And she's broken
She knows it
But she laughs
She laughs?
She laughs to mask the pain
Pain?
Pain knowing that her future is evident
and it scares her.

Can I just go?
Where the wind blows
And the sun shines.

Can I leave?
If I believe
That I will succeed.

Can I run?
And have fun
Without a worry.

Can I fly?
Up in the sky
Away from you.

*Can I?

Hello
Children
From
Above
Please
Save
Me
From
The
Effects
Of
Ecstasy
The one that rips your heart in two
That fakes a heart attack
The horrible kind
The one called
Love.

Hello,
Someone,
Anyone,
Please hear me.
Hello,
Father,
Mother,
Please listen.
There is something I have been meaning to tell you.
The issues in my head won't go away,
and sometimes I look at you and think you don't love me,
I am so insecure about my personality,
So I lie to mask myself.
This anxiety is ripping parts of me away,
The parts that can't be replaced,
There is no transplant to replace my mind.
Hello,
Someone,
Anyone,
Please hear me.
Hello,
Father,
Mother,
Please listen.
There is something I have been meaning to tell you.
I am slowly dying inside and I don't think you understand.
This is serious almost inconspicuous,
So this is what I ask of you,
Please tell me that you love me,
Reassure me that you care,
Bring out myself in me,
and show me that you're there,
This is the only way to get better
Reassurance is key
This will help me put back the me in me.
Sincerely,
A anxiety filled body.

I tried to quit
This awful Habit
I ended up far deeper
Into this hole I dug.
♦♦♦
I'm hopeless and smokeless,
and just imagining
How much I love the taste of smoke.
♦♦♦
You call me a fool,
and threaten to leave
Have you tasted this magnificent taste?
♦♦♦
You throw them away
and scream and yell
I am back to this depressing state.
♦♦♦
Now I am hopeless and smokeless
and ready to leave
Five more dollars,
and I think I am free.
♦♦♦
I won't be free when I'm dead
Or gone crazy inside my head
I'm still hopeless and smokeless
But now I'm a fool.

I’m worried for the sake of me
not for the sake of you.
I’m expected to appreciate what you have done for me
instead I can’t help but look at you with deep hatred
Did you plan to leave me?
To rip my heart out and throw it away like nothing.
I gave up my life for you. I spent every day with you.
And you can leave me just like that?
***** the kids. I wanted you.
But you chose her over any of us.
Thanks for that.
Sincerely,
Me.

Here is where my body lies
fast asleep with much goodbyes
unshed tears fill up my tomb
just outside my mother's womb
«»
It's ok mom, to let me go
God just didn't let me grow
Daddy please, don't be mad
They'll be plenty more to add
«»
A pained expression fills your eyes
as you see me start to die
You softly whisper in my ear
I will always love you, my dear.

Your kiss stings like a snake bite
Your way of love just isn't right
Your hits hurt more than my wrist
♣♣♣
I pray for the day I don't wake up
Because today I am hopeless
My hope disappeared,
Like the smoke from your cigarette.
♣♣♣
I wrote a letter and grabbed the rope
Ready to end my today,
and **** my tomorrow.

Welcome, Mr. Creator
to my home
to the one place where I can speak freely
to the one place I can be me
The bed I sleep in is invisible
My mother is invisible
But you, Mr. Creator
You are not invisible
You are here with me right now
and it feels so good to greet you
Mr. Creator, I warn you
This place will **** your feelings away
and put them in writing
You'll get used to it
Take my hand
We will walk through the words,
Together.

I'm a queen without royalty
Speaking of behalf of loyalty
We're turning on each other
Instead of standing with one another
To defeat all the evil that's brewing
Stand with your mother
Stand with your brother
Stay with each other
and stick together
I'm speaking on behalf of loyalty
Loyalty to ourselves
Loyalty to someone else
I'm a queen without royalty
Trying to get your attention