Atlantic thoughts of fish, schools on schools what could be better than this, living with no rules dog days, your cute face, fresh fade, cityscapes romantic thoughts again, texts on texts what could be better than this, living the loveliest warm nights, green lights, divine touch, just rough enough just how I like
I wish to not feel the aftershocks of the war occurring inside, To not make one move that crushes my whole day under the weight that tears my joints apart.
Doctors smile and tell me nothing is wrong Doctors smile and state that my pain tolerance is just too low Doctors smile and run the same **** tests that produce the same **** results They smile while I rip my hair from my scalp.
The days bleed into one as the clouds covering my brain chain me to the bed and make raindrops fall from my eyes, Friends start to believe that I just don't care when I leave their messages covered in dust, dying in a graveyard called my will to live.
I want to be there for them, my soul needs to be present with them, but when you have to box a heavy weight champion inside your own veins just to be able to take a single step, you got nothing left to give to anyone else.
I'm stumbling through this performance titled life not even knowing the identity to the puppet master pulling the strings, fighting an invisible battle against a nameless warrior and somehow meant to smile and bear it.
Undiagnosed chronic pain is like living in a hell that no one can see.