how do you grieve for someone who is still here?

they use to be just a black cloaked figures

Over Time

they grew faces

Finish what you start.
So you can do it again.

I stopped looking over my shoulder.

"What is loves biggest fear?"
He whispered.


"Time."
She spoke back.

i dont miss you...
                      i miss the...
                                   *idea...
                                   *of you...

Amongst the people I held together,
I, somehow fell apart.

my ears have heard beyond their years

my mind is huge and difficult to get in,
                   i know what it's like
                                   so i close black holes
           and show you beautiful constellations
                                                 ­          and brave planets
                                   that linger there

using big words to
make you
sound smart,

isn't smart

holidays like these make me feel empty

I know I am okay with her being your second.


Because I know I will always be your first,
And your *best.

It is always nice to know that you're not alone
but








It is also awful to know that they feel what you feel.

I think of you every where I go.





You


make it stop.

How
did you manage to get all of what you wanted
when all you wanted while you were with me,
was to do nothing.

I stepped out of your shadow to find no sunlight.

Fog up car windows with me.

I know this is how you felt,
I know everyone feels things differently.
But I know now, this is how you felt.

And my God,
Am I ever sorry.

Some days I know why I carry on,
but
Days like today,

I have no idea why.

no one knows how frustrating it is,

being sad for no reason at all.

Ive become
this permifried *****
this unintelligent underachiever
this messy mistake
The drugs in me now are nothing compared to what you did to me