I'm trying to find a girl. She hides behind tears that no one sees her cry. I think she's trapped under a mountain of insecurities and lies people have told her. If you find her, can you tell her she's loved. Wanted. Can you help her understand she's not a burden if she wants to talk to someone?
Last first days, time ticking My time at high school falling I should savor the moment Live in the present Before it all turns to dust
But how can I feel okay When you're weren't here to stay? You said I'll be fine and that I should be happy
I feel so disconnected I'm going through the motions And I don't know where I'm going
All my relationships feel meaningless Can't compare them to what we had Everything is changing so fast
Fighting, waves of the past, drowning Screaming, but no one is listening The world without you is so, overwhelming
I wish I weren't this complicated I wish I could just live in the present But my mind keeps going back to you Without you nothing makes sense....
Guess I'll just keep feeling disconnected And going through the motions And not know where I'm going
Feeling like all my relationships are meaningless Can't compare them to what we have And face the fact That you, and everything is changing too fast
Haha me having attachment issues and going through senior year without my best friend who left me for college. It's the second day and I already wanna die:)
But yeah...you ever just, put all your eggs into one basket and have a very meaningful close relationship with one person and then when they leave you feel disconnected from everyone else because all your other relationships feel shallow and meaningless? That's me right now it's so fun.
my hair is falling out more-- i don't quite understand why. could it be the food I've been eating-- or lack thereof. am i pulling too ******* my ponytails-- or yanking too tightly while twisting my braids. can it be the stress of my final days of school-- or all the assignments still marked in red. possibly the ache in my heart for him-- or the rage simmering in my chest. maybe it's simply symptoms of ***-- or just my mind pressing buttons at random. would it be because of my anxiety flowing over-- or the jitters from my morning cup of coffee. funny if I've been tearing at my scalp in my sleep-- or clawing the demons from my dreams.
I wish I could tell Black and white . I wish I'll always Know the truth . I wish this happiness Stay with us forever . So overwhelmed It makes me wanna cry . I wish I love God better Wished I'm His favorite . But I know You know We'll never know .
Sweet like caramel vanilla, the innocence in those hypnotic eyes Overwhelmed, smitten, I can't look away, even after a thousand tries Blushing like red roses, that color of those cheeks so lovely Like a dry leaf, I'll go wherever the wind of love takes me.
I am ready to write pensive, tired prose I am ready to wilt like a petal, dying rose My laptop is dying as I watch the horizon My body is lying as my breath is sighing A million moments all wrapped up for me The wine in my glass has drunk me to sleep