I am afraid that you are falling in love with the expectations you have of me
While you ignore the toxic version of me
The loud, broken, desperate version of me
You don’t really see me, you see job offers
a few kids, a wedding ring, new homes, new cars
While you ignore my deep scars
I am afraid you are falling in love with who you want me to be
While ignoring the real me, the trauma suffering, addict struggling, broken soul, who is afraid to love
You are ignoring the angry man who needs therapy but decides it’s better to feed his anger and throw his emotions at the end of liquor bottles
The man who your mother warned you would break your heart.
I am a victim of my pain, but you ignore that because you see something within. You want me to be that perfect man of your dreams, that you forget to face your nightmares
You hide my scars, feed me compliments while preaching to me about your biological timeline, lying and telling me everything will turn out fine if I find a job that makes a lot of money, bought a new car, a new home with a picket fence, change my accent, dress and act a certain way
Please don’t try to save me
Save your imagination for thinking it can transform me to meet your expectations
Sometimes those we love to forget to love the real version of us. They think about all the great things and forget to address the warning signs early due to their need to make you their "one and only". Expectations destroy relationships and **** any hope for change. We need to do better at truly loving each other.