Rethink your thoughts
It might help you to release the right words into the world
Recycle your emotions
You can’t put all your thoughts and emotions into one person
Reduce your problems
You can’t live with a world full of problems
Release your tears
You can’t keep all your feelings bottled up
My desires are
to **** my feelings
to freeze my emotions and
to numb my pain
Lying hides my desires
I’m not ready to let go
How could I
My life is attached to it
I can’t let go easily
I hate thinking about the fact of having to let someone go
It feels like leaving
It feels like betrayal
All strings are attached
I don’t know how to loosen them
I don’t want to loose anyone
My personality can’t let go
I just can’t
It’s hard when it happens, once it happened and it’s going to hurt in the future.
Trapped in a time loop
I‘m robbed of my lifetime
I can’t do anything
I don’t want this to happen
I can’t get help
I made my decision
I have to live with it now
Was it the right thing?
Was it the wrong decision?
Am I going to be happy again?
I don’t want to feel like this
I want to travel back in time and get out of this dark place!
Decisions lead to new people, new adventures, old friends
You don’t have to change your life completely
Nobody expects you to do this
Nobody should expect this from you
Summer weather are emotions
Emotions that are hard to express
You’re holding back emotions
(The weather is getting hotter)
They are building themselves up in you
(Clouds are getting bigger)
You let go of everything holding you back
The rain is pouring down your face
And the summer thunder and rain is coming down from the sky
It’s a new perspective
It’s a way of life
Who is that shadow holding me back?
Who is that shadow grabbing my wrist?
Who is that ghost navigating my steps?
Who is that ghost controlling my voice?
Who is that storm throwing me back in time?
Who is that storm managing my emotions?
Who is that thunder regulating my decisions?
Who is that thunder making my heart beat?
Some people don’t want to accept love
They deny it and won’t even thank you for it
Love is a part of respect
Respect for people around you
Respect for people who where there for you
Respect for people who are there for you
Respect for people who never stopped respecting you
Respect everyone how you want to be treated
Everybody has an impact on feelings of others
Make a good impact
Blue eyes change due to the feeling a person has
Darker blue eyes are showing their spark when I’m getting tired
The sparks in my eyes can’t take very good glances anymore
They shine bringst and light when the weather is getting better and when I’m happy
They shine just like the clouds with wind coming for them
When the emotions are overwhelming my eyes look like an ocean
All the same but different
Different colours who can’t find the right place just like waves trying to catch each other in the ocean
My eyes are like a colourboard of feelings
You can read way much from the eyes than from the smile
Life is weird
It could be that you’re surrounded by clouds
Clouds around your head
Just filled with air and invisible
Clouds of air to breathe
Clouds are keeping us alive
Clouds bring rain
Which water we drink
Clouds are maybe giving us air to breathe
Clouds could be the thing that keeps us alive
Everytime i try to paint you next to me
Why isn’t this working?
You’re supposed to be next to me
I don’t know where you’re currently at
Come and find me
The road can be stony
We can do this TOGETHER
Let me try again
I’ll paint you next to me
I’ll paint you in my life
My paint is getting less
I don’t know where to get new paint
The paint must find me
Just like you do
Support is one of the most important things in a friendship
Everybody makes decisions and the people who are closest have a huge impact on these decisions
Friends and family who support you are the best
Yesterday I got surprised from my friends
A party to support me with my decision
Everybody can choose their friends
I know that I can always count on my friends
Choose who you want to be your support
This could also be written in my diary
Actually this kind of is my diary
Age is just the earth going around the sun
What if the earth would just stop going around the sun?
Would we stop aging?
Would we know how old we are?
Your age is getting controlled by the earth
Age is scary
Growing up is scary
Disconnecting from people is scary
But this is life
Life is scary
The earth going around the sun is one thing controlling us
Missing is a part of life
Do I want to grow up?
I don’t know
Because of this actually no
Am I scared?
Yes, I am so scared of what is coming for me in life
Everybody lies at some point in their life
To protect others
To protect themselves
Lies are supposed to make situations in life easier
But most of the times the lies come to light.
Your protection will become your biggest enemy
Starting a lie starts a Desaster of more upcoming lies
Lies can be dangerous
But still lies are protection
Lies don’t have to be bad all the time
Keeping a secret from someone might be a lie
But a good one
Use lies wisely and don’t get yourself in trouble
Lies can be used as protection
But also protect yourself and others from disappointment because of lies
Connecting with people is easy
You just get to know them
Disconnecting with people is hard
You don’t want to hurt anybody’s feelings but the person is not good in your current life situation
Change is not bad
It just makes everything different
How do you tell a friend you need distance?
Nobody wants to hurt feelings
But also nobody knows how they would go on with their life when people you want to have a break with can’t leave
Nobody wants to be rude
But change isn’t always bad
Goodbyes are a part of life
Leaving is a part of life
Let people change
You might disconnect but never with the most important people of your life
You can fight for everything you want to achieve
Life is complicated
Don’t get distracted by the wrong people
Disconnection is just a goodbye
There will be no freedom until we’re equal
The world is one
Everybody is different
that connects us
The world is one big family
Treat everybody how you want to be treated
Don’t judge until you know someone
Everybody has feelings that can get hurt
Everybody has their own lifestory
Accepting is a part of life
Until they matter to you
Everybody should have the same rights
The world is ONE
Freedom belongs to everybody
Everybody decides for themselves how they want to live their life
Everybody makes mistakes
But the world is united and should be treated like that
Everybody is on this earth for a reason
Don’t criticize, judge and make mistakes just because somebody behaves different, looks different or talks different
This is what makes our planet so special
At my lowest
I can pretend like I’m fine
I can pretend like I’m happy
I can pretend...
But at night lying in my bed listening to the raindrops running down my window or watching the stars I know how I feel
I am the only one who can see deep inside of me
When I’m at my lowest I can pretend
I don’t need any pity
I need to help myself get up
Don’t try to hard to help others
They decide for themselves when they want to get up and shine bright like a star
Did I loose myself?
I‘m surrounded by great souls of stars
I distance myself from toxic things I don’t want my planet of life to explode
because of anybody I trusted at one point
I‘m spinning around trying not to loose myself
I don’t want to loose the control of other people having the chance to hurt me
I surround myself with stars that shine bright like happiness
The center of the body
The center of feelings
The center of hope
The center that controls you
The thing that keeps you alive
The thing that beats in your body
The heart is the difference between people
Every heart beats different and for different people
People can share what is in their heart
But they can’t share their heart without the risk of losing their life
You always wish for what you don’t have or can’t have
Why don’t you wish for what is already there to stay
Appreciate everything and everybody that brings joy to you
Wishes don’t always come true how you expect them
But you can make them the way you want them to fulfill
What do you see in the mirror?
Do you see yourself?
Do you see your soul?
Do you see your emotions?
Do you see how people treat you?
And who do you see standing behind you?
Who is there for you and can’t stop watching you in the mirror?
Who do you want to see as yourself in the mirror?
Are you how you want to be?
And all this in a mysterious mirror who reflects your own appearance.
Sometimes it’s easier to describe your feelings in a different language.
I can describe my feelings way better in English than in German.
It just feels right.
Some people describe their feelings in pictures or mimic.
How do you describe your feelings?
What is your language of emotions?
It comes from the inside and the outside
The people around you control how happy you are
Sometimes you’re just not happy with the people around you and need a change
But you will come to the point where you find the right people that make you happy
The people you cry about because you are so happy to have them in your life right now are the ones who care the most for you
You need to accept the happiness from the outside to become happy in the inside
Everyone feels different
But deep down we are all similar
-Under the sea
-Full with hate
-everyone just feels-
The world is one
Problems don’t get noticed
Until they escalate
Racism doesn’t get shown in the news because it’s bad for the ,,right” people
People who cause trouble often think their selves are more important
They may have more power
But that doesn’t give anybody the right to be racist
The world is one
We should fight together
Skin colour doesn’t matter
People should see more than just the person in the mirror which is the right one for them
The world isn’t equal
But the people should be treated equal
equALLity for the world
Alone in a world
where nobody understands you.
Nobody gets you.
You just feel alone.
Drowning alone in an ocean of emotions.
Swim to the surface of the ocean.
You can do it.
Get some help.
Be alone with other people.
Be together with other people.
My heart is made of stars
They seem so small watched from the earth
But they are big
Living in the universe
Knowing where their place is
and when it’s time to come down to earth
Our heart is full of joy
Full of sparkle
Full of lightness
My heart is made of stars
What about yours?
I am running around on circles
Can’t get my thoughts organized
Is this the circle of life?
I seem to be overthinking
Overthinking and overthinking
I just can’t stop
What am I doing?
What should I do?
Telling me to stop overthinking does not help
I have no control
Overthinking controls me in circles
The demons haunt me in my sleep
They follow me
You’re the demon I meant to forget
You keep coming back
I keep fighting the demons
The demons in my head
The demons under my bed
The demons in my soul
But you’re the worst demon
The one that tells me what to do
You control me
You’re the demon in my heart
You are someone’s angel
You make people happy
You bring joy in someone’s life
You protect with your wings.
You protect with your words.
It is your mission.
Be someone’s angel.
Take a look at the world
What do you see?
Are you missing someone?
Can you see the mistakes you made?
Did everything turn out good?
Do you want it to be like this?
Open your eyes
Open your soul
Open your heart
You are full of life
Control what you want to see
A part of peace
A place where you feel save
All around you
For letting go
For being alone
For tears flowing
For the world
You don’t have to keep being silent
Change your personality
Change into a different person
You are not good enough
You are supposed to behave different
You are supposed to be different
You can’t look like that
You can’t wear that
You are showing too much skin
You are covering too much
Society is not easy
There is not a wide span between showing too much skin and covering too much up
You have to learn much
But don’t be a nerd
You have to have fun
But don’t be a looser
I don’t know if I can still be friends with you
You stayed the same
I don’t know if I’m too mature for you
Society has high standards
Society has impossible standards
Make your own standards
You don’t have to change yourself
Change the society
You can’t control them
Some people are able to show their emotions
Some people prefer to not share them
Emotions are private
Everybody decides who they want to share their emotions with
Emotions are a way to express feelings
Emotions can be rough or sensitive
They sometimes drown you
You decide whether to swim back to the surface or go under
Can you control them?
What do you see?
Do you see yourself?
Do you see your future?
Who do you see?
What do you see?
Who do you want to see?
What are your wishes?
Can you reach your goals?
Who was there for you when you needed them?
Are you proud of yourself?
Are you living with consequences?
Are you happy?
Make yourself happy.
The persons you love should be a part of your life.
Find the persons you love.
Live your life.
Don’t turn around.
Don’t think about what could’ve happened.
It was caused by you.
Close your eyes.
Think about what you want.
Open them and make your dreams come true.
Change is a good thing - they say
But who am I?
Do I want to change who I am?
I am who I am
But I will change sometimes
Love or hate who I become.
I want to become my best self.
Not everybody needs to be proud of me.
I need to be proud of me.
I am who I am.
And I will change into who I want to be.
I won’t change for other people.
I can become my own role model
Im never changing who I am
I might change how I am
A part of life where you’d like gravity to stop
And just fly away
Decisions are a part of growing up
Sometimes it’s hard to decide
Sometimes it’s easy to decide
Sometimes it’s hard to accept decisions
Or make decisions
Decisions affect your life
Decisions can hurt or make you happy
Or both at the same time
Everybody makes decisions to make their life better or get another chance
After making a decision
You feel freed
But there also is this other feeling that hurts
Make your life better with the decisions you make
What is the world?
Does it describe our world?
The world of every single one?
You might be my world or I might be yours.
Everybody has their own perspective.
Everyone’s is the right one.
It might be different of what you’ve imagined but it is your world.
You can change your world
and you can have an impact on the whole world.
You can make the world a better place.
You have the impact
Make it your world
It brings me down to earth every day.
I am just flying around in my daydreams.
And then it just comes.
The gravity that brings me back to earth.
Gravity one word that describes how people are living on one planet.
We can’t just repel ourselves from the earth and take off.
It’s just not possible.
Gravity stops us from flying away.
Gravity keeps us on the ground of facts.
Gravity is just there and determines all of us.
Gravity is letting us see the beauty of nature.
We feel satisfied by the birds flying and the clouds flowing at the sky.
It lets us see the stars at night.
Such a little word for such a big meaning
Do you know me?
Do you actually know me?
Or are you just assuming how I am by my looks?
I don’t know what you think or how you see me
But you don’t seem to know me
I am me
And I never showed you who I am
You just assumed it
Like I’m a rumor
Everything somebody says about me is true.
That’s a lie.
I don’t know what people tell about me and I actually don’t think I’m anybody’s topic.
I am just me
And if you would ask me
I would show you who I am and how I am
Because I am me
I am just me
And I don’t allow everybody to see me
To see the real me
Because I am the real me
See me how I am or see me how you want to see me
Ask if you want to know something about me
Just ask it
Because I am just me and actually not here to judge people by their looks
I am here to find out who some people really are
Because everybody is just a me
And somebody may not know me
Do you know me?
Is it where I am?
Is it where I would like to be?
Is it where my thoughts are?
Is it where my heart is?
I don’t know how I can get there
How far do I have to go to get there?
How fast do I have to run to get there?
Can I get there in time?
Is it timeless, or is the time running away?
Do I have to hurry?
Is my life long enough to live in the here and now?
With who will I get there and who will I meet there?
I scream for your attention
But you don’t hear me
I scream out all of my anger
But the wrong people listen to it
I just scream
Does anyone feel the same way?
Does anybody just want to scream.
Does anyone want to scream with me.
Scream about something
Scream about everything
Scream about the environment
Scream about politics
Scream about generations
Scream about social standards
Scream about what is going on in my head
The roller coaster in my head is screaming
My ideas are flowing
And I stop screaming
I begin to overthink
Are you screaming with me or against me?
Friday, the 13th.
Something bad is going to happen.
13 is an unlucky number.
But is it?
Can a number be unlucky?
Can something that is getting used in the world be unlucky?
13 is just a number.
A number that can mark a day, be something special for some persons.
But for me it is a lucky number.
No one can define what makes something lucky or unlucky.
Everybody decided for themselves what is supposed to be good for them.
Luck can not be predicted.
It just happens.
Luck is unlucky.
They come and go.
They just exist.
They want to be heard.
They want to be written down.
My thoughts are coming like a wave
They either go lost in the sea
Or they want to be shown, be heard, be seen like a cloud in the sky.
High up and far away from the drama.
But all of these thoughts I have are just so confusing.
Are my thoughts enough?
Does anybody care about my thoughts and the way I think?
These are just my thoughts...
What are colours?
Colours define everything.
But who defines everything to the ones who can’t see?
Not only the ones that are blind.
But the ones who just don’t want to see it.
To see what is right in front of them.
To see the world around them.
To see everything that exists.
And what does not exist.
So what exists?
What is real and what isn’t?
Nobody really knows anything, but everybody knows something.
Wind flows in the air like water in the sea.
But Wind also brings the trash and plastic into the ocean.
You can’t stop everything.
Nature is unstoppable and invariable.
Nature does what it does.
The wind whistles together the invariable events of the world.
Politics - what is this?
Everybody wants to convince us that their opinion is the right one.
There is nothing like one right way.
Many ways lead to the goal.
People try to explain the world to us.
But what if we want to experience all of that by ourselves.
All ways may be right for us and our future.
Our life - our future - it belongs to us and nobody else.
There are just these little things - you never noticed.
But now that they are gone - you miss those things and moments - even the ones you didn’t like.
The things you would freak out sometimes - but now they are gone.
Gone like one little breath.
Gone and maybe never coming back.
Enjoy everything while it’s still there.
You will never know when it will disappear.
People come and people go with all they have and can offer.
Don’t take anything for granted.
Would it help me?
Would it change me?
Would I overthink my life and my decisions?
Would my life be the same?
Would I still live in the now or would I just think of tomorrow?
I don’t know what I would do!
But I know what I am doing today!
Living in the now!
A start for a day.
A new beginning.
A new chance to live your life the way you want to.
Your life - your decisions.
Make the best of each day of your life.
Make mistakes - be happy.
Make yourself happy.
And the next morning wake up and think of all the thinks that made you happy yesterday and find the things that will make you happy today.
You have the ability to change you and yourself everyday, every morning.