I was so naive to think you'd changed
To think you wanted to change
You still condescend me
You still reprimand me
You still remind me
Of every single thing
I hate about myself
You still make me feel
I feel so lonely
Even when I'm not alone
It hurts to have a house
But feel like I don't have a home
I tried to tell you
You saw the mistake
You told me you were sorry
but your apologies were emptier than the world you made for me.
Why did I convince myself that you love me the same way I love you?
Back at square one, I kneel on the floor and curl up into a ball of tears.
Why did you tell me you love me, you want to be with me, you want me?
Why did you reject me, why did you hurt me and encourage my fears?
How are you going to tell me you don’t know if I’ll still be into you in a month when I waited nine months for your phone call?
How is it I allowed you to come back into my life and replace all my progress with illogical fantasies that will never, ever occur?
How is it I still blame myself for your confusion, that I will still give you all of my love? ALL of it.
For all the tears I've shed because of you,
For all the nights my thoughts were spiraling because of you,
For all the months I've wasted on you,
For everything, after everything, for you.
Being far from home alters reality
You seem to dissolve away
We experience two nights and mornings
It’s hard to keep track of the days
I printed out a photo of you before I left
I don’t take it out often, I swear
It’s just so I’ll have something to hold onto
And I like to know it’s there
All the words that I wanted to say,
a re gone
I need to take a deep breath and calm down.
But I can't.
The look in your eyes are drowning me.
I can only think of one thing.
And that is pressing my lips against yours.
I'm such a **** hiihi
Me: hahaah you should dye your eyebrows blue.[jokingly]
My gf: sure[serious]
Two days later..
gets picture of blue eyebrows
Peaks and valleys found
On every fragile mountain
Past and present young
Tuesday 12 - Chest (a Haiku) - No Comment
Now I'm under
Lol so like I majorly ****** up everything I cared about and now my mom is refusing to let me enroll in college because her husband is an ******* but little does she know that I can ruin her marriage because of how **** a person he is and the only reason I haven't is because I don't want to put her through another divorce but **** I'm considering flipping the lid and telling her what he did to me
Let me get this STRAIGHT.
Hold on, I'm gonna run this BI you.
I wanna see how this PANs out, ok?
LES just see how this goes.
I need you to TRANSfer those papers.
Come on, I bet you ACEd the test!
It's late and I'm delusional and my sleep deprived brain thinks I'm funny. Shhhh, don't tell me I'm wrong.
THIS IS WHAT CAFFEINE DOES!!!
I'm a proud panromantic potato btw.
In your boots
Looking so **** cute!