It's hard to know how I feel,
when I'm constantly falling into the same patterns
And after one too many mistakes,
I can't trust myself to be certain anymore
So I take my time,
trying to understand myself,
and my thoughts,
and my feelings
Ten months of thinking and debating,
obsessing. Secret keeping.
questioning myself and constantly searching,
for an answer no one else can help me find
Now my secret's out,
and I still don't know
is this feeling real,
or just another piece in my pattern?