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Holey Feb 2016
People surround the rain washed evidence
whilst cars pull to the side
People attired with obvious decadence
The culprits smiling with pride
Trash littered the up kept lawn
Liquid seeping out of forgotten containers
Companion’s up until the break of dawn
Neighbors labeled the complainer
The yelling of over protective loved ones
A lesson needs to be learned
to stifle a yell, Air fills your lungs
Until the next day when your returned
Remember what you have done
until next time a decision is made
Otherwise they have won
No more of the games you have played
Gooooood Morning all my little saplings.
Have a fantastic day!
Holey Feb 2016
You broke my heart
And had a part
In my early grave.
Yet you stand here and wander,
In a never ending ponder
Have you come to your conclusion?
Your eyes are scared
But your face holds a scowl
As if something is haunting you.
I forgot, I'm a ghost!
And I poison your dreams!
Maybe that's why.
Holey Jul 2016
A breath of air is like a fresh start
No matter how hard life is at the moment
If you step outside and just breathe
All the worries are washed away
Ellooo
Holey May 2019
And she's broken
She knows it
But she laughs
She laughs?
She laughs to mask the pain
Pain?
Pain knowing that her future is evident
and it scares her.
I'm back, saplings <3
Holey Sep 2017
I wish you a future, child
I wish you no pain, child
I wish you innocent love
and a full stomach, child
I wish you blue skies, child
I wish you big dreams, child
I see your eyes begin to fade
I know deep down the life I've made
I tried to refrain from touching the plug
but we all lean down for one last hug
Child of mine,
Dance with the stars
Say hello to the moon
I will see you soon
I wished you no pain
I wished you a future
I wished you blue skies
and dreams as big as your heart
You left this world in pain
Our hearts will forever feel that strain
But knowing you are safe and sound
Will keep you and I forever bound.
To the woman that sent me this story, your daughter will forever be in my heart. Saplings, dream big and love hard. Till next time~
Holey Feb 2016
Can I just go?
Where the wind blows
And the sun shines.

Can I leave?
If I believe
That I will succeed.

Can I run?
And have fun
Without a worry.

Can I fly?
Up in the sky
Away from you.

*Can I?
Holey May 2019
When I took you,
                  When I took you it stripped away worry.
When I took you,
                  When I took you I finally felt like me.
You were in reach,
                  You were in reach, so easily attainable
and it was crazy,
                   it was crazy to think that you would be
                   the answer to the 19 year old question,
                    "Who am I?"
                    "Who is me?"
I took you and it felt amazing,
                   I took you, and for that short while I felt calm.
But nothing ever lasts and one is never by itself.
I don't have anything to say to this one y'all
Holey May 2016
I live in the wilderness
Shower in the rain
Dry in the sun
and change my mind an hour later.
Holey Mar 2016
I smile when I look at you
Laying fast asleep
I don't think about what I do
This sight I will always keep

Before it's too late to say goodbye
I'll give you my last words
Bye for now, See you later,
Ciao.
Holey Jan 2017
I'm lonely and broken
And what little I had left has been stolen
They say it's the way of life
But this is one circle, I choose not to join in
This poem is driving me insane I shouldn't have ever made you switch lanes
Now my cars empty and my hearts empty
And nothing will make this pain go away
I'm left with my thoughts and an empty soul, come back and make my heart whole
They say it's the way of life
But all I ever wanted was to make you my wife
A little twist and happiness at the end
Dudes perspective
Holey Feb 2016
This where I lie
All because I tried
Which will be on my mind
Till the day you die
-
I await your fall
And get ready to crawl
Into your vengeful dreams
-
I sit here and wait
For the upcoming date
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock.
And it never came.
Holey Nov 2017
I went to your place last night
I laid in bed willing my conscience to leave
and I saw you crying yourself to sleep
I wish this was something you'd believe
But for now this is a secret I will keep.
Have a lovely day my saplings, -TR
Holey Aug 2017
I will forever be stuck with a jar full of couch pennies.
Sitting on a bench, on my own, in my twenties
Begging with a cup for some spare change
Free housing can be arranged
I thank Trump for my life
as I stare sadly at the knife
Thank you Trump for my life
I'll make sure and use this knife
another one (:
Holey Feb 2016
Sometimes I feel like I am sinking, and as I sink deeper into this black abyss, I think of you, and as I think of you, I start to change my mind, and then I start to crave. Crave for the chance to take a big gulp of air and float to the top. But I've sunk too far down to be saved.
Holey Mar 2016
Do you honestly care
Or are you just using me for your games?
Your lies left my emotions bare
and I'm constantly put to shame
The sadness lies in me
The hatred lies in you
When will you see
The blood in dangerous hues.
I'm back! Back in the New York Groooove ♪♫  Or well... Country Grooves lol
Holey Nov 2016
Dear Sister, you chose to leave.
You let me grieve upon loss.
You let me put myself last and yourself first.
You let me worry when I shouldn't.
You let me cry for you.
You let me get angry.
You let me feel pain.
You let me feel anxious.
You let.. you didn't let me do anything.
I chose to be the one to do that for you. To feel that with you.
You decided to take that for granted, and for that.. I owe you nothing.
I don't owe you a place to stay.
I don't owe you my love.
I don't owe you kindness.
I don't owe you anything.
Nobody owes you their time of day.
Nobody owes you the physical items you hold in your hand.
So why go around treating everyone like dirt?
To make the people that care about you suffer.
If it's to make yourself feel better, then I hope you feel worse.
To my.. *dear* sister.
Holey Feb 2016
Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me
Don't worry if I cry
Don't worry if I dream.
~
Don't worry if the sun rises
Don't worry if it falls
Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me.
~
Don't worry if I'll make it
Don't worry if I don't
Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me.
~
I worry if you'll ever stop
I'll worry if you do
Because little old me,
Worries about you.
Hellloooo all the saplings in the world!
Have a fulfilled fantastic day!
Holey Feb 2016
Dream son, dream with delight!
Dream for a future so bright!
One day you'll thank me,
Because one day you'll be me
Telling your son the same thing.
Holey Jul 2016
Hello
Children
From
Above
Please
Save
Me
From
The
Effects
Of
Ecstasy
The one that rips your heart in two
That fakes a heart attack
The horrible kind
The one called
Love.
Holey Jan 2020
I'm lonely
Oh god am I lonely
I can't breathe through this hole in my heart
It's incapacitating my mind and I can't shake this feeling of forever being alone.
I'm broken
Once a masterpiece
Always a broken soul
Darkness invading my brain
Stripping away who I am
And leaving only the empty shell I've become
I'm lonely
Oh god am I lonely
Clinging onto the only hope I have
Knowing once you've taken that too
Nothing I wish will ever come true.
Hello lovelies
Holey Jun 2018
Don't fight the system, they say
Yet they're okay with splitting families
We sit here and watch the news
And take our pain away with *****
Don't fight the system, they say
But we listen, and they still make us pay?
Raise taxes! Raise taxes!
Why aren't we taking action?
We're millions of people
Letting one, pave our future
Let's talk about schools,
Are you going to sit and wait for another shooter?
You aren't safe, your kids aren't safe
Yet he gets to walk away, unscathed.
Why can you just sit there?
Clasping your hands and saying a prayer.
Don't you think he would have done something by now?
We need to learn to fix this, somehow
I won't let this go any longer
And with more hands in mine
Thou let the peace grow stronger.
I'm back!
Holey Jan 2018
I'm supposed to wake up like flowers
and grow like vines
I fall asleep with eye-showers
and walk along blurry lines
I'm expected to stand tall like trees
and sprout wings and be free.
But silly old me
Doesn't understand being free.
Here's another one for you, my saplings ♥
Holey Jul 2016
The hardest thing to do is say goodbye
and I know that first hand
It's rough when you feel so close to them
and then are ripped from your life
It makes you feel jealous to the people that are
Holey Feb 2016
As I stare out my window,
I come to realize
That I'm quite sick of hate
I write, I cry
And I hate, hate, hate
That I am sick of hating hate.
Holey Mar 2018
I don't know when I'm not home
This love I give, does not go
Where you are and here I stay
Nothing will make this love go away
I can't be alone, all by myself
This pain I have, you have not felt
As much as I pop, it does not stray
But my heart strings you pull have started to fray.
Another one, My saplings
Holey Mar 2016
I'm a compulsive liar
It's the truth
I use it to mask my anxiety
You say one thing,
I say another
We're the same, you and me
Hello lie, goodbye anxiety
Now I'm better than you,
Until you catch me.
and then it's hello anxiety
and goodbye life.
I am not one... But I know alot of them >.<
Holey Jul 2016
Hello,
Someone,
Anyone,
Please hear me.
Hello,
Father,
Mother,
Please listen.
There is something I have been meaning to tell you.
The issues in my head won't go away,
and sometimes I look at you and think you don't love me,
I am so insecure about my personality,
So I lie to mask myself.
This anxiety is ripping parts of me away,
The parts that can't be replaced,
There is no transplant to replace my mind.
Hello,
Someone,
Anyone,
Please hear me.
Hello,
Father,
Mother,
Please listen.
There is something I have been meaning to tell you.
I am slowly dying inside and I don't think you understand.
This is serious almost inconspicuous,
So this is what I ask of you,
Please tell me that you love me,
Reassure me that you care,
Bring out myself in me,
and show me that you're there,
This is the only way to get better
Reassurance is key
This will help me put back the me in me.
Sincerely,
A anxiety filled body.
Saplings... This is true.
Holey Jun 2016
Yes I left,
I took a break
Now I am back
and here to stay.
Was I missed?
Or hated strongly
My apologies, my saplings...
I'm here for you now.
Helloooo!!! I am back!
Holey Feb 2016
I tried to quit
This awful Habit
I ended up far deeper
Into this hole I dug.
♦♦♦
I'm hopeless and smokeless,
and just imagining
How much I love the taste of smoke.
♦♦♦
You call me a fool,
and threaten to leave
Have you tasted this magnificent taste?
♦♦♦
You throw them away
and scream and yell
I am back to this depressing state.
♦♦♦
Now I am hopeless and smokeless
and ready to leave
Five more dollars,
and I think I am free.
♦♦♦
I won't be free when I'm dead
Or gone crazy inside my head
I'm still hopeless and smokeless
But now I'm a fool.
Holey Jun 2016
I can be this love in your heart.
I can be this..this disease that crowds your memory.
I can be the one thing that clouds you're judgement and ruins your life.
I can learn every little thing about you a manipulate you into submission.
I can be whatever I choose to be to change you into the perfect love.
I rolled out another one.
Holey Jul 2016
No one tells you they care about you,
and loneliness lingers near,
This awful feeling isn't new,
and I know what you're going through.
I will just leave this here..
Holey May 2019
So you're insecure...
You've come to the right place
I wear the mask of alter
and then dance the night through peoples eyes
Oh sweet golly another one? Hidden meaning maybe.. :)
Holey Feb 2016
I love the thing that hates me.
Nothing I do matters
So I will just give up.
The truth is
Right in front of you
Until you turn around.
Can you please look at me?
The look in your eyes give me chills
I hope that
One day
No one forgets me.
Holey Sep 2017
I'm not good enough
I'm not small enough
I'm ugly
I'm untalented
I’m not smart enough
Not happy enough
I’m not enough.
Holey Jul 2016
******.
I'm so intrigued by you
You invade my thoughts
Making it hard for me to go a day without you.
Holey Nov 2016
You call me when you need me
not because you want me
you say goodbye when you want
not when it suits me

What happened to secrets?
now my life's out in the open

What happened to love?
You gave your heart to another girl
now I am stuck in the dirt
begging at your feet

Do I need to cry myself to sleep?

I will not take this pain
there is no gain
so just let me end it hear
this is my last call
Goodb.. Silence.
Holey Jun 2016
I’m worried for the sake of me
not for the sake of you.
I’m expected to appreciate what you have done for me
instead I can’t help but look at you with deep hatred
Did you plan to leave me?
To rip my heart out and throw it away like nothing.
I gave up my life for you. I spent every day with you.
And you can leave me just like that?
***** the kids. I wanted you.
But you chose her over any of us.
Thanks for that.
Sincerely,
Me.
Sorry for the angry one today...folks. Love you. -Roots
Holey Feb 2016
Here is where my body lies
fast asleep with much goodbyes
unshed tears fill up my tomb
just outside my mother's womb
«»
It's ok mom, to let me go
God just didn't let me grow
Daddy please, don't be mad
They'll be plenty more to add
«»
A pained expression fills your eyes
as you see me start to die
You softly whisper in my ear
I will always love you, my dear.
Holey Feb 2016
Your kiss stings like a snake bite
Your way of love just isn't right
Your hits hurt more than my wrist
♣♣♣
I pray for the day I don't wake up
Because today I am hopeless
My hope disappeared,
Like the smoke from your cigarette.
♣♣♣
I wrote a letter and grabbed the rope
Ready to end my today,
and **** my tomorrow.
Hellllooooo my little saplings. Sorry about this depressing one... Its not how I feel, but writing happy poems are hard. Hope you like it :D
Holey Nov 2016
The feeling of loss is indescribable.
It's a feeling that none other comes close to.
It's a feeling of being utterly alone and helpless.
The good thing about loss is it's the one time people show they care.
It's the one time everyone comes together.
It's the one time you are given company when you believed you would be alone forever.
It's brings a sense of loneliness with a touch of hope.
Forever Rest in Peace Arthur Stenger and Elijah Vajgert
Mom
Holey Feb 2017
Mom
My head hurts, mom
Please come and take the pain away, mom
I'm not holding my breath, I can't breath
No one understands my brain, but me
The way I think, the path I've lain
and when the dead comes and whispers in my ear,
I'll make sure that you come and hear.
↝⍣↝⍣↝⍣↝
My tears keep stealing water from the ocean
and every effort I make ends in lost devotion.
My heart hurts, mom
Please come and take the pain away, mom
I don't know who I want near, mom
Everyone I want can't come here, mom
It's my natural instinct to run to you, mom
But, I try my hardest to show you I grew, mom
I'm not some little girl with an innocent mentality
But, I am someone who tries to escape reality
Two attempts and I've failed, mom
I'm feeling better but my mind is still jailed
I will keep my mind locked up for now
And only let thoughts out that you allow.
I hope you all like it. Let me know! -Roots
Holey Aug 2017
I don't have motivation to move
There aren't many things I have to lose
Maybe that's my issue
I'm too depressed to leave
and have very little to achieve
I'm stuck in bed with the lights off
with no motivation to move
Finally out of writers block. I missed my little saplings ♥
Holey Feb 2018
Welcome, Mr. Creator
to my home
to the one place where I can speak freely
to the one place I can be me
The bed I sleep in is invisible
My mother is invisible
But you, Mr. Creator
You are not invisible
You are here with me right now
and it feels so good to greet you
Mr. Creator, I warn you
This place will **** your feelings away
and put them in writing
You'll get used to it
Take my hand
We will walk through the words,
Together.
Welcome, newcomers.
Holey Feb 2016
I am what keeps you awake at night,
I am what invades your sleep,
I put your fear into a fake reality.
This is a scary one.
Holey Feb 2016
A whistle flew past my ear,
and I stay in hiding
They're almost here
I will not surrender
So I square my shoulders and fire
I fall for what seems like eternity
and count the stings
as I slowly close my eyes
ready to succumb to death
I see a figure standing in front of me,
and then I wake up.
Holey Sep 2017
I watch the numbers
I worry about the numbers
I don't think I'm good enough if I don't see the numbers
Low numbers- I'm crying
Big numbers- I'm smiling
I'm not good enough
Not good enough
Not good..
enough.
I struggle when the likes and the views on my poems are low.. it makes me feel like my poems aren't good.
Holey Mar 2016
Over the hills
And through the land
A fair maiden lived to serve
A wretched deal
On a doubtful day
Left her mind confused.
So over the hills
And under the law
A fair maiden lived to run
Speeding away from a stupid man
On a miserable day.
So over the hills
And through a cemetery
A fair maiden lived to haunt
Haunting the one thing that caused her demise
On one spiteful day.
Holey Dec 2017
I'm a queen without royalty
Speaking of behalf of loyalty
We're turning on each other
Instead of standing with one another
To defeat all the evil that's brewing
Stand with your mother
Stand with your brother
Stay with each other
and stick together
I'm speaking on behalf of loyalty
Loyalty to ourselves
Loyalty to someone else
I'm a queen without royalty
Trying to get your attention
Holey Feb 2016
I saw your eyes rain today,
What started as a slight drizzle
Turned into a heavy pour.
Just a short one :)
Holey Apr 2016
Add a pinch of love and hate
Mixed with a cup of confusion
Don't forget the Anxiety
Laced with abnormality
Mix it all together
And you get the perfect concoction of me
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