Now is not the time to cry me a river, but be the river.
It's the time to stand strong and mighty
Making every dark thought flow through you, not on.
Your head is the river, your thoughts a current
Dragging your emotions along.
The person that owns the boat
Is the person that holds the key to your mind.

Forgetful rocks slide in my brain.
I can't remember your face
My health spirals like an off track train
Memories gone without a trace.
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You'll have to introduce yourself
Because I have forgotten you
Please don't forget me
as I start to forget you
Because the rocks have filled my brain.

I sit patiently and wait for the waves to consume the sand house I built
A sand house built with the hate that's grown over a period of time.
A sand house built like a sad house, growing weaker and weaker everyday.
The waves roll over my sand house filling the crevices with water.
After the water drains I look at my house and am shocked.
My sand house is packed with more sand, strengthening the walls.

My sand house built like a sad house, built stronger and stronger everyday.
I sit and wait again for the waves to consume the sand house I built
The sand house, filled with all the hate and distress created.
This sand house filled with me, filled with everything that I am.
So I must be strong if I can withstand these waves of trials and tribulations
If I can push out the water and come back a stronger me.

I am not beautiful
I am just a symbol of destruction
So I beg of you,
Just put me out of my misery
and throw away the memory.
Tear me down
like you tore down my hope
throw me out in the ocean
and cut the rope.
Now say goodbye.

Three eyes and a imagination
I am the seer that comes to you
Bad future and darkness ahead
The blind one that sees

I found a buck on the ground!
i cried.
BUT IT GAVE ME A REASON TO LEAVE
just for twenty minutes
trapped in my brain
*send pleasure

Are you the man that shares my blood?
I said with tears creating a flood.
His eyes were scared his stance mean
Filled with hatred never before seen.
I lean in as to give him a hug
But stop midway and we both share a shrug.
Is there a reason your personality changed so much
You walk away at the slightest of touch.
You're not the father you're supposed to be
It's not we anymore it's just me.
I went to find you to say my goodbyes
and clear the air thats filled with lies.
I can't call it a goodbye when it's bad
and left me feeling very sad.
Maybe someday you'll come back
And our feelings will finally unpack.

To see multiple humans acting as one is a refreshing sight,
It's a sight saved for the most historic occasions.

You really hit the nail on the head this time, dear
Now's the chance to never let anyone, near
It's my turn to slither inside your thoughts
You better go and perfect those knots
°•°
Please go and check you wrists
And I'll write you down, on my list
I'm the devil, I invade your dreams
And I laugh when I hear your screams.

Step up to a world
Step down to a man
Step over fate
and under love
Step nowhere else
Step somewhere here
or everywhere no one is.

Five steps to get to the door
Five steps back.
Twelve steps to get to the stairs
Twelve steps back.
Thirty steps to get out the door
Thirty steps back.
Five hundred and three steps to get out of town
Five hundred and three steps back.
Six thousand and ninety two steps to get out of state
Six thousand and ninety two steps back.
Three hundred and two, thousand steps to get half way
Three hundred and two, thousands steps to get back.
Six hundred and five thousand steps to get to you
Six hundred and five thousand steps to get back.
These steps I walk to get you and these steps I take to get back
Are worth the amount of time it takes

If you act so tall
The harder you'll fall
The quicker you die
The easiest lie
Don't be confused
or act amused
Confidence is key
Let your heart bleed

We struggle with what our parents taught us
That it was wrong to love the same gender
That we need to stay away from the colored folk
That thin people were beautiful and thick was unhealthy
and to stay away from the weird ones.
Even that if you have *** before you're married, you're a *****
and if they aren't Jesus lovers then they were raised poorly.
They taught us money and looks over love
and that an animal is just an animal.
They taught you wrong.
Love is love no matter the gender
A person is a person no matter the color
No matter the weight
No matter the appearance
No matter the personality
No matter the ****** activity
No matter the religion
and an animal is not just an animal.. It's a life.
Your parents taught you wrong
So I will teach you right.

We are the seeds of our own evil
We can choose to feed the seed until it keeps growing
Or we can choose not to feed into the evil
Because once that seed is planted
It will take more effort to rid of the evil,
Than it was to plant.

Forward into the fiction of humanity and slave away a once overcrowded race
Creatures crowd me and fight for an alienated bill of our rights
So turn your pitchforks to each other soldier because once again survival is the fittest
Watch as I order myself the new king of the hill and see to it that you bow down to me
Once again I am the new democracy I am the new fear that you etch into your brains.
If one decides to challenge me then that one will become the new floorboards I walk on
If the floor isn’t good enough for my elegance to walk on, then I expect you to lay down.
I am the ruler that you run from
I am the ruler that you hate
But make your feet dance before me or you won’t have to feel the fear anymore
You’ll feel my hands around your neck.

They say to be still
Your arms sway in defiance
With sad emotion

Traveling thunder
And rolling lies
Thoughts down under
And scarred thighs
Slashed feelings
and thoughts of suicide
Oh when god, when will I die?
I’m feeling stuck, ****, I’m stuck
So why god, why, why am I alone?
Scarred thighs
Scarred lies
Scarred wrists
And feelings dismissed
I’ll open the bottle and count
One,
Two,
All the way to thirteen
Thirteen and I’m done.
Thirteen and I’m free.
Thirteen.

It is not the time to go away
It is not the time to start to pray
It is not the time to say you care
and not the time to ask to share
It is not the time to say goodbye
It is not the time to try and lie
All I ask is a one week warning..
But that is too hard for you isn't it.

Hear the toppling tumbling trees fall down into the mirroring water. Nature surrounds my close friend as they canoe down the raging river. They stop to look at the green forest. Yellow finches coolly and steadily chirping as their bright beautiful feathers float into the forest wind. I can imagine an alarming avalanche, as the snow mound sails down as if it were screaming at low E. scarring my close friends away. feeling the gratitude of climbing to the top of that dangerous mountain crying for accomplishment, yelling I did it.

Goodnight, my friends
Goodbye, my friends
Wipe all those stray tears
Days have dwindled past
And now I prove your fears
Goodnight, my friends
Goodbye, my friends
I'll see you next year.

I feel like such a disgrace to you
So caught up in my human world
That even the stench of blood doesn't bother me anymore.
I'm transformed, reborn, renewed.
I'm am no longer a vampire.

I sit there and stare into his dark gaze, unable to move do to the fear that has latched itself onto my legs.
Lips trembling, face bloodied and bruised.
The only words I am able to form are begs.
He looks at me with a face filled with disgust, hard steps towards me.
I form enough courage to sprint towards my only escape, the door.
I thought he loved me,
I thought I meant something,
It's my fault,
I should have given him what he wanted.
All the thoughts run through my head as I slowly stop running, I take a deep breath and slowly walk back. Thoughts already forming an excuse and an apology. He meets me at the door with a smile.
"I knew you'd be back."
The last sounds I hear are police sirens.

Welcome Miss. Poet to this land of fun
Welcome you and welcome all to this land of imagination.
Welcome Miss. Poet to a world inside your mind.
Welcome you and welcome all to this never ending story.
Welcome Miss. Poet to this land of difference.
Welcome you and welcome all to a world full of creativity.
Welcome.

What am I to do when you invade my life?
What am I to do when you refuse to say goodbye?
What am I to do when you lie, lie, lie?
What am I to do?
What am I to do when you overstep your boundaries?
What am I to do when you can't seem to stop?
What am I to do when I feel all alone?
What am I to do when I want it all to end?
What am I to do when I just give up?
I give up.
That's the end.
The end.

With the birds still singing
and the grass still green
I'm gonna put our problems behind me
With my heart still beating
and my brain still thinking
I'm gonna wash your face from my memory
With our kids still forgetting
and the money still coming
I'm gonna keep you away from the rest of my life
With the diggers still digging
and my children still weeping
I'm gonna get ready to join you
We will wait together
and watch our children,
Forever.