I am held together by tape and pins inside, make shift stitches are the only things keeping myself from falling apart. There are so many chips In my skin I do not know If they are from mine or everybody else’s loathing. My strings are so weak there is no telling when I will have to cut them, and let my limbs fall far beneath my feet. You would think I would be better at keeping myself from ruining everything else, but I have spent too much time tearing myself up to know how to hold anything worth saving In my bloodied hands. My lips have been stretched so thin from keeping all my secrets locked inside I drool blood and grief through the sutures. Please use me, i have no idea how to do this on my own, and I am not my own master anymore. I don’t know how to exist without you. I have been left on the floor for so long I am a mess of broken attempts to fix something that cannot be mended. I am unsure I will even work right, but I need someone to tug on my ropes and make it seem like I am more alive than this.
You made me play your game. Now I'll never be the same. I believed the lie you told. Now that I know the truth, I've never felt so cold. So alone. Heart feels heavy like it's made of stone. I can feel myself sinking. Ever closer to depression. Despair. In desperation I cry out "is anyone there?" No one answers of course. Then your voice pops in my head saying "nobody cares." For a second, I believe it. Then I remember your deceit. In a moment of clarity, I realize listening to you would mean I admit defeat. But I wont let you win. I'll take your words and make them mine. It's the end of the line.
Draws you into her Go don't return we are done Closed up her heart burn
What at one time was the greatest love of my life was also the greatest tragedy of my life. She regulates her love, pulling you in dot keep. Then pushs you out off the cliff into the cold water deep, ice in her eyes frozen seems her heart, I saw it melt when her defenses were down that was before she ripped mine apart. Some can repair breaks like this but to her she shutdown forever to be missed, hope she is well I dont know why, I should a mean and spiteful guy. But that's not me I never have been, I have too much love I cant give in.
The sight of you is an enveloping substance A supreme ****** stimulant Eradicating all commitment and restraint I try to fight but the tenacity of your figure Is in complete control You are a ventriloquist I am a puppet Suspended by strings Manipulated by ***