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Leah Carr May 23
feeling myself slipping away from reality
back into the memory
Leah Carr Dec 2020
I can hear their threatening words ringing in my ears
The sensation of their hands on me
Is even stronger than the agonising, throbbing pain in my head
Traumatic or psychosomatic I do not know
The vivid picture of where I'm certain I am
Is imprinted on the insides of my eyelids
Waiting to capture me when I blink away the tears
The tears that don't slide silently and gracefully down my cheeks
But shake my whole body in overwhelming sobs
The screams escape me so loudly and frequently
Others must think I am a victim of demon possession
But I am not
I am a victim of this horrifying event
And being forced to experience it
Again and again and again
As a civil war breaks out in my mind
Inflicting even more pain
On my battered and bruised heart and body
And just when I think I can't survive one more second
It stops
Luring me into a false sense of security
That it's all over
Which it is
But only until next time
Laiba Aug 2020
Sleep is my pain
I close my eyes
And the nightmares
Start of the memories i didn't choose to go through
The memories of being hurt
Being tortured
By the man I called daddy
So sleep is pain
That's when it all comes back
To bite me in the neck
Nightmares have destroyed me
Mark Toney Aug 2020

Trying to relax
on my high-rise roof
I notice you across the street on
your balcony seemingly aloof
listening to vintage Carly Simon
          "... you say we can keep our love alive"

You stare my way and enthusiastically waive
          "Babe all I know is what I see"

I hesitate, smile and then return the gesture
          "The couples cling and claw"

As if on cue you stand and press against the railing
         "and drown in love's debris"

Still smiling as my heart beats faster
          "... we'll soar like two birds through the clouds"

"What's your name?" you playfully cry out
          "But soon you'll cage me on your shelf"

"Who wants to know?" is my surprising reply
          "I'll never learn to be just me first by myself"

Suddenly flashbacks hijack my thinking
          "... it's time we moved in together
          and raised a family of our own, you and me"
 
 
Why is this happening?  Why am I sinking?
          "... that's the way I've always heard it should be
          you want to marry me, we’ll marry"


I hear your beseeching, unintelligible shouts as I retreat
Painful memories open like an oubliette under my feet—
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           l
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                  n
                      g
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Lost and languishing in isolation's labyrinth





© 2020 by Mark Toney. All rights reserved.
8/8/2020 - Poetry form: Narrative - Italicized lyrics from the song “That’s the Way I’ve Always heard It Should Be” (1971) written by Carly Simon and Jacob Brackman - © 2020 by Mark Toney. All rights reserved.
Nilia Loh Jul 2020
it's about 10pm.
I kept checking the messages,
hoping you'll maybe reply me.

the music wasn’t loud enough,
my drawings aren’t detailed enough,
people aren’t texting me enough,
I’m not busy enough.

i need to drown myself in things to do,
so you will fade from my mind.
I need to forget you,
like how you’ve  forgotten me.
Word farer Jun 2020
Has it ever happened with you ?
You blink your  eyes for less than a second....and a image flashes that your  heart never forgets...and brain tries to hate..
#Just a blink with a reason for your heartbeat...
It's not the GOODBYES THAT HURT ..but the FLASHBACKS THAT FOLLOW..❤
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