I can’t explain the feeling
I can’t pen what I am thinking
It’s to hard to explain
It’s not a pain
But I have this aching
Happiness is what I’m faking
I was told this is called loneliness
And others describe it as an emptiness
But in truth it cannot be told
It is only a feeling one must hold
For how long is unknown
And it will last for as long as I am alone
It’s sparked by thoughts
When reading Shakespeare plots
For it makes me wish I had a companion
Who I would never abandon
But I will never know
For on it’s own love doesn’t grow
And it also can only be experienced
Which I will only ever see, for I am distanced
Sorry to bring down those who have love
But this is to relate to those who have none to speak of
And with that I am back to the beginning
There is no real way expressing this feeling
feelings are felt and only partly expressed...
I did my best
Politics - what is this?
Everybody wants to convince us that their opinion is the right one.
There is nothing like one right way.
Many ways lead to the goal.
People try to explain the world to us.
But what if we want to experience all of that by ourselves.
All ways may be right for us and our future.
Our life - our future - it belongs to us and nobody else.
do not require
an explanation of
you know what the meaning is
but you don't explain it
Drowning – 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔.
Running – 𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒, 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦.
Burying - 𝐻𝑢𝑠ℎ. 𝐿𝑒𝑡 𝑢𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒.
Deceiving - 𝐸𝑚𝑏𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒...
You breathe on excuses, don't you?
𝑂ℎ ℎ𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑦, 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛.
𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑛.
You will find a way around all my questions, around all your sins.
You always do.
you‘re still on my mind
and maybe this idea of love makes me blind
I guess, for you, I really fell
your name is the only one I can spell
still remember your smell
hoping you’re doing well
so if you’re reading this,
can’t you get me a kiss?
wait, what do you mean
“you’re not the girl I miss“?
you’re still on my mind
should I really leave it behind?
you could at least come back
and explain what made us crack
or we could start over,
maybe get a lil’ closer
because hope is the last to die
and I don’t want to say goodbye
- gio, 22.03.2020
One of the hardest things to say to someone is goodbye
especially if you can’t give a reason or explain why.
From "Simple Observations" ongoing writings since the early '90's.
It is relatively simple to say "I love you"
Much harder to explain
Like the sun's held hostage in my soul
Even when in unbearable pain
Me trying to explain how love feels
All I feel is sadness, anger and pain.
It's really beginning to drive me insane.
Sometimes I start to cry,
and no, I don't know why.
People want to understand
and take me by their hand.
They say it's going to be okay.
Turns out that's all they can say.
How do I explain to you the feeling of
inadequacy when someone loves or compliments?
How do I explain to you the fear of being a disappointment
or not having climbed up to someone's level of expectation?
How do I explain when without warning I am plagued
with self doubt, layered with chaotic-heavy-blues
and harboring insecurities?
How do I explain when I don't want
these thoughts to matter?
when I just want them to be deprived
of care that they die within,
and never surface to my skin.
But somehow like the crashing waves
they envelope me in the depths and like
the black hole **** me from within.
How do you explain
Is there an explanation
Explain it to me...
Brian Hill - 2019 # 166
Sometimes you just want someone to explain it...