Sometimes I over drink.
Oops I mean overthink.
Ah **** it, it's the same **** thing.

I over pour my glass leaving no room for coke.
The voice repeating in my head of the last words you spoke.
You ask why I'm self destructive but the truth is I dont know.

I'm starting to think that the devil is a lie.
The only evil we see is what we bury inside.
I'm going to lose to myself, it's only a matter of time.

I'm starting to get lazy and just copy and paste,
All the words that went nowhere so they don't go to waste.
Maybe i'm just over this **** and need a change of pace.

I have a lot to say but a lot remains unspoken.
My creativity is asleep and dares not be woken.
I write what I feel but my pencil needs sharpened.

This used to keep my demons from making a revival.
Now when I write it's like I dont even try at all.
I dont know how to escape this so I live in denial.

What's left to say that I haven't already said?
The devil lives inside of me it's inside my head.
I'm thinking it's time to introduce my brain to some ******* lead.

Staring into the darkness,
Mind is filled with unspoken words,
The coldness of my heart has gone to frozen,
I am not whom you thought you knew.

getting lost
in thought
is a liberation
until
you get trapped
in a
wicked imagination

- katrina ******

Swinging in circles
Ive killed the vibe in my own chronicles
Sometimes crying helps me to heal
i know i’m weaker now
Kneeling down
on one knee
so you can be you, but I cant be me
i’m giving you the crown

Sometimes I feel like I'm so complicated
I can't even figure myself out
and other times
I feel so basic it is obvious.

regret

    chains me down from having relief


confusion

    steals the words that need to be spoken


worry

    fills the gaps in my decision making


anxiety

    hugs me like a security blanket


happiness

    is all i want for you

Half truth
Half lie
Empty glass
Full mind

A superpower
Of being invisible

feeling sad
then feeling bored
My thoughts i cannot ignore