"You said that you would love the kids as long as I was their mother.
But I didn't have the courage to look into your passionate eyes.
I know I can't have the baby that you want,
so I have to go away."
She stopped writing, put down her pen
and burst into tears on the table,
the liquid gushing out like water from a bursting dam.
She was alone so she was free to cry all her feelings out and sobbe loudly to let out her sorrows.
"I thought I would have a cute baby with you as long as I did what doc told me to do,
so I kept taking those disgusting medicines to adjust my body.
Even when you saw me taking those medicines by accident sometimes,
I still smiled at you and told you that I was fine as if nothing happened.
I always looked into your face when you fell into sleep.
I firstly knew how it felt to suffer from insomnia.
For a thousand times, I wanted to reach out to touch your handsome face.
But I didn't, because you might be disturbed in your peaceful sleep and wake up.
There was nothing I could do but look into your face so that I would not forget it through the dim light.
You are going to be the most memorable and precious one in my future lonely life."
With Love comes sacrifice
He had a crooked smile
Hair,like small grains of rice
He wore his heart on his sleeves
The clay model of him
Lay beside me
As I contemplated breaking him more
Like he did me
I like it that he 'feels' how I feel
Maybe this is the first step
To healing my broken feelings
the first hello
and the last goodbye,
& all the memories in between.
I am grateful for all the moments we've spent together
Its easy to follow the path of virtue
But easy to succumb to vices
The fear of making a choice
An answer of Yes or No
Mostly dodged to Maybe
On the absence of assurance.
Can we be black and blue on the truth
Or keep being in denial.
Swaying with every breeze
Dancing to each attune
Till drenched hollow.
Carrying a sombre aura
With a heavy heart almost
Falling due to its weight that
Out matches our original Kg.
Its okay to have a stand.
Live life expressing not impressing
Darkness comes and goes
At the end of the day no dance no tears
Saying my stand
I said i fear most the breeze before the rain,
You said its the same for you too.
We both laughed while looking
At the sky
Talked and talked till both were crying
Seems that we both have been loved by someone before
Those dreams perfect to the point of not needing
To be remedied
The similar kinds of tenderness
Were both different kinds of sadness
Two souls that had been friends for years
Two reasons that our loves
Came and went
After changing of events
Both reminisced on the road side
That dream in which we were slapped in the face
Was like the sound of rumbling thunder
We've all been forgotten for eons
Time's a roadside thief that
Sleeve under the umbrella,
That face that's awaiting an answer.
How many words should be used to describe'love'?
You spoke so calmly and easily
I watched dark clouds fly away
Because i understand all the things you say
Love often has a beginning
But no ending.
The man behind my memory.
She lived in fantasy of
How and what's like,
Her whole life,
Where her pure heart was handed to you.
She was only 15 but timid.
Kept you at arms length
But after a while earned her trust.
She had a dark past down her memory lane
As she encountered
To being damaged and scarred for life.
Before you came she found her way
Around her misfortunes to almost accepting
The course her life once took being history.
Her reservations very well informed
You knew she was a rigid and fragile soul.
Down the romantic walk ways
She gave you every insight of her.
Like a woman took up the role of
Grown up and gave you her all with undivided attention.
Mercilessly biting down her trust,
Swiping off her balance to a state of confusion
She still had hope.
Regardless of the tough road
Her faith adamant in destiny like
A staunch Muslim with no demeanor.
She'll meet again hoping
You wouldn't have forgotten her
To imprint the original heartbreak.
The journey of healing
Overprotective you are
Am only confused if its
Her you are protecting
Coz we know the cycle of rebound
Its she, walks head over heels,
Thinking she in heaven
Unaware of the loop holes at
The end of the road.
Only after she falls harder
Then the understanding
She is just but a cup cake,
Once you heal
You move leaving her
But i can't blame you.
She allowed her self to land
Ode To You.
Every morning I see your face,
And for that fleeting second I'm in a different place,
A place where we smiled, laughed, and talked,
A place where we could hold hands wherever we walked,
I'm reminded of this each and every day.
Then the sleep clears and it's all blown away.
Realization sets in and I'm all alone.
I quickly have to check my phone
In case you've called or sent me a text.
Then it hits harder as what come next
Is the empty screen with your smiling face
And the emptiness of this forsaken place.
I wither up inside as all my hopes disappear
And the burn in my heart really starts to sear.
I sink back in my bed and think of you
And wonder if there's anything I can do.
I'm knocked back every time I try to get through,
And now the decision is up to you.
Leave me out here in the cold and the rain,
Leave me to choke on the tears and the pain,
Missing you every minute of every day,
Loving you more and more in my way.
One day, my love, this will all be like a dream.
I just hope we can dream it together in our place so serene.