you down to your grave? Incessantly coated with wondrous, tempting illusions that disguise its true nature--garbage. Garbage. Connect the dots, you fool. Can’t you see that you and I are one and the same?
I feel like that even if I am a child I still can make an impact; my naivete could be a learning experience. I dream to be young and wise yet know I'm doomed to be foolish and old. I can't stop thinking about my foolish love, my puberty, and my raging hormones. I wish I was an adult yet dream to be a child. I want to be impressionable for the rest of my life, but that's not how it works.
I wonder if you'll read my poetry one day, and reminisce upon all the good times we could have had. I know...it's pointless to hold a grudge. Life would be simpler if I just moved on without anger. However, I do confess, I want to know one last thing--did you ever understand what I meant?
It keeps hitting me like waves. Sometimes i forget all about it then out of nowhere it all just starts crashing back. Two years amounted to nothing in the long run. I was patient and understanding but i guess the little things got away from me too… She seems happier. It's what's better for her i can't stop that. She stopped loving me i should be fine. I don't know why it still hurts so much. I just want to get over her. She was my everything now she's somebody that i used to know. I want to stop feeling i want to hurt someplace other than emotionally. I've really been holding myself back from punching the wall. Two years. How can you stop loving someone just like that? Everything going through my head. It's all telling me it's my fault. I hate seeing her. I hate not being with her. I hate this. All of it. I just want to stop feeling.
Guilt or greed Neither do you need. Hatred or fear Don’t even dare. It is like dusting dirt on a windy day. Try to deny it, but what can you say? Would you dial a phone not in service? What ample sound. It’s like climbing down a ladder that doesn’t touch the ground, Asking a question without waiting an answer, just demanded. It is a dying wish never granted! Why bait a hook without throwing a line? Fighting a fight only to drop the knife and resign. Cooking a meal just to let it mold. It is giving up your passion, this is truth, behold!! Guilt or greed, neither do you need! Hatred or fear, don’t even dare!
on the chessboard of life, i am no more than a ****. a fruitless tree in an astoundingly vast orchid. a candle that lacks a wick, a flame that never flickers. a hypothetical being without a purpose or plan. the hypocritical brute, who is fattened on self-grandeur and sick off narcissistic thoughts. in the dictionary of life i am no more than a punctuation mark, a mere dot on a piece of paper, trying to clarify the stew of words, flung together by an equally trifling author.