I can hear their threatening words ringing in my ears The sensation of their hands on me Is even stronger than the agonising, throbbing pain in my head Traumatic or psychosomatic I do not know The vivid picture of where I'm certain I am Is imprinted on the insides of my eyelids Waiting to capture me when I blink away the tears The tears that don't slide silently and gracefully down my cheeks But shake my whole body in overwhelming sobs The screams escape me so loudly and frequently Others must think I am a victim of demon possession But I am not I am a victim of this horrifying event And being forced to experience it Again and again and again As a civil war breaks out in my mind Inflicting even more pain On my battered and bruised heart and body And just when I think I can't survive one more second It stops Luring me into a false sense of security That it's all over Which it is But only until next time
Sleep is my pain I close my eyes And the nightmares Start of the memories i didn't choose to go through The memories of being hurt Being tortured By the man I called daddy So sleep is pain That's when it all comes back To bite me in the neck
Has it ever happened with you ? You blink your eyes for less than a second....and a image flashes that your heart never forgets...and brain tries to hate.. #Just a blink with a reason for your heartbeat...
It's not the GOODBYES THAT HURT ..but the FLASHBACKS THAT FOLLOW..❤