And suddenly I lost one of the most important people in my life,
At the time.
Once best friends.
But you made us that way,
I was trying to be civil and mature,
You took the opposite approach.
You were mean, cruel, hurtful, disrespectful, petty,
you are just trying to hide how alone you truly are.
So you hide behind cruel words about me posted so everyone can see.
I did the same for only 20 minutes though
I apologized like a kind person should.
I just did that because it’s something you could never do,
Be kind I mean,
You never really understood how to.
The actions that you preform are just to put on a show.
Im still in shock,
On how quickly you turned on me.
In the end you lost a lot of things,
In the end you lost me.
I'm happy,that you are happy.
I'm celebrating your love.
I'm standing here beside you.
Watching you walking down the aisle,
Toward your one true love.
I pray to God everyday,
For him to never let you loose your smile.
I'm asking him to take care of you,
Since I've given up on what has been mine.
You've asked me,
if I ever fell for someone,
If I ever missed someone.
I didn't answered,just walked off,
Then I looked up in the sky and said
You have a life,
full of love ahead of you,
Don't ask me to come back.
You have everything you ever wanted,
Just loose your best friend.
so it happens. people die. some too early, some too late. does it even matter when?
life’s full of ups and downs. i didn’t get to experience the best things in life. to get a child. to love someone so deeply, that you know it’s him you want to spend the rest of your life with.
but not the worst either. to loose someone close to you. to get hurt deeply in your heart.
so it’s actually okay. life's the best, but also the worst. i loved it.
Being sad as I am
Became comfortable around your sadness
We shared a similar outlook on life
We both smiled in public
Broke down in private
We both wait for our own death
Just so we wont have to deal with life
And the torture we both are put in
I sometimes believe I have more hope than you
Then I get to this point and I understand
It's just my mask
The mask I put so others wont ask questions
You only wear your mask for strangers
I wear my mask for almost everyone
So yes I loved you
But you started to add more pain
than sympathize with my own
When you decided to make me wait
For a day that will never come