Last night I received,
a gift addressed to me.
It was a blessing in disguise,
it forced me to open my eyes.
I was quite sure,
i would be sad forver more,
until I opened this letter,
and all of a sudden,
something inside me felt better.
Last night was the start to my new beginning,
a night where I realised no one was winning.
The unexpected gift was a letter.
A letter hitting me with exactly what I needed: a reminder of reality.
It was the first time I had seen how far I'd sunk for what it really was,
the first time I'd seen the **** truth,
and understood why that was because.
I cleared my room, my opinion, my behaviour and my mind,
and realised the the person I want to become,
was just a step outside of my comfort zone,
and that person was who i would find,
thanks to a letter from the sky.
I have taken better care of my mental state:
caught up on sleep,
caught up on my learning.
completed all of my skincare,
Treated myself to what I've long been deserving.
I now know the difference that taking care of yourself and your surroundings can make,
and what the atmosphere is like in wherever you take place.
I feel free.
I have let loose of my heartache.
I feel more glee.
I am too happy to write about my heartbreak.
I had been so delusional,
so naive, and lost myself somewhere in the chaos.
It took nature to have to reach out to me,
to show me how to love myself,
even while everything around me,
burns up in flames.
Do more for yourself,
love and respect who you are,
and if there is a point where you do not,
find out what's wrong, and fix it by being mindful,
not by having your mind full.
Remember to help not only yourself, but others, #mentalhealthweek. Also this is my experience, I have turned a new leaf, and like I said I wanted to write, so I wrote about my change of heart.